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Stoner_Kitty
Mother...
June 24, 2015, 11:24:am
June 24th, 2010
Earth lost an angel and Heaven gained one.
It's been 5 whole years since you've been gone.
I remember it like it was yesterday..
Though, how could I forget?

I was in summer school at the time for 8th grade. They told me if i missed a day i'd fail.
Well given the circumstances, they passed me anyways.
I woke up from a nap (in my mother's closet) to everyone being frantic. I knew this was it.
We say next to you till you were white.
I remember Kristy making everyone leave the room and telling Michale and I she was sorry this had to happen. Sorry it had to happen when i was so young..

And it was a terrible feeling.
Knowing the one person that understood you is not longed for this world

You've been gone for 5years, Mom.
I can't believe i can even say that.
I can't believe i have to say it.
Some days it still doesn't feel real..
When you first passed that summer, we kept feeling like one morning we'd hear the garage door and you'd walk in from a road trip
But you never did...
I don't even remember my birthday that year.
I do remember Michale throwing me an 8th grade "graduation/promotion" party.
I'm sure that was to distract from the fact of the matter...

I remember speaking at your funeral/memorial.
I had nothing planned, but I knew I had to say something.
I was only 14...

I've gained a lot of friends and loved ones.
I've also lost more than I could count...

You see, the thing is, nothing changes when someone dies.
Life moves on, even if you don't want it to.
The pain will never cease.
It just gets easier to love without them. Until one day you finally accept it.
She's only visited my dreams twice since she's been gone.
But i feel her with me constantly.
I still wish i could get advice from her.
I wish i would have listened when i was a child.
I wish i was better to her.
So many times in the past five years have i wondered the advice she'd give and what'd you'd say.
I think about the old days often. Like waking up and going swimming with her, cleaning the pool. Then we'd get out and make tea and tuna sammiches. She'd be on the phone like, half the time. She loved to talk on the phone, man.
I remember coming out to my mom, she already knew!
I remember bringing home my first girlfriend.
I remember her telling me some of my friends were bad news....i wish i would have listened.
I wish i would have listened to everything she said..

So much can happen in five years. I hope she's at least been able to watch us progress through life, I know it's not the best, but i've been trying.

2:38PM, June 24th, 2010. My mother, Judy Fay Newingham (maiden name)
Passed away.

I honestly /still/ have no words for the situation....
It's been so long
I think about you so very often, Mom.
I have a song i'll be listening to all day, i hope you like it.

I miss you more than words could ever express, my heart aches and my eyes are teary.
But i know you'll always be with me.
That would have to suffice.

I love you, Mom.
I wish you could be here with us.󾬎

Mood: ...
Music: Last Chance - ABK

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Stoner_Kitty
Blogs!
June 15, 2015, 04:32:pm
I created a facebook page I will be blogging on there and on my Tumblr!


If you have a good sense of humour(sometimes crude), on occasions hate the world, you smoke weed and like cats,
please give me a follow and a like!

www.facebook.com/WelcomeToTheMushroomKingdom
stoner-kitty.tumblr.com

Mood: Neutral
Music: Death To You - Swollen Members

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Stoner_Kitty
One Last Chance - ABK
June 05, 2015, 07:51:pm
If I had the one last chance to do things over in my life
One last chance to say things to people before they left or past on,
The opportunity to see the ones close to me every day,
Just to say: hey,
If I had that one last chance, then, then,
I'd be all right.

[Chorus:]
If I had one last chance to say: hey, hey
I would be all right,
If I had one last chance to say: hey, hey
I would be alright.

If I had just one last chance to tell you how I feel
For leaving here eternally.
I would tell you what you meant to me
And what's been going on.
If I had just one last chance to say
What's on my mind,
Cause ever since you had to leave,
There's some people who ain't been the same,
Because it takes time.

If I had just one last chance to really say goodbye,
Right before you went away.
I think it'd really makes a difference to me,
And I'd be all right.
If I had just one last chance to apologize,
For everything I put you through.
I would probably finally rest and peace
Instead of sleepless nights.

[Chorus x2]

If I had just one last chance to hear you speak to me,
What would you say? about the way that I carry on, in my life.
If I had just one last chance to try and make it right,
What advice would you give, that'd make me wanna just calm me down,
And re-think things twice. (If I just had one chance)

If I had one last chance, last chance, last chance, (that would be all that I need)
If I had one last chance, just to tell you, goodbye
If I had one last chance, last chance, last chance, (that would be all that I need)
If I had one last chance... Why'd you have to go!?

