I couldn't sleep, so I worked out. It felt really good. I might have to start working out every morning/afternoon. It's a great way to make me sleepy xD So I guess now I will go to bed. Maybe. If you want to talk message me and I will stay up and reply until I get tired enough to pass out.
facebook:mayin or mayun
twitter:o.o i forgot already
those are what i use .. if u have this feel free add me .i will add you back
MyFragility says "My hands are always in some awkward position and I have my father's huge eyes. Back in the model agency they hated it and often told me I had to work on it. In the end I gave up on it though, and now these awkward poses has turned into a trademark. Now, photographers contact me just because they love my bizarre poses and look. What I'm trying to achieve in my pictures is some sort of unhuman,Melancholic and otherworldly athmosphere. This I try to capture mostly with my styling, expression and poses." View MyFragility’s Interview! MyFragility on VF
So my cousin has self esteem issues and she knows I have them as well. Recently she started seeing a shrink who told her to write down every negative thought she has about herself as soon as it happens. My cousin convinced me to do the same thing but warned me it will be hell. I started at least 10 min ago and I’m already up to 54 things. And seeing the number of things I find wrong about myself, even if they repeat, just makes me hate myself even more. I feel so messed up. And I hate it. And I want to change it. It’s going to be hell but I think it will be a good thing. I need a lot of support right now but I will get through it even if it kills me.
Mood: Depressed. Self loathing Music: Wish You Were Here- Avril Lavigne
So I'm injured again, this time not of my doing. My knee started hurts when I would walk on it 2 weeks ago. My doctor thought I had fluid in my knee so we did an ultrasound on it and there was nothing there. So she is going to have me start physical therapy asap that way I can get an MRI done sooner. And hopefully get down to the bottom of this pain. And she has me on pain pills that make me really drowsy and hyper at the same time. So it's really weird.
Mood: Everywhere. In pain. Music: Pop Hits on Music Choice.