They're an idea I had for a double page spread in a fashion mag' and my latest work for uni. I know my photoshop skills just aren't on the necessary level. The first image is a final one, but I am going to re-do the bottom on as I'm just not happy with the detailing around the hair (I hate hair).
Ten and a half edits to go.... Of twelve. Guess what I am doing tomorrow? Or is it today? It is 7:30am after all... Oh dear.
Latest Fashion Photos - I wish I could edit :(
December 12, 2013, 09:23:am
My hand and shoe need fixing, yeah I'm really struggling with the shadow around the neckline. It is where the clothes hit the skin creating a shadow so looks flat without it but weird with it. Working on making it more subtle Thanks for the advice Sany!!! Photoshop isn't my world. I'm going to finish these after Christmas, kind of exhausted and traveling tomorrow so just don't have the time
Latest Fashion Photos - I wish I could edit :(
December 12, 2013, 09:26:am
Yeah, shadows are a huuuuge pain in the ass, it can take so long to get it right And the background near that hand is gonna take some good guessing since the hand flows over in the background Aah yeah, can't be doing everything at once! If you ever need some more tips or help on this, just let me know And can't wait to see the finished results!
Latest Fashion Photos - I wish I could edit :(
December 12, 2013, 09:40:am
Ofcourse I know nothing about photoshop, so I can't really give feedback on that part.However, when it comes to the picture, I find the second one better than the first one. The second one is more 'lifely ', and is more likely to catch attention of the reader. In a magazine, the first picture would be easily looked over. I hope this makes any sense
I just got out the studio half an hour ago from doing this mornings self portraits and OH MY GOD I AM SO HAPPY WITH THEM! All unedited, used a singular soft-box for lighting and then the rest is done in camera.
Can't wait to sort through them all and then censor the nudes so I can put them up!
A lot has changed in my world, and a lot has happened. This isn't the epic rant about why I've been struggling - this is all the good things that have happened to me in the last couple of months (:
I CHANGED MY HAIR (again)!
I needed a change - so now I have a side fringe, side parting, went darker and I lost three inches off the end!! It has boosted my confidence, which I needed, and I just feel happier with myself (:
BIGGEST PHOTOGRAPHY PROJECT OF MY LIFE!
Myself and five other members of my course were given a studio for three days and were told we could create anything we wanted. BUT WE COULDN'T EDIT IT AFTER WE TOOK THE PHOTO! Which means it all had to be done by lighting, setting the studio up and in camera. So we created the below image.
The set itself contained the two working neon lightings in the ceiling that we hung from beams. A pool of water we made using wood, a staple gun and a pond liner. There are then gold curtains which he shaped using chicken wire and the drops in the water were make by throwing stones. That is not including the 13 lights it took to light this bad boy to get that white out effect from the water to the background to the ceiling.
It might have been the hardest project of my life but to say that the below image is unedited, how it is in camera and all the skills I learned in creating a photograph like this... It was worth the exhaustion and break downs
I HAVE BEEN MODELLING AND MY WEIGHT IS UNDER CONTROL!
I am officially a size ten again! YEYEYEYEYEY!! I've been trying to walk a lot more and doing pilates in my bedroom. Also just been careful which what I've been eating and making sure to keep my weight where I wanted. And from this has come a lot more modelling! I canne share most of the photos because I have officially become the go-to girl for nude modelling, but I love it. Really enjoy working with the other photographers and come on... We all know I enjoy modelling
AND DON'T WORRY! THIS IS CENSORED SO YOU CANNE SEE ANY WOMAN PARTS!
I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW!
This is the most shocking out of everything that has happened and the one that has completely blind sided me. He is called Josh and is a first year photography student - and is fucking perfect. We've been talking since the summer and I've always found him beautiful but never considