Today I got done with my doc appointment and recalled my ex saying he had his first day on the job today. So I just hopped on the bus and waited for him to show up on the bus he needed catch to get there.
I could help but giggle... So he recognized that right away -.- lol.
He laughed and asked if I was stalking him ... I couldn't lie. Because it was the true , I was. He didn't invite me or plan to see me there. It made me happy... Because since he's been in town I had been waiting to run into him.
Every day after school got out, I would just sit at the coffee shop down town and wait to see if I saw him. Watching out the window all excited, or going to a few places and waiting around the corner to see if he would show up.
Finally I I ran into him while leaving a place to get on the bus. Then BAM! There he is getting off the bus lol. So yeah now I stalk him more since it'll end once I get this job. /: but every time I pass his work on my way home... I smile and laugh to myself how silly I can be. Stalking him is fun...
Mood: Stalker mode.... Lol Music: The sounds of nature and shit lol
So yeah just got back from the doc. office. And well I'm not worried about my ankle anymore... I'm worried about how much weight I've gained :-(
I'm so pissed ... I've gained 17 more pounds since school was done with. Wish I had a workout buddy ... Would make working out a lot more fun to actually do. Because let's face it, I'm very unmotivated to do that shit.
Guess I'll have to force myself to do it if I can't find one /: see how long that lasts..... Lol
Can't believe I've let myself go this much /: it's fucking lame.
Okay okay I'll shut up and actually do something about once I get home.
Any ideas on fun and productive workout DVDs you could suggest ?
I'm trying not to but I think it's becoming a problem. I mean I can't be like this while trying to work as a welder. I heard most places around here have these physical tests and stuff. From what I hear if I have to do that at the place I'm applying at tomorrow , then I won't pass. I don't wanna get turned down or have so many problems with working all because I'm this unhealthy. /:
Well the best thing to do is just to go forth and find out what you need to know. And if comes to where you have to do this test,well then you have reason to be like woah and be a lil worried. But as of now your gonna be happy and no thinky about it. Otherwise today will be a bad day when it could have been good. If only I were closer i could keep you motivated!! do you have a celly yet??At least that way when your not online or I'm not you can get a hold of me...
So my last journal entry has been kind of about my past few dreams about my uncle...
I was thinking.. Maybe I should just start telling you guys about my dreams, because you guys always have something intresting to to tell me about what they mean, even though I like to over analise them myself. Still nice to hear what you think.
So the other night..
In my dream I was walking around, and people were coming up to me asking me questions like "when's it due?" "aww is it a boy or a girl?" "It's going to be so cute, I love babies." I was so confused at first, I kept thinking to myself im not prego, why are you all asking me this... but somewhere deep down I couldn't tell them that, like it was a secret so I had to just ignore them and walk away upset, I then tried to tell people I wasn't having a baby after more people asked me. Crying, I ran home to see "my bf" who was sitting there holding me while I cried, and telling me that everything was going to be fine, then he asked me if I would like to go to dinner, I thought to myself maybe this would be a good idea, so we then left for dinner. The car ride there was horrible I felt this strong sharp pain in my sides, like something was stabbing me, and making me want to puke. We had to go home, I come home to my two friends in my room cleaning it for me with the only reason to why they had was "you can't pput so much stress on the baby and you needed your room cleaned so we helped you out. I walked out crying, and fell asleep in my bfs arms on my couch.
Only to wake up coughing cause I couldn't breathe.
I know I had to of had this dream because everyone around me is prego.. Like my god mother is due in 2 months, and she just went into early labor that they had to stop... She also had a miscaraige not so long ago.. I work with two prego co-workers also due in a few weeks. As to the cleaning my room thing.. It's a little messy and I probs should clean it lol.
My dream last night.
Me and all my friends were at this gathering in a big 4 story house... It was like a graduation get together that we all thought it would be fun to go do, there was a beach close by, it was close to a small town, like a good 3 min walking distance, and cute little outdoor movie on this big lawn, were everyone was enjoying it on little blankets having a picknick.
I don't remember everything, but me and my friend really wanted to go get ice cream, while everyone was doing there own thing. I had to get dressed though, and the store was closing soon, the whole town was. They were closing down the town for a wedding thing, as if it was like a perade through the town... Knowing that the store was closing I told my friend to run ahead, and get the ice cream, and I would meet up with her after I changed. Running around trying to find something to wear I raced out the door only to get stopped by these two lesbians sitting on the blanket in the lawn trying to call me over and eat lunch with them, I just couldn't think of anything else at the time but trying to get to my friend because I felt super bad cause she really wanted to get ice cream with me, it was something I was stressing out about for no reason.. I couldn't get there in time because of the wedding, I got cought up in the middle only to hear my friend call out my name.. I felt so happy she handed me the ice cream, and we sat down to watch the wedding. Someone threw the boque and we caught it, shortly after I woke up.
I really don't know what to make out of this dream at all.
My ethnicity is a mix of various European things. Greek is the largest percentage by far at 40 something %, but there is also Irish, English, Scottish, French, Spanish, possibly Danish, and possibly Turkish lol. Mom's got the Greek and maybe Turkish, Dad's got everything else. My grandma on his side researched our family history, which is why there are so many different countries on the list, probably a few more places I'm forgetting. I like to say that I'm a European Heinz 57 lol.
Why do women feel that having a period gives them an excuse to act like a mental case once a month? As if hormones are a free pass to rip into men for every little thing?
Because men are fuckers, that's why! I'm over here, expelling the unused tissue and a dead egg that your useless ass didn't manage to fertilize, that's why!! Because I have to do every fucking thing, as usual, while I'm in PAIN, and you patronize me with that PMS shit, you insensitive ass, THAT'S WHY!!!
*stuffs face with chocolate through snot and tears, wondering why men get so moody every month*
so wave gotik treffen was pretty awesome, partied hard, promoted VF, saw some great bands and made some cool new friends. =) will post up an extensive journal update with pictures shortly.
on another note - whats up with the haters lately? saw the recent drama on the last vf post, plus i recently got called a 'trust fund' kid. and someone said that the triton festival lineup was 'politics'. man some people just dont have a clue.
anyway, glad to be back on VF!
and Kinetik Festival in Montreal - starting tomorrow!
Wow Jet, one would think after all these years and all the shit you and this website's been through, you would simply ignore anonymous bigmouth drama queens and not dedicate an entire post to them.That being said, fuck them. The majority of this community has been supporting you and will continue to do so. You are providing an independent, free platform for us to interact with each other and to discover artists without trading with our private info. That, despite whatever drawbacks this site may have, makes you simply amazing.
So what's this about a vf political party candidate running for election in europe offering free unicorn wings and bags of drugssweets to potential voters I'm hearing about?$10 says people believe this post despite this statement