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EveryDesiredMomment
Regret
August 18, 2014, 09:54:pm
Sunday I did something I haven't ever done before. I feel blah about it. Made me feel not myself. I know I can't change it. No one is judging me for it or cares. It's just my self moral. It's as though I have disappointed myself. Can't even bring myself to say what I did. People do it all the time just my first time doing something like it. Disrespect to my body. Makes me feel careless and not responsible.
My biggest critic is myself.

Mood: Saddened

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EveryDesiredMomment
My affection he admires
August 09, 2014, 11:55:pm
Zabi
His lips, his body, his touch, his words, his smile. Could not ask for a better first. Dancing in the dark and falling asleep in each others arms. His texts and calls a joy. A brief paradise.
He belongs to no one but one day perhaps he'll be mine. As for now a great beneficiary friend works for me.
Only having one another. Such beautiful bliss.
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If we had more time a relationship would be nice as for now there is no rush. Sometimes it's better to just enjoy one another's company. Lost in our own world.

Mood: ?

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dark_roses

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My affection he admires
August 10, 2014, 12:42:am
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Lucky you then. He is a good looking guy.

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EveryDesiredMomment
My inner child
June 28, 2014, 02:03:pm
So I joined this tattoo forum on a different social network. People were posting these awesome tattoos on there arms, legs, chest, and neck. Then one guy posts a picture of a tattoo on his butt cheek. My god I could not help myself I though it was so funny. Ah too great. All these tattoos and then a tattooed ass cheek Bwaa ha ha

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TheSnakeCharmer
Where have I been?
June 23, 2014, 11:21:am
Hi guys and girls, Sorry I have been not around as late. Let me explain myself. On the 12th of January I drove into a "micro Climate" which creates the conditions similar to black ice. My car wouldn't break and I ended up heading in to the other lane, being hit by a 4x4 and bouncing into another car. My car was concertina'd, it was only a just a little Mazda from the early 90's with no power steering or Air bags and had a bloody tape deck but I miss it so much! Booo. Anyway this led to me being hospitalised for ages. I was suffering from broken hips, ribs and a coma inducing brain bleed leaving me with no memory of the crash or much of anything else when i finally woke up. They called it post traumatic amnesia but if i was me enough to feel pissed off about the crash and bored in hospital I must have been in my head somewhere haha. Long story short I got out end of March after I nagged and played up in hosiptal enough they agreed to release me haha, they kept giving me test after test to try and see if I was "safe" to released, I even had to show I could make a cup of tea safely lol. So from then I have been concentrating on relearning my dance routines (all forgotten) getting my fitness back, rediscovering my favorite bands and re building my self employed dance business from scratch (which sucked balls). Happy to say now that Dance classes are booming with lots of gigs, I can mostly remember how to get around town (though I don't drive as fast as I did)and I am pretty much back to my old self. So, there ya go. Hello again.

Mood: Happy
Music: Silence

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maarzilla

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Where have I been?
June 23, 2014, 12:10:pm
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Glad to have ya back dude ;-) Glad you didn't forget me :-D xx

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EveryDesiredMomment
Huh?
June 22, 2014, 11:34:pm
Kinda confused...have quite a few friends who complian about being single. Yet have people they have sexual relations with that they just sleep with....why??
Why sleep with someone or lead a person on when you have no intention of going further. That's just mean especially when one the people they sleep with actually wants to be with them.
Coming up with excuses to not be with that person yet there good enough for sex? I don't get it your already sleeping with the person might as well make it official.
Then they come to me and complain about being single and not being able to find the right person. They want to be friends with the person a long time before getting serious.
Maybe I need more friends that are girls. Ha. Don't understand my guy friends.
Realization a lot of my guy friends are dicks.
Ex. My friend Tom has been in a "sex buddy" thing with the same girl for months yet won't date her. She likes him she wants more and asked him to date her and he says no. Wtf? Talked to him about it and he just said she's not someone he wants to be with...then why keep her around as a bang. I know this women could leave the situation anytime but won't.
So don't understand? Kind of feel sorry for her.

Mood: ? Bleh ?

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Phoenix__Wright

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Huh?
June 22, 2014, 11:50:pm
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Because consent to sex =/= consent to a relationship, seeing as people have needs. Just like how consent to sex =/= consent to pregnancy. Hey, I just had sex with you. You're my girlfriend! Sure.

EveryDesiredMomment

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Huh?
June 23, 2014, 12:55:am
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True. Just felt sorry for Alyssa.

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VvelvetnightvV
Erotik Power... LISTEN!
May 16, 2014, 12:46:pm
I like this band from my country... tell me what do you think?

