Hey guys sorry I have no been coming online. But it will be more soon, have just been really busy with school. Yes. I know I am still going to school,I ended up transferring and my friend has moved in as well as her puppy and i shall be getting payments from the government. This means petrol, internet and food yayyyy! And also i have put in many applications to different places so hopefully I get a answer back with a job. *crosses fingers*
Mood: Pretty good. Music: Disturbing silence of the library.
I just want to make sure that you know I am not ignoring anyone.
I just had a rough weekend with 39°C of fever to keep me company.
I slept most of the time and my place is a mess.
Lol? Che cosa che di ridere? Are you making fun of my Italian?! Wait until you make a mistake in your English. :P Anyways....that saying about the apple is familiar even here. I had the flu last month, first time I got the flu since I was a kid. It's been a cold Spring for everyone this year. Damn bipolar Earth...literally.
Journal Entry | 1 Comment | about 7 hours agoOk..... seeing as being told I suck in bed isn't that big of a deal(sorry I'm not supper experienced and a porn star don't know all the moves and I'm still learning to love my body and accept it as is and seeing you are skinnier then me I can't very whell bounce on your cock acceptor a pogo stick or sit in your face),, and being told what I also suck at didn't upset me. (I'm aware I was a horibul sub with you[you never earned my trust, you were never around and you only called when you wanted something]I'm not a call girl ) now being told I'm not tight enough from you is not an insult (my gag ball was thicker then you....) I'm sorry I'm not supper tight, or supper hairless or supper confident(you among others have destroyed it) your ehh I've had better comment stings. But insulating my sexually(something we have in common) and my being beinga little and and insaulting what's mine, telling me that they are stupid for wanting me in their life's, has not only angered me way past momma bear. But to tears tears of confusion tears of pain tears of anger tears of loss.... You never accepted me for anything more then your punching bag.... but don't you dare insault the ones who see past the submissive trouble maker with a cute face and doe eyes or the sex toy and the anger pain and truck tons of self doubt and see the beautiful soul of a woman I am, and fight to stick around and support the growth that I have accomplished and are proud of me for, even tho I puss them off or make them cry or ignore what they say or hurt them... I'm not worthless( I have plenty) I'm not a bad girl(just not good for you) I'm not a bad lover(I'm just new) I'm not a horrible person(you just refuse to be kind , I refuse to be your door mat and co-sign your bullshit ) I know you love me (but but my love for you isn't gonna save your ass every time like it has been anymore) You hit every nerve yesterday by buying her my toy... but then I realized that it doesn't matter it's a toy... a piece of wood with a leather handle. I can and I will buy my own stuff to keep here... your opinion may be valid or welcomed you have the right to voice it but after thinking it over and crying over it does it really matter? Are you here no. Are you important to me in my day to day life and healthy for me to trust not to hurt me no. Your opinion dissent matter to me. So as much as you take up head space and you mean to me and how much I love you your opinions are invaluable invalid and I hope you don't hurt her with the toy you have no idea how to use.
I'm not sure she's rebelling against you in anyway Chiara. What your cat is doing is trying to help you find your way home because she must have thought you had gotten lost. My dogs do it whenever I'm gone for long periods of time, they know the areas that you frequent often and they poo in your most visited areas of the home in hopes that you'll catch a whiff of their waste. Of course, they don't know that we humans can't detect their unique signatures; but cats have glands around the anus that secretes their unique scent on their waste. The scent is basically their so called "personal signature" And so...no...I don't your cat was being stubborn. She was actually trying to help you find your way home!
Maya, yes Heath told me about that tv show too!@Chris, I'll keep that in mind thanks!@Anton, yeah, I knew that leader feral cats don't cover their poop in order to mark their territory with their own smell (thing that house kittens don't because they know you are the leader). But honestly I must say that cats have a weird idea about "gifts"
Hello there everyone! It's been 4 months, since I last posted a journal entry, so I think it was about time now!
Obviously, this one is going to be about shoppings aswell, and things I received from people that are important to me.
I'll start off with these 2 handbands, purchased from a regular shop from my town.:
2 pairs of trendy earrings:
A lipstick from chinese store:
Concelear and white eyeliner also from chinese store:
A cute little belt, great for my tiny waist. Writes "Cute" on it. (C&A) c: :
Various shirts from London Shop.:
Ordered from a site Stargazer products and received a lighter as a gift. White foundation and white hairdye (which only lightened up my hair with a tone or twoo lol).:
Avon Youth Mineral face toner.:
JOY magazine. 2 foundations and a mascara from the mall (Astor-Lift Me Up, Rimmel-Match Perfection, Maybelline-Falsies: flared one):
The great gift from the magazine.:
Reviews of the foundations, mentioned above.:
Cute shirt, accessories and a nailpolish.:
Avon Volumising Lip Balm and VIVA set by Fergie.:
Cute shoes from chinese store.:
Syoss hairdye (great, non-damaging product).:
Shirts and tops from London Shop.:
Sexy night dresses for my hot boyfriend's delight.:
Various things (aceessories, shampoo, make-up remover, nail polish, eyeliner).:
Sexy fur and thongs that my sister bought me and more Syoss hair dyes.:
Stuffs that my boyfriend brought/left me. (earrings, a chicken that represents me apparently and a great hair brush, that I use daily v.v):
2 tops and a skirt from London Shop (in order: U.C. of Benetton, Morgan, L.O.G.G. by H&M).:
A chinese lipstick and lush earrings .:
Maybelline Age Rewind Foundation.:
Stuffs I ordered online. (Bershka clothes, accessories):
Shirts I bought/ordered for my boyfriend.:
A shirt and leggings.:
Here's a complete hobo look .:
Magazines with gifts. (Cosmopolitan and Marie Claire).:
Various perfume essences, a spray and make-up sponges. (Perfumes that immitate great fragrances. In order: Escada-Especially, Roberto Cavalli-Roberto Cavalli, Giorgio Armani-Acqua di Gioia).:
Luxury perfumes. (In order: Lacoste-Pour Femme, Prada-Candy eau de parfum, Lancome-La Vie Est Belle, Versace-Versense):
FREAKING LOVE THEM ALL!!!
Ok, so that's all for now, hope you enjoyed scrolling through this entry, and if you have any kind of opinion then share it! I'd really like to know if you tried any of these things too and if you liked/unliked them.
Mood: happy ^-^ Music: Lana Del Ray - this is What Makes Us Girls
I ABOMINATE a lot of the things people post, and so the way they think.
I've always thought that the way someone thinks, and claims, to be is never, NEVER who that person actually is.
And it amazes me how I always get remainded of it.
Let me just say that I can't stand you.
End of the topic, I am not going to talk about it any further.
Thanks for reading
Whaha! I meant that I can take care of myself/defend myself even though a smile is always better I don't know if they are known here, because my little sister is soon to turn 13 so she's growing into a beautiful young girl and I believe she's not really playing with dolls as she used before right now.