So my cousin has self esteem issues and she knows I have them as well. Recently she started seeing a shrink who told her to write down every negative thought she has about herself as soon as it happens. My cousin convinced me to do the same thing but warned me it will be hell. I started at least 10 min ago and I’m already up to 54 things. And seeing the number of things I find wrong about myself, even if they repeat, just makes me hate myself even more. I feel so messed up. And I hate it. And I want to change it. It’s going to be hell but I think it will be a good thing. I need a lot of support right now but I will get through it even if it kills me.
Mood: Depressed. Self loathing Music: Wish You Were Here- Avril Lavigne
So I'm injured again, this time not of my doing. My knee started hurts when I would walk on it 2 weeks ago. My doctor thought I had fluid in my knee so we did an ultrasound on it and there was nothing there. So she is going to have me start physical therapy asap that way I can get an MRI done sooner. And hopefully get down to the bottom of this pain. And she has me on pain pills that make me really drowsy and hyper at the same time. So it's really weird.
Mood: Everywhere. In pain. Music: Pop Hits on Music Choice.
So, on Tuesday my knee started hurting really bad. Thought my chiropractor just needed to put it back in place. But then it started hurting really bad so my mom took me to the doctor on Wednesday. Turns out I've been having too much stuff with me at school so the weight and pressure made it so I have fluid in my knee. So I have to go for an ultrasound on it to see how much fluid is in it. And after that I have to wait so we can make an appointment for them to drain it. And It's been bothering me really bad today, having to walk around school.
I need miss Rigth
Nisce beautiful Gothic women
Be my Valentine's days
Nisce sexy women lest about in there 20 or. 23 or 30 I go on women age
she have be beautiful Gothic or death rock or punk rock or Gothic litole or cyber Goth that all love in a women
She have be single nisce not love me one thing moeny hurger.
(I love graveyard's).
( drink human blood).
( she love creepy suff like sullheads/tomestones/other creepy suff.)
( pickings in the Garveyards)
( and loves Gothic/ death rock/punk rock/cyber Goth/ olny.
I need Valentine's this year am sick beings single so much
am 23 years old am gay cross dress lesbian Gothic guy dyke
And she got be a lesbian or biosexy olny
Warning NO MEN
JUST WOMEN OLNY LADIES OLNY.
Mood: sad need a lesbian girlfriend rigth now on Valenti
Of the VampireFreaks web series "Skye of the Damned"
MidnightSkye says "How HASN'T VF changed my life? If it weren't for VF I wouldn't be making SkyeoftheDamned, wouldn't be modeling anymore, would still be stuck in the void of wanting to express myself but having so many people in the industry that "you're too pretty to be edgy" or the "what's with the rocker look? You're too innocent looking for that." Seriously if it weren't for VF I wouldn't be making my own path as well as I've always wanted to do. Thanks to you guys I have such a wonderful support team" View MidnightSkye’s Interview! NMidnightSkye on VF
Love is like suicide every time you do it you die a little more inside, someone please tell me why, why do we try to love when it hurts like hell? When it ends we pretend that it's alright when everything is far from fine and then we dwell on all the bad things and forget the things that made us smile, I have to admit that it was good while it lasted then it was like a cannonball blasted right through us and shattered everything that we'd built when it was done guilt had become my sole emotion I had no intention of hurting you but you didn't trust me when I trusted you, I let you go because I wanted you to be happy even if that meant being happy without me because only a selfish heart clings to something that wasn't meant to last.