I want to tell you everything,
including my downs and my falls.
I want you to be there for me.
I thought I had you,
but I never really had you at all.
I wanted you to be mine…
but you’re too busy living your life.
Nothing really matters except for
what keeps you going.
I wish I could at least be a bit
of the reason to keep you moving.
but I’m nothing at all…
I never really had you..
only in my dreams and mind.
I thought I had you for real,
but you went away as soon as I saw you.
You were never really here with me…
It was all in my head…
Your lips would speak of a forever…
but it wasn’t true…
I really thought I had you.
even in the most vulnerable of times..
Late at night, when you’d start getting sleepy.
I’d play with your hair and trace your body with my fingers..
Some nights by the fire, smoking your cigars, drinking your whiskey…
You’d talk to me about work, your friends, family…
even some dreams..
I finally realized I never had you when you told me
forever was never a plan..
it was never a thought..
You never meant it..
You said it to make me happy…
It took me back and I saw,
You’d never talk to me about your deepest thoughts..
Everything I’d done for you,
all the things I’d tell you,
all the trust I put into you,
all of the me I put into you…
you never put that much into me.
You had all of me…
but I never had you.
These are my favourite, when I can write something that comes to mind.
It's not everyday or month I write something like this, but when I do, I feel great.
All the things I have inside are out and it feels wonderful.
This is by far my favourite free write I've written.
Not necessarily. VF is just a site. If you want fun, make a fun cult or something. VF has recently become a little haven for prissy bitches and trolly douchbags, but that doesn't mean we should leave. Just help make it better, yourself.
I guess love's a funny thing—the way it fades away without a warning
January 15, 2013, 04:10:am
"I've come here as a man in shambles—worn out from begging on my knees.
Please, I'm just trying to keep my family together.
Now, when you saw you're lover wore a ring around her finger, why didn't you stop?
I have half a mind to make you hurt, to make you bleed, to make you suffer.
I swear, if you've touched her—oh, heaven,
forgive what I would do to you, you monster.
And think about your children?
They'll never believe what you've done.
Listen, I'm begging you, back off.
Let me rebuild all the things that you shattered.
She meant it, I swear that she meant it, she whispered so often,
'Husband, I'll always be here with you.'
But always is always and always is valueless.
I wish I'd never heard her speak a word.
And I hope you see us—your wife and your children
and I— buried in the wreckage of your crime,
while you're laying down your sins,
softly leaning in to kiss your guilt goodnight."
She is mine. You stole her, somehow tricked her but
We'll survive. We will. She loves me dearly—you'll see.
You are blind. She loves me dearly.
He finally paused to take a breath
then looked down—it felt like staring into hell.
The man was seated in a chair before him, silent,
a statue framed in pain and flesh. He thought,
"Oh, what more can I say to sway him? To make this statue speak?
I swear he's made of stone and I am barely stirring up a breeze."
And after waiting in the silence,
finally turned around to leave.
Broken and barely through the doorway,
breathing slowly, beating hard, he heard him speak:
"I guess love's a funny thing—the way it fades away without a warning.
It doesn't ask to be excused.
And when it's gone—oh, it's gone—and it ain't ever comin' back.
There is nothing you can do to save it,
to make it breathe the way it did when you were sliding on the ring.
Trust me: It's gone for good.
Now there is nothing you can do to stop me.
She is happy when she is with me and I am finally alive. I'm sorry."
Mood: high/fuuuucked. Music: "New Storms For Older Lovers" - La Dispute
when you know you don't fit in with any kind of people.
being alone really sucks.
people don't even bother trying to understand you or even listen to you.
Instead, they may try to "help" you. You're not asking for help.
just someone to listen...
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I hate the bproblems I have, BUT I want to change it all. I've been doing well. Despite the fact Garrett's been an asshole, I've been really searching myself and what Iwant.
Aside from Garrett, I want everyone to know that I know they care, despite what my anxiety tells me. I don't want to die... Although I can get thoughts of suicide, I know I don't want to die. I know there are people that care about me... I never want to hurt them... Especially like that.
The reasn I say this is because my sister and I were talking about this. We're drunk off our asses, we'd talk about this whether or not we're drunk, but she had asked me if I think I should kill myself. She wanted to know my thoughts. SO I told her.
She was happy with my answer. We both had tears, but Megan is really the closest person to me.
She's my twin and my best friend. We feel the same exact way about each other.
I really don't know what I'd do without her...
Because of her, I have a shit ton of motivation. She is basically my main reason I keep on living. She really means the world to me and I couldn't be more thankful that I have her in my life. She is the most wonderful and beautiful human being I know.
And I am VERY VERY thankful that her boyfriend knows that she is too.
I'm so happy they have each other.
Megan deserves the best and she has it.