[Chorus x2]

If I had one last chance, I would not keep you long,
The bond that we had is strong enough to carry on,
Inside the songs we sing, the memory of you will bring
Us closer to everything that's keeping us all a team.
If I had one last chance just say goodbye,
I'd tell you that I'd miss you until the day I die.
If I could see your face in front of me once again,
The room would brighten up and the world would see me grin.

[Chorus x6]
If I had one last chance, just to tell you, goodbye

Mood: Mehhhh

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Stoner_Kitty
LDLHAIBCSWA
May 28, 2015, 11:37:am
[Madrox:]
They tend to misunderstand the paper man
With scissor hands who watches the hourglass for grains of sand
To fall and fall again as he pretends
That everything he lays his hands on doesn't turn to shreds
But why oh why does he persist to hide
When they insist he try to come outside
From the shell he lives inside
Now he's been hypnotized and
Despite the lies he sits and waits to die
'Cause he can't find no words to explain the rain
All his emotions are transformed and now become pain
He's alive in a black hole empty in space
And he sits in front of the mirror and he's face to face
With the sadness, confusion his patience he's losing
He's substance abusing he's one with the music
And he needs a little something to dial it all back
'Cause he's running in a race but he's not on track

[Hook:]
Love don't live here anymore, it's been cold since you went away
Now I've been trying to get myself together, is there something I can say that'll make you stay
Love don't live here anymore, it's been cold since you went away
I've been trying to get my head together, but things just don't seem to go my way

Love can be so cold…
Love can be so cold…

[Monoxide:]
All I see when I'm looking at you is me
And everyday gets a little bit harder
Like a piece of my life's puzzle that’s been slipped under the carpet
Until this day I'm feeling like I'm never gonna find it
I smoke a cigarette and hope for the best
But sometimes that cigarette is just smoke in the chest,
I lay in bed but it's nothing new with getting rest
Instead I use it as an escape from all the mess
Nothing seems to matter I'm only getting sadder n sadder
'Cause I'm not even sure what I'm after
I know my life's a disaster and I better straighten it out
And stand tall or fall victim of getting caught in
A spiraling downfall of emotion that I call
Devotion and destruction of everything and it's my fault
I'm hoping to try more let's open up my door
And let em know that I'm bringing me back like encore

[Hook:]
Love don't live here anymore, it's been cold since you went away
Now I've been trying to get myself together, is there something I can say that'll make you stay
Love don't live here anymore, it's been cold since you went away
I've been trying to get my head together, but things just don't seem to go my way

[Monoxide:]
I'm an example of a bad example and as ample as it may seem
A sample of this poisonous apple. I maybe rattle a daydream
But I'm giving you reality checks and if you get it then it's properly spent
If you can't handle it yet gimme a sec
I'll make ya proud of me instead of surrounding me
Totally hounding me expecting me to be like all the rest
And I gotta be honest I'm not sure who the fuck I am on a constant basis
So many faceless faces that are faced with
"Who the fuck am I?" What a shame it's
Not so much the lies I'm just lost in my mind
Trying to find what it is that makes me feel right inside
And I'm submerged by the urge to make it by day and night
I'm in the struggle looking to fight for the right
To be more than just alright...
And I'm looking for more light so I can see what they got in store for my life

[Hook:]
Love don't live here anymore, it's been cold since you went away
Now I've been trying to get myself together, is there something I can say that'll make you stay
Love don't live here anymore, it's been cold since you went away
I've been trying to get my head together, but things just don't seem to go my way
Ohhhooohhhooohhh
Love can be so cold...

Mood: N/A

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Blazer444
Pfffffttttt
May 24, 2015, 12:49:pm
I enjoy how I'm blocked by a shit ton of people, like I'll randomly be stalking people out of boredom and 9 times out of 10 I'm usually blocked and can't access the page and I don't even remember most of these people xD
I use to be a major prick. x'D

Mood: In pain, a bit amused~
Music: YouTube is broken.~

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Deaths_Madness

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Pfffffttttt
May 28, 2015, 10:50:pm
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Sounds like me, but I'm just a dumb-ass that needs to be left on the side of the road.

