Going on day 6 in the hospital.
My liver was failing and giving up so got admitted to the closest hospital while 2 hrs away from home. Apparently I nearly died I just know I was really sick.
Finally was able to eat real food today for the first time in days.
My immune system has been low due to my liver being damaged. Each day it's slowly getting better. In my time in the hospital with my low immune system I contracted a cold and abdominal infection. Needless to say I've spent most my time here in bed.
Today I tried walking around got dizzy severely tired and had to spend the rest of my time in bed.
This has been a rough week.
Odd thing is I've never been a drinker or a drug user I don't even smoke. Had I not gotten so ill I would have never known my liver was in any danger. My doctor calls it a silent killer.
Thankfully though my liver is healthy enough so I don't need a transplant. It's damaged and the doctor doesn't know when I can go home. He's hoping for in a week or so at earliest. Right now I wouldn't survive without the 24/7 IV meds pumping through my veins. As for my infection started an antibiotic which should take no time at all to get better and a colds a cold I can deal with it.
The worst part for me is being stuck somewhere I don't know not being able to do anything. My boyfriend comes to visit it spends a few hours a day with me which I'm thankful for. Just can't wait to get better be able to walk around again, work, and go home
Ok seriously need to vent this shit cause it made so mad lol. Mainly because of how people poke fun of homeless individuals.
I live near a city called Winnipeg. Today I joined a web group that's kind of like a mean while in Winnipeg page. Suppose to be funny.
So took a scroll through the page it was mainly photos of homeless people in Winnipeg a lot passed out or sleeping.
People were making fun of there clothes what they were doing where they slept.
The 2 photos that made me angry was one a man was sleeping on the ground wrapped in a lawn hose while one man stuck his ass in his face while another stood by laughing and someone took the picture. So many people though it was funny and so great. To me it was degrading and disgusting for anyone to do to a person.
The other one was a photo of a homeless person sleeping in an ally on a make shift bed. Some drunk women posted a photo of her standing by him laughing. Then she commented on how disgusting he was and made fun of him and where he was sleeping.
There was a homeless women sleeping on the ground in one picture and the person pulled her top up and took a photo.
Needless to say I left the group it was more of a group page to poke fun at homeless people.
Instead of helping someone or lending a hand people would rather pull out there phones take a picture and post it online. Not to mention touching someone when their asleep is fucked up.
People were leaving comments on how there just drunk people, just bums, dirty natives, "Just because we live in a city with 100 intoxicated native people talkn an doin fuckdup shit everday", "your gunna get raped like all the aboriginal women in canada!","at least the less fortunate can't see this or there's be tons of drama","stupid drunk Indian drinking Lysol"
Fact Manitoba has many native people there are more people with native in their blood than any other race so the majority of homeless people are native. Not to mention there are no jobs on reserves, inadequate schooling, no place for the homeless to go but Winnipeg so they can survive. Blah anyways I'll stop my ranting.
Apparently I'm a no fun bitch for repotting the photos of nudity and the group it's self. Seriously though if I was passed out and naked and someone took a picture instead of helping and I find out first they'd have sexual exploitation changes and I'd probably fuck them up.
My rant. You don't need to read.
September 05, 2014, 04:54:am
Actually you should report the people who pulled up the woman's shirt. Thats actually a sex crime and they should be punished. People like this deserve to be taken out back and shot. I hope karma is real. Report this to the athorities please!
I wear corsets from time to time. When I would wear them it would be a short period of time a few hours.
Started corset training. Know nothing really about it.
Did not know about corset liners. Wore a corset for 16hrs. Have bruises on my back and sides. Wore it again yesterday with a liner wasn't too bad.
The corset I'm using for waist training is waist clench. It fits beautifully. Not sure how tight I should put it though.
Have a few other corsets but they're the full corset. Which I find with training and wearing for countless hours makes breathing a little restricted.
Would rather have information on corset training passed down to me from someone who's actually done it rather then going to google.
Sunday I did something I haven't ever done before. I feel blah about it. Made me feel not myself. I know I can't change it. No one is judging me for it or cares. It's just my self moral. It's as though I have disappointed myself. Can't even bring myself to say what I did. People do it all the time just my first time doing something like it. Disrespect to my body. Makes me feel careless and not responsible.
My biggest critic is myself.
So I joined this tattoo forum on a different social network. People were posting these awesome tattoos on there arms, legs, chest, and neck. Then one guy posts a picture of a tattoo on his butt cheek. My god I could not help myself I though it was so funny. Ah too great. All these tattoos and then a tattooed ass cheek Bwaa ha ha
Hi guys and girls, Sorry I have been not around as late. Let me explain myself. On the 12th of January I drove into a "micro Climate" which creates the conditions similar to black ice. My car wouldn't break and I ended up heading in to the other lane, being hit by a 4x4 and bouncing into another car. My car was concertina'd, it was only a just a little Mazda from the early 90's with no power steering or Air bags and had a bloody tape deck but I miss it so much! Booo. Anyway this led to me being hospitalised for ages. I was suffering from broken hips, ribs and a coma inducing brain bleed leaving me with no memory of the crash or much of anything else when i finally woke up. They called it post traumatic amnesia but if i was me enough to feel pissed off about the crash and bored in hospital I must have been in my head somewhere haha. Long story short I got out end of March after I nagged and played up in hosiptal enough they agreed to release me haha, they kept giving me test after test to try and see if I was "safe" to released, I even had to show I could make a cup of tea safely lol. So from then I have been concentrating on relearning my dance routines (all forgotten) getting my fitness back, rediscovering my favorite bands and re building my self employed dance business from scratch (which sucked balls). Happy to say now that Dance classes are booming with lots of gigs, I can mostly remember how to get around town (though I don't drive as fast as I did)and I am pretty much back to my old self. So, there ya go. Hello again.
Kinda confused...have quite a few friends who complian about being single. Yet have people they have sexual relations with that they just sleep with....why??
Why sleep with someone or lead a person on when you have no intention of going further. That's just mean especially when one the people they sleep with actually wants to be with them.
Coming up with excuses to not be with that person yet there good enough for sex? I don't get it your already sleeping with the person might as well make it official.
Then they come to me and complain about being single and not being able to find the right person. They want to be friends with the person a long time before getting serious.
Maybe I need more friends that are girls. Ha. Don't understand my guy friends.
Realization a lot of my guy friends are dicks.
Ex. My friend Tom has been in a "sex buddy" thing with the same girl for months yet won't date her. She likes him she wants more and asked him to date her and he says no. Wtf? Talked to him about it and he just said she's not someone he wants to be with...then why keep her around as a bang. I know this women could leave the situation anytime but won't.
So don't understand? Kind of feel sorry for her.