I am going to be awake for over a 24 hour period, pumping my veins with NoS, Full Throttle, and RED LINE. (& of course food) Then later tonight when I go to work, do the same as well, being a nuisance but still working driving everybody nuts by throwing my voice off the walls and acting like I have epilepsy or just plain sick in the head, then come home and sleep it off.
Devil horns up if you think this is a good/awesome idea muwahahahahahahaahaaaaa!!
I haven't been so nervous, or fearful that I'd mess something up in a long time. Through all of the dating with Harley, I've only loved one girl we've dated and was actually interested in one or two others throughout the entirety of our dating. It's actually very arduous for me to be infatuated with, or intrigued by most people. Typically the girls I'm attracted to aesthetically, intellectually, and spiritually want nothing to do with me. With the exception of Harley, most women are just repulsed my existence. I frankly couldn't care less, but I hope this particular girl is different.
We are looking for love and I've always been afraid of being hurt. I feel vulnerable when I like someone, especially when it happens so fast. This woman, I've talked to extensively on here over the last couple of years. I am rambling at this point. I'm just excited I suppose. I have that happy nervous energy and a lot of inspiration. I also find a lot of the parallels between this girl and Harley interesting. I should clarify, not parallels in their personalities, appearances, or anything like that; but the way our relationship is starting. I met Harley a few times over a two year period before we started dating. I was just too nervous and intimidated by her to say much. A few days after a break up she messaged me on here, April 20th. We talked for six hours and wound up dating. I know that is eerie for most people, at least how fast it happened. We have been together four years Saturday though and they have been the best of my life. I met this girl here, was too intimidated to act on or say much of anything for years, and that time of year is rolling up again. We also just broke things off with a girl we were seeing VERY short term a couple of weeks ago.
We have a lot in common with her too. We have a similar style, taste in music and film, she is driven and active, and just over all gorgeous and amazing.
I have a good feeling about this girl and that things are going to work out. Unfortunately my intuition isn't always infallible and I, like anyone else, have a tendency to mistake a self fulfilling prophecy for fate lol. I am very optimistic though as is Harley. It's just an amazing time of year in general. I'll keep you guys posted, assuming anyone still even reads these things from me. I haven't been on much these last couple of years.
Take care and blessed be until next time guys and gals. xo
Well, I haven't been on in some time, at least enough to interact or update all of you. I must say, my life is going pretty well. Sure there are things that need improvement, but there is always room for improvement.
Our band, Unholy Attraction, is doing extremely well. We have a show with Mushroomhead at Peabody's in Cleveland Friday April 19th. We are also playing a festival with This or The Apocalypse in June. We have several shows lined up in between. I'm very happy with how things are going with my music career.
I've been doing pretty well in school. I'm not bragging too much because it's community college, it's not super arduous or anything but I'm still proud.
I've been working at my friend Geoff's tattoo shop in Warwood as assistant manager. I make reasonable money and I've been finishing my piercing apprenticeship. I love my job. Who wouldn't love a job where you get paid well, your lunch bouaght for you, you get to be yourself, and you get free tattoos though?
Harley and I are doing well in general. We've been getting finding all kinds of stuff to get into. Our relationship as a couple is stronger than ever and our four year anniversary is the 20th of this month.
We also have been talking to a beautiful woman that we met here actually. We have a lot in common with her and things seem to be looking up in that regard. I miss talking to most of you, feel free to drop me a line on occassion. Take care and blessed be.
I have quit smoking (electronic vapor now),
I am finally working out (gonna be built like Dante from Devil May Cry),
I have finally started recording my music and so far so good on that,
I have discovered my new favorite soda (ocean water) hehe,
Found a Spirituality that works for me,
Making new friends,
Living life as much as I can to make it count,
Growing my hair out,
and there might be more but I cannot put my finger on it.
That is all for now
I am off for one of the holiday's of my tradition
I don't give a fuck if i am not old enough to drink i will still get plastered and none of you fuckers especially with a badge will tell me otherwise.
My heritage says fuck you let the 20 year old boy have a drink
which i am doing it really early since i woke up at 4:30
then again i work nights
but i digest
happy St. Patrick's day everyone!!!
I joined this site still stuck with this stupid username but never thought about changing it either way it's been some crazy fun on this site and I hope to make it 8 more fucking years. I want to thank all of you whether I've known you for these 8 years or not you guys fucking rule
Mood: ekfhvrbyhljtrghve Music: Blutengel - Save Our Souls