Getting more hours in work. Getting closer to friends i havent seen in a while.
Thinking more positively. Losing some weight back to my normal dress size <3
Having realistic goals. Saving more money. Getting closer to my parents again.
Not taking the little things for granted anymore.
Feeling all around better about myself. Feeling like im worth alot more.
So on thursday last week my now ex broke up with me over the phone.
he told me the relationship was "too stressful" and wouldnt give it a chance.
lied about coming to see me to sort it and just left me hangin.
I found out that the day after this he had some girl stop his
which is the same girl he lied to me about so so many times, and told me not to worry about her.
So he pretty much finished with me to get with her.
after pretty much 18months he threw it away for a girl it seems 'he could relate too' as they both have depression.
He told his dad 2 weeks ago he wanted to marry me aswell, and told his mum he'd be lost without me as i was there for him through everything.
Hes such a fucking sly bastard and i will not allow this illness to be used as an excuse!
(tootin me own horn) im miles better than that and deserve better
He's welcome to the fat cow they deserve each other if ones willing to cheat and ones willing to get with someone knowing they are involved already.
Second to the right and straight on till morning.<3
September 14, 2012, 09:56:am
So i'm finally feeling a lot better.
Its weird that the little things are what can make the difference.
People do say you should appreciate them, i can now agree.
I like that also the people you least expect can be the ones to turn you around and make you smile when you need it most.
I think i need a therapist.
Not that theres anything up with me i just need to tell people how i feel alot of the time but have nobody to talk to. well, that are neutral.
I'm usually the one there for everybody else; listening to their problems, helping them out, just being a good friend really...But when i have issues i never feel i can talk to anyone.
I'd talk to my boyfriend but some of the things he'll probably just tell me not to be daft plus he has alot of his own problems atm than a girlfriend 'nagging away'.
I cant talk to my sister cause shes always busy with work and too has stuff going on atm.
I cant talk to my mum cause she'll just think im being silly and make a joke out of it which makes it worse.
Anyone want to be unbiased and let me have a moan to them?
Mood: a bit of it all Music: (movie on in the background)
Omg it's been so long! I have much to update on this time. First of all, I got my internet on now!! Yay for me! ^_^
Second, I MOVED!!! I know I kinda left you hanging last time, but hey, here's the next step in my life!
Ok, I didn't move to my father's, he pulled some stupid shit, and took off. Then I got my chance. My uncle's wife's mother lived in Texas where my best friend was, and had offered me a place there, and was headed up to visit her daughter. Well, I asked nicely, and the older woman agreed to take me to Texas. Well, the plan was set in motion, and a week later I was in Texas, living in an apartment, with Tsuna, and her man.
After that, I ended up meeting my man after some of Tsuna's friends dropped by. Drew needed a place to stay for a few nights. We ended up talking all night one night, I found I liked him. We started flirting, and everything kinda worked out. Hehe, I stole his coffee, so I made the first move. We ended up dating, and he told me he loved me. He was patient, and perfect, and I fell in love with him. And here it is, a month and a half later, and we're doing amazing. ^_^
And on another note, Tsuna and I began fighting, after her ex hit her in the face, and we kicked him out. She started acting like everyone owes her something, even though I gave her a home for three months. Now she's playing with three different guys, sitting on her ass not helping us clean, expecting MY boyfriend to pay all the damn bills, running around getting higher than a kite, thinking that everyone is here to take care of her dumb ass, dragging me into trouble, starting drama, and just being a general cunt. (I NEVER use that term.)
So she and I have recently stopped being close. I've had enough, I'll get my own place and leave her ass in the dust. I just hope she realizes I'm taking ALL my stuff, and Drew will be doing the same. So she will have practically nothing when we go. Hope she realizes then that consequences can be a bitch.
Anyway, I'm tired, so good night all, catch you on the flipside. Stormy.
Mood: Great/Excited/Happy Music: Love bites, Familiar taste of poison - Halestorm, Roses - Seether