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VvelvetnightvV
R.I.P. HR GIGER!!!!!!!!!!! T_T
May 13, 2014, 11:17:am
My all time favorite artist of all times!
Most appreciated and admired!
A down to earth interesting character that I will always remember and admire! hearts

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dino_skater91

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R.I.P. HR GIGER!!!!!!!!!!! T_T
May 13, 2014, 12:21:pm
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Sorry to hear :-(

Jin_WhiteDevil

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R.I.P. HR GIGER!!!!!!!!!!! T_T
August 19, 2014, 07:17:am
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rip

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EveryDesiredMomment
A child called "it"
May 08, 2014, 11:33:pm
Finally read it all the way through. I've tried to read it a few times. The first time I got through the first chapter and had to stop reading it it upsets so much. My forth try finally read it all the way through. Makes me mad and sad. My hands are still shaking.

Extreme child abuse. How so much can happen behind closed doors is sickening and knowing that to this day there is approx 1in 5 children experience physical/sexual/verbal abuse daily.
So May people turn a blind eye or fail to see what's actually going on or have the guts to speak up. But anyways that's my short rant. As I could probably go on for hours ha.

If you get the chance to read it please do so. Just know it's very violent.

Mood: Bitch

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UnSuspecting_Evil

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A child called "it"
May 08, 2014, 11:55:pm
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The other books he wrote are really good as well.

Prohibido

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A child called "it"
May 22, 2014, 09:23:pm
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It reminds me of when i got to read The Belgian Dossiers for a University thesis, basically a document on large and well organized child explotation, it was sickening, i honestly was depressed to the point i didn't want to eat or do much at all. It's disturbing what people can do to others when they don't think about them as "equals"

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EveryDesiredMomment
Cold bed
May 03, 2014, 03:26:am
Some nights like this I miss having another person here. When you don't want to be alone ha. Just want some sappy romance and company.
Oh well...

Mood: ?

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VvelvetnightvV
I fink u freeky n I like u a lot!
April 24, 2014, 02:15:pm

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Ceetle-Juice

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I fink u freeky n I like u a lot!
April 28, 2014, 04:01:am
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I love love love this band and this song. Tis a guilty pleasure.

VvelvetnightvV

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I fink u freeky n I like u a lot!
April 28, 2014, 12:31:pm
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They're the KEWLEST! :-D

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VvelvetnightvV
Originality!
April 03, 2014, 12:18:pm
;-)

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Shiivy

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Originality!
April 03, 2014, 01:19:pm
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*o* great words!! daydream heart

Noodles1234

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Originality!
April 03, 2014, 01:20:pm
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Amazing View!

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EveryDesiredMomment
"Chemical imbalance" "manic depression" "bipolar"
April 02, 2014, 02:17:pm
According to my doctor I have a chemical imbalance in my brain which makes my emotions kinda fucked. Well ran out of my medication on Friday.
All weekend I laid in bed except when I had to get out. Yesterday I really noticed the effect pills have when you stop taking them cold turkey. Well I didn't notice my boyfriend said something and pointed it out. I cried 4 times though out the day for no reason. At one point i laughed til my stomach hurt at a photo I seen. I've been so easily irritated lately. My head feels wonky like if you move to quick you might fall over. I went for tea at a coffee shop the girl serving me messed up my order and I flipped. Someone dialling the wrong number called me and I swore and yelled at them. I feel completely tired all the time. Just physically exhausted when I haven't done really anything. 50% of the time I haven't been able to think strait. I was in a public building on Monday and started crying and pouring my heart out to a random old lady. At work I've been with drawn quite and not really doing anything. I haven't had an appetite at all my bf has to remind me to eat. I've been stupidly depressed. Don't even know why I'm sad. Feel like I'm losing my mind. Didn't realize I was doing all this shit till now.
Until now I never realized how awful I am with out my medications. This isn't the first time I stopped my meds. Just this time stuffs been really bad.
Started my meds last night but they won't work right away. Seriously don't want to be reliant on medication. At some point I want to be able to cope and deal with my emotions on my own.
My doctor wants me to be on them as I get in a deep depressive state and violent. I don't know what to do.
Hoping these meds kick in soon. Just don't feel like me.
Does anyone else have this sickness? How do you deal with it? Could you live without being on meds?

Mood: Blah

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CatatoniK

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"Chemical imbalance" "manic depression" "bipolar"
April 02, 2014, 02:56:pm
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you can try poetry, art, and writing in a diary. Use a voice recorder to speak your mind to, stuff like that. Maybe physical exercise, lifting weights, running. Some of that could increase your ceratonin levels.

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VvelvetnightvV
>.<
March 31, 2014, 06:05:pm

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XdarkXanarchyX

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>.<
March 31, 2014, 06:06:pm
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hug2death

PlagueInfected

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>.<
March 31, 2014, 07:12:pm
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AMEN SISTA!!

VvelvetnightvV

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>.<
April 01, 2014, 10:04:am
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hugs

X_DarkLord_X

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>.<
April 15, 2014, 08:20:pm
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Very wise words indeed

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