Please, if you can find it in your hearts to share this, I'd be forever grateful!
We live in Denver, CO
So it'll help even if you don't live here, but have friends out here.
Last seen off of 40th and airport road
Please PLEASE keep an eye out for my two babies.
Roommate left the door open, and I hadn't had the collars on them at the time. Got out this morning in the Montbello area, but who knows how far they have gotten by now. Please share, and post on facebook or ANYWHERE!
Photographer: In A Dream Photography/Jordan Matthews Location: Westminster, CO
Bringing you my last set for 2013: Winter's Blood.
That day it was a -8 degrees Fahrenheit and getting colder by the minute it seemed during dusk. Which the sun was setting around 4 pm that day. We had a lot to cover in a short amount of time and though we could have done much more I believe we got what I was looking for. Next time I ever do a shoot in snow, I plan on being a bit more prepare to keep warm instead of just hoping for the best like I did here. If I would have stayed out later then I did I could have gotten frost bite on toes and frost burn on my hands. A bit scary and very much a close call.
I cant wait to start on my 2014 shoots and I've got some amazing one planned already so stay tuned =^.^=
I guess I had shoved it out of my head, the dates of yours. It's easier for me to remember your death date than your birthdate. And I'm sorry. I remember that dream I had about 3 weeks ago. The first one I could really remember your eyes. You stared directly at me, however, slightly over my shoulder. As if you heard me, but could not see me. And I woke up crying. Took a great deal for my boyfriend to calm me down.
It's not that I've shoved you out of my memories, it's just I've tried harder not to think about stuff.
Anyways, my aunt was talking to me today, telling me how she wanted to meet me one day. My mom came to America in her 20's and I'm not sure when the last time she had seen any of her sisters or brothers, or her mom. My grandpa came to live in America for a great while. Even lived with my mom and I.
She than told me that today was my mom's birthday. I wish you were here. :'(
I wish she was here with me so I could go shopping with.
I loved how she always wore what she wanted, when, where, and however she please.
My new Etsy shop will be opening in a month or two, but I am trying to raise a little money before that is able to happen.
I will be selling movie/book/video+Computer game related candles, chapstick, bubble baths, and lotions.
My shop is called Swish N' Flick
You can find it here: www.Etsy.com/shop/SwishNFlick However there are no items there since my shop is not yet open.
You can also email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
I am selling these candles at a lower price while waiting to make my entire inventory for the store. These will also be made for my shop.
All are $9 except the candle with the whip topping. ($10)
What you see below are: Whipped topping Butterbeer, Lembas Brad, Sherbert Lemon, and the regular Butterbeer. They are 8 oz, and last about 60-70 hours.
I will have more here very soon that you can purchase before the shop is open but at the regular price. However, I always give discounts to my VF and FB friends, as well as my real friends.
Heading to bed at 5 pm and waking up around 10 pm seems to be the norm now for her. A deep hold over her body makes her like a log while sleeping but her mind forever active. Being able to hear, think, and almost 'see' beyond her eye lids as if seeing all that's happening around her while awake. Once 10 hit she slowly woke up. Moved slightly and saw a peak through the window that snow had fallen. Still falling. Her world was now just snow. The idea of a frozen wonderful where water ceased to move but existed. Where the wind felt like a knife from the chills. How the world stopped and seem frozen and gone. Nothing but the iced Remanence of Humans. The world around her became completely different and entirely her own and alone she felt. Though she enjoyed some of the changes she's been going through. Magnified eyes, being able to slightly move faster then normal, her scent was a love and hate relationship, her scars from past were slowly disappearing which to her was a fresh start. Even though trying to create new ones only ended up a memory with nothing left. As if the blade never ran across her skin.
"Oh jeez not again" she thought while withering in pain. For the past three months not only have physical changes been pushing through but her insides felt like they were dying. Running to the toilet she threw her pants down and felt every little muscle inside her cringe and tighten. Childbirth seemed nothing compared to this. She would be screaming at the top of her lungs though if no one was home but her parents as insightful as they are would probably faint at the though of what happened to their baby girl and everything spilled in detail and to what she was coping with. Coping. What a horrible word to even think of using. More like being forced. She didnt ask for this. She didn't want this. She had plenty of plans for her future. Her lively hood that now is literally being dashed down the toilet because some dude couldn't resist the taste of her. She did hear on the news of young girls going missing. Clubbing and having a wonderful time and the next minute their friends have no idea where they went and who they are with and are still missing. The clubs have nothing in common other then the happenings and she had this little ring in her head that maybe this was connected. Maybe she was fortunate to have been spared such an insufferable life. Compelled to look at her self for the first time may just be the key to coming to terms with who she is turning into.
