I turned 20. I'm old - . - so old. I started school again. My hair is growing back, this time I want to grow it longer. My natural hair keeps getting darker and it's pissing me off, I'm thinking of lightening it when my cartilage heals (got an industrial).
I feel like my life is truely changing. Im engaged. Im looking for a house. Trying to figure things out for my wedding. Im no longer letting my past get to me. Im finally happy that i found someone who truely loves me. So with the changing. Im clearing out old stuff on my page. Im going to be removing old pictures. Fixing up things that are on here. I would write more but i have things to do. Have a good day everyone!
Finally Redoing My Profile Information Since Allot Of It Was Written a couple years ago when i had more of a childish brain, and reading it made me hate myself because it was simply pathetic,
Also gonna try to Fix up My Layout since some of it went outdated and is just broken images/files or overlapped and shit.
Oh and i'm going to be doing a Friends List Clean Out Again within a Couple Days, Most of you already know the same bullshit i say, but either way ill still be posting a separate journal about the clean out before i do it and the reasons why you would be removed,
Also I am Looking To Join Some New Cults and try to start back up on decently helping out with inviting and shit,
So if you have any recommendations then just post a link and tell me what the cult is about and ill look into it~
If You Are In My Cult, i'm going to try and redo threads and attempt to resurrect the damn place since it went to hell,
I am also Looking For New Music, Wether it be old, new, a VF band, idc. If its decent then post the name of the band and some song names and i will look them up.
I Am Going To Attempt To Become Active Again, I know I have been pretty damn dead, but I've calmed enough to decide on coming back. This site has given me hell, but its also given me a damn good time in the past.
So anywho, If anyone wants to, you can add me on Facebook or Text me, if you need the link or number just ask and ill give it.
AND how have you guys been? What the bloody hell did i miss while i was away?~
The fucking bold wouldnt work so i changed font size, so this all prolly looks fucked to hell, but i havent slept in 48+ hours, so i really dont give a damn.
Mood: Tired As Fuck~ Music: Creature Feature-Bound And Gagged
So much shit going on this summer.
And then AUSA in October. I have 1,2,3,4 huge projects to get done. I'm most likely only going to have time and money to get Insanity and courage wolf together.
The other two are very secret until they get done and go boom because they're just that big.(wont be able to get in elevator all assembled because who the fuck can get in an elevator around 7 1/2 feet tall -stilts on-<Not made yet but agreed that they'd only be 6" to on foot and approximately idk how wide cause I haven't made the shoulders yet.
So much foam.
Too much foam.
Everything is becoming foam.
So my birthday is in 3 days,
With that being said,
The nightmares have come back twice as bad,
I've already sunken into depression,
And I'm barely holding myself stable.
Most of you know why,
And to those who don't,
My brother passed away on my 10th birthday.
I don't want pity or sympathy or any bullshit responses about it, I just don't want to be bothered and will most likely flip the fuck out on you.
My best friend shares the same birthday with me and while I may hate this day with every bloody part of me,
I love my friend and couldn't ask for anyone better.
She's always been there for me when I needed her,
She has always put up with my bullshit,
She's delt with more of my complaining and pointless ranting,
Unfortunetly she's been stuck in most of my bullshit relationship problems,
She's always given me the best advice,
And while I kinda wanna slap her (I read your journals recently), I appriciate having her in my life and would prolly be at a hell of a loss without her.
She's family to me and if anyone dares to harm her ill rip your fucking dick off and cram it in your fucking eye hole, and then ill cut your intestines out and hang you with them. And if your a female, ill cut your fucking face off and turn into a halloween mask.
As for everyone else, you should all go tell her Happy (Early, as its not until April 1) Birthday and hug her and pelt her with cookies and whatever happy people do.
Mood: Eh, Whatever. Music: Train-50 Ways To Say Goodbye