Moving back to Indianapolis at last. Will finally be living on my own and can get my life moving. I should be happy, right? I am, honestly I have nothing to complain about at this point besides lack of money but that seems to be a prominent issue in this society. What I really want is someone to share it all with. The only person I ever truly loved has moved on and will never feel the same. Even if I tried to be with them, the future would not be bright for I would end up doing all the work and all they would do is watch TV and feel sorry for themselves. I'm ready to move on to someone who will actually be there for me in return and show love or at least some emotion. There are a few I have considered. Some are far away, others don't view me in a romantic way. I thought I was just fine focusing on school and getting everything done before I worry about love but it's driving me to the point of insanity. I just want someone there. It wouldn't even have to be a lovey-dovey thing. Just someone to hold hands with and say I'm with. Someone to give my attention and affection to. A lot people don't interest me anymore though. Not that there's anything wrong with them. I think once I find someone to open up to I'll have a better outlook. Really just needed to get this out but I know I'll figure something out in time.
Ok yeah, my dad was going to put up the rest of the drywall at my mom's house so the kittens could stay in there for a but if need be and I wouldn't have to worry about them breathing in insulation or going outside they would just stay in that room and the window has a screen so they could still get fresh air.
Yes! The name states it all.
My grandparents hate my dad, and they say my dad hates them. So fucking confusing it makes my head want to explode and explains why I'm so pissed off all the time.
So...
My theory.
Write thank you letters explaining my time and date for my forced Confirmation into a Lutheran Church. (They are Roman Catholic). And talk about my therapy dates!
And for a little bit more sizzle, add some talk of Marilyn Manson and shock rock and there and I got myself a family feud!!!!
Isn't it just lovely, the chaos I'm starting?
Mood: Amused Music: Arma-goddamn-motherfucking-gidden by Marilyn Manson
Yeah that'll really get to them. If he and your mom are divorced, Roman Catholics as well as other Christian denominations tend to look somewhat ill on it (unless your mom is the Lutheran which again he might be once divorced which they may look ill on). Plus having you confirmed Lutheran they are probably going insane
They tend to look ill upon the Pagan faiths but tolerate them a bit more than Lutherans. Though divorce they look ill upon and Lutherans they also are not fond of. I am sorry I did not know your parents were divorced. Hope things will be ok with your dad and his family, that they won't bother you guys too much
Spirits returns with laughs and chills
Living zombies and graveyard thrills
Smell and feel your flesh sizzle and sputter
When being burned alive
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Midnight Spookshow
Horror strikes at midnight tonight
Living mummy terror of the tomb
Weird woman unearthly creature
Face to face with the spirit world
Spirit world, world... ooh
I'm going to go play Skyrim.
at least with video games my mind shuts up for a while.
My anxiety is bad today. I can't relax.
My minds racing.
But not about anything in particular.
Mostly its just random shit.
I don't know.
I shouldn't be like this. I should be more relaxed. A lot of my anxiety went out the window earlier. But something is bothering me. I just don't know what.
I am beyond relieved. You have no fucking clue.
I mean, I'm upset.
But only because I didn't know and not knowing is the worst thing.
I'm actually shaking and crying right now.
And having a panic attack.
I don't know why I am but I am.
Omg, I need my meds.
I'm just flooded with all these emotions.
I can't even fucking type right now I'm shaking so bad.
In Germany for wave gotik treffen spreading some VF love with stickers and partying it up. Then off to kinetik festival in Montreal soo not too many VF updates from me for a bit so I hope you guys are holding up ok. Miss my Internet peeps
Casey, I'm not sure what gave you the impression I honestly care,but let me straighten this out for you. You can have you taste in music, fine, I'm cool with that. However, I couldn't give a damn less about whatever rubbish you are prattling on about. Nor do I care about rozz williams or any other band that you are obsessed with. All I care about are the personal attacks and the way you switch your arguments to draw out the fact you have nothing valuable to say here. I am honestly bored of it, so have a lovely evening casey. And good luck with spamming the mainpage with this drivel
Okay lets get this across more properly:Someone buys into this deathrock/VF thing.someone makes an account. They run across a power trippng mod who for whatever reason doesn't like him or her.They modify their user tiles to have long insults as their forum badge and draw penises with eights and dashes and Ds. A forum mods job is to keep the peace correct? By doing such things and acting in such a way the people who are sworn to keep the peace around here are only contributing to the problem. And some of these people,like you, have no real interest in that part of the scene. so where does the genuine part come in?
The mere assumption that WGT is for the "Death rock community" is the biggest load of garbage I've ever heard, there was fucking tons of industrial at it when I went and that was ages ago.To assume its catered to one style of various subcultures is kinda hypocritical, at WGT you'll find tons of different styles and anyone whos been will tell you that.
Have you forgotten about Gitane Demone who plays there almost every year? I'm not saying that WGT doesn't book acts from both sides but for the longest time, what they did was mostly post punk/deathrock.I'm sure its changed in recent years. And it will change a lot more in the next decade once 3 specific bands either suffer a death or break up.But we know where its roots lie.
Its roots may lay in that scene but it has evolved alot and not just recently, it'll expand and cater for alot of as it states "dark" music, bare in mind the organizers of this festival were not coerced or forced to include these bands but did so because they saw the evolving musical tastes and catered for them willingly and its been fantastic business.To get in anyway pissy or critical over anyone attending a festival that caters to their style is insanely irrational.
What do you think? Lol this was out of pure randomness. I was kind of sick of the gray tones of the page so I fixed it up with some color and graphics. I want this layout to be minimal but beautiful.
ok fine i get it everyone!! im a horrible fucking person and dont deserve to live. I FUCKING GET IT ALREADY!!! YOU DONT HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING ME!!! im done with it! goodbye everyone!!!
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