Utter numbness. Utter disgust. More then just a sickly pale. More then random patches of blue veins reveling. And her wound. What a hideous looking thing. 4 holes made from teeth and the blood that never washes away. Never cracks and peels. And some leaks of it at the same hour of her biting. Nope. She couldn't believe this. She wouldn't. Vampyres do not exist and it's obsurred to think AND believe otherwise. Shaking her head ready to flush the toilet her excrement really looked like her insides. Feces, piss, black blood, white stuff. It all would make sense if..no. "Let it go. Let it go for now." Flushing she heads out for her reoccurring stroll after hours. Hoping to clear her head but she had no idea that she was never left alone
She could tell that others were noticing. Taking note and talking about it behind her back. Even her parents commenting on her changes. 3 months up until now it was easy to hide and cover and manipulate the story to seem more Human. Menstruation. Lack of sleep. Upset. All the words that correspond to a womans excuse. But now? Not now. Looking at herself in the mirror, dreading what others see. What others could be thinking. She hated her reflection now. If push came to shove she bet on anything people believed she was on some hardcore drug like Coke, Heroin or Meth. The truth no one would ever believe. She even tries to deny herself the possibility of it. The shower steam clogged the entire room and all the while she looked at her skin. What was once a beautiful ivory porcelain pale, now a sickly, death pigment. Her veins now more noticeable then ever on her chest, legs, and wrists. Her black hair dye slowly washing out days and days faster no matter how many times she dyed it. Her eyes to sensitive to light even whilst driving at night down a dark road when another car heads by. The shaping of her teeth slowly coming to a point. Her personality, the anger, the chaotic change between happy, sad and the temper. How long can she fend off the changes before it completely consumes her? When would that even be? Would He even come back? She hoped not. If it's one person she should hate with all her being is that man! That one single man who sought her out while she was walking! While she was minding her own business and snatched her up like a doll. Acted Human and gentlemanly just to get that one minute! That's all he needed before he was satisfied of her. Murdering should be legal. She would kill him in an instant for what he did to her and the 3 months of agonizing suffering and changes.
What a waste of water. Sitting here with her head against the wall and all of the heat now frozen cold and she couldn't even feel a thing. Frustrated and upset, she grabbed her towel and locked herself up in her room. The floor was all too inviting even in her towel and laid down. With her heart against the floor and her tears pooling beneath her, she had to move on. She must. She felt even a slight revenge on that despicable person it would be worth it. What ever this change is to be. For now, she live and work and avoid what Human contact she can. The excuse for work once it gets too bad not a single idea. "I'll make it through this." she whispered. "I'll come out stronger and who ever or what ever he is, I will find him and destroy him like he did to me. Then, once then I shall truly live."
Last year went by sooo fast. It was a difficult year, but only in the aspects of moving, money, and dealing with my boyfriend's messy lifestyle. But other than that it's been great. Simple, but great. I am yet again on a mermaid magazine, got another tattoo with bats and spiders, moved into a house where my bf and I get to make the rules, cut down my first Christmas tree, blocked my half sister (Not that it's a good thing, but when your sister starts talking smack about your passed away mother, the day before christmas eve, not really something I ever wanna deal with ever again in my life.) I put off modeling for a while, though I still did it here and there, just to have more time for myself, lost one of my best friends who I kinda considered my second mum, for god knows what reason, this and that that and this, anyways, super fast year.
This year I plan on really running my new Etsy shop, and hoping it'll become my full time job.
I also plan to lose a little bit more weight, or at least do lots of squats since I seem to never really lose weight. I just kinda stay put lol. Go to more farmers markets, save more money, spend more time with friends and dogs and the cats... Save more money again, or make more money, and go out and have fun more often.