Changedone

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Pfffffttttt
May 29, 2015, 02:27:pm
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Lol... hi n.n

LacrimosaMaxwell

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Pfffffttttt
May 29, 2015, 02:47:pm
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sorry im just hyper

Blazer444

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Pfffffttttt
May 29, 2015, 11:03:pm
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that's like the opposite issue xD and John, no.

Deaths_Madness

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Pfffffttttt
May 29, 2015, 11:07:pm
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no to what?

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Blazer444
Eeyup
May 22, 2015, 01:34:am
Guysssssss, I love you<3
And I'm bored so someone talk.
Oh and shay joined vf, so. Everyone go love her D:<
bun
Anyways :| the boredom continues.

Mood: Bored
Music: YouTube won't work :|

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LacrimosaMaxwell

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Eeyup
May 22, 2015, 05:50:pm
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DESTROY THE BAD COMPANY DESTROY THEM AND BURN THEM TO THE GROUND!

Blazer444

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Eeyup
May 23, 2015, 01:36:am
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Exactly x'D

LacrimosaMaxwell

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Eeyup
May 23, 2015, 07:34:am
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>:-D

Blazer444

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Eeyup
May 23, 2015, 11:25:am
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Did you forget your icons things? xD

LacrimosaMaxwell

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Eeyup
May 23, 2015, 11:40:am
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no?

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Blazer444
fishy questions :|
May 03, 2015, 06:50:pm
Is a beta the only breed of fish that doesn't require bubbles?

Mood: bored
Music: rainbow factory

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Deaths_Madness

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fishy questions :|
May 15, 2015, 03:47:am
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Hunter, hagus is sheep stomach with a few other things, but it's too early for me to be thinking right now. An I'm saying I want to make some hagus out of you, heheh

Blazer444

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fishy questions :|
May 15, 2015, 03:48:am
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Ew x'D

_Taylr_

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fishy questions :|
May 15, 2015, 01:05:pm
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It's sheep stomach stuffed with other organs and considered a treat in some places, but it is illegal here.

Deaths_Madness

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fishy questions :|
May 15, 2015, 02:56:pm
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Taylr, mostly in Scotland, hehe. I unfortunately have not been able to have any, though I am Scots-Irish(plus more)

_Taylr_

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fishy questions :|
May 16, 2015, 02:11:am
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Oh I know, but it's usually available in other Anglo-European countries as well

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Stoner_Kitty
Yikes
April 16, 2015, 02:33:am
The 'rents(boyfriend's, not mine) left for Colorado for a week.
Happy we have the house to ourselves.
But my boyfriend left to pick up a friend like 15 miles away...

So it's 11:30 at night and I'm home alone
I have a big fear of being home alone at night.
Not because of burglars or the boogie man...Because i've always felt like it'll last forever....

Watching Netflix,
Classic American Dad

Kik me..? Stoner_Kitty

Mood: ...
Music: Netflixxx

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Blazer444
Eh..
April 15, 2015, 02:50:am
I require some cheering up.

Mood: A bit down.
Music: This Day Aria

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Blazer444

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Eh..
April 16, 2015, 07:58:am
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The stairs thing is quite funny x'D and most of my music it's depressing o.o && I'll look that up rose x'D

the_nightmare_queen

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Eh..
April 17, 2015, 12:27:pm
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aw whats wrong buddy

Afrahhh

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Eh..
May 01, 2015, 12:36:pm
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i have no idea how to work this omg HI HUNRBUNS um well this was like 6 days ago so hopefully you're not dead um I MISS YOU AND IDK IS THIS WHERE YOU TYPE THINGS im pretty sure there was a message thing but i'm 2 lazY ily son ~afrah

Afrahhh

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Eh..
May 01, 2015, 12:38:pm
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ALSO UM I WON'T BE BACK ON HERE BC I STILL HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO so plSSS come back okay okay thx ilYYY

Blazer444

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Eh..
May 01, 2015, 04:10:pm
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Afrah ily and I miss you but I can't come back, not anytime soon. I kinda hoped you would figure this out because I can't keep contact with you otherwise since you can't text and don't have Facebook. Anyways I hope you see this. ~ *hugs*

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Stoner_Kitty
" FRIENDS "
March 22, 2015, 06:55:am
There are some people i have missed
But by those same, i feel dissed
How can you say "i'm your friend"
When you leave me in the end
I give you my time
It should be a crime
To break someone, anytime
Broken inside; heart nothing more than a shred
I walk this road with everything i dread
Yet still i lift my head
Better than being dead

Mood: Disappointed, depressed
Music: LDLHAIBCSYWA

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Stoner_Kitty
GG
March 11, 2015, 12:43:am


I feel as though you want me for nothing but your lust. Three years ago i gave you my trust, such a bust, it was a must i left you in the dust. Now you return, since then i did learn, boys like you have yearn to love and leave girls like me...

Mood: ...
Music: LDLHAIBCSYWA

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Stoner_Kitty
Short and Bitter
March 01, 2015, 09:31:pm
She took my heart
She tore it apart
She left me to die
In a loveless high

Mood: Crying
Music: Ashtrays & Heartbreaks

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breathquiet

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Short and Bitter
March 01, 2015, 09:37:pm
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Be taller and saltier next time.

Stoner_Kitty

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Short and Bitter
March 01, 2015, 10:17:pm
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Sooo clever :T

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Stoner_Kitty
Today.
February 13, 2015, 09:51:am
Yes. Today is Friday the 13th.
Being the person I am, it's one of my absolutly favourite days.
But not today.
Today is the two year "anniversary" if you will, that my eldest sister(i am youngest of three girls) commited suicide.
I've been thinking about both her and my mom a lot lately.
Even though she wasn't around for most of my childhood, she was still awesome to be around when she was. Especially after she had her daughter, my niece Alex,that i haven't gotten to see in 4 years, (i miss her dearly too...)
I miss all the funny times i've gotten superstoned with my sister and my best friend in Mom's backyard.
Playing with Alex on the floor when it's tummy time while Kristy took a shower.
Or when she called me a week before she.....
I love knowing i'm so much like her(there's good and bad to that)

I miss my mother too. I was such a total cunt to her... But everyday when i came home, she always asked how my day was. She made dinner basically every single night, cleaned basically every fuckin day(and rearranged omg xD)
I miss her laugh. She had such a beautiful sense of humour, must be where i got mine? :P
I use to hate knowing I look like her, now..i'm glad I do

I miss my, now angels..
I wish I could have spent so much more time with them before they left us.
I'm happy they aren't in pain anymore...but if I could have one wish. They'd be it.

I hope you two continue to watch over me and the family.
When i had my car crash i more thanked my Mother and Kristy than anyone...i know they were protected me and Derek that day.

Anyways. I miss you two with all of my being, and i think of you more than often. Derek loves when i tell him stories about you both, and wishes he could have met you...
We all miss you both.

Rest in peace, my beautiful angels...

Mood: Nostalgic
Music: I'll Be Missing You - Puff Daddy & Faith Evans

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lizzielullaby

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Today.
February 13, 2015, 11:37:am
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Awwwwwww this made me cry *huggs*

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Stoner_Kitty
Wow.
January 10, 2015, 12:05:am
so some guy messaged me and apparently I fucked him over on his previous account so he is going to "ruin me" and I'm a little worried about my Internet life..
If you hear any rumors about me please dispel them, none of it's true, some guy is just trying to fuck me over because apparently I "fucked him over" when I don't even know him or know what he's talking about... not my fault but if you're moron I immediately block or report you.

If you get a message from a guy with the username XDeathBlooms
Please pretty pretty please block him, power bomb him, ignore him, do whatever you can. He harassed me about something I don't even remember! He tried to get me to show my boobs to him. He doesn't even respect the fact that I tried to talk to him about what happened just harassed me "I'm going to ruin you" blah blah blah

Sadly he blocked me before I could get the chance to Powerbomb him or anything... so I'm just hoping that the good people of vampire freaks won't believe any false rumors he tries to create about me and please please let me know if you get a message from an account using my pictures these I am real and I have a fucking sign to prove it.

Mood: Irritated
Music: Death To You

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Blazer444
January 06, 2015, 03:25:am
So how many of you play IMVU?

*Has no life and needs more people to talk to*

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Dumasaphobia
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March 10, 2015, 09:04:pm
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Aww denial. So precious xD <3 Is my hunnybunches in denial? :'D

Blazer444

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March 10, 2015, 09:09:pm
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Why must you call me that xD
Dumasaphobia
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March 10, 2015, 09:12:pm
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I choose to believe you secretly like it xD

Blazer444

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March 14, 2015, 06:29:am
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No. xD
Dumasaphobia
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March 15, 2015, 02:30:am
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You dooooooo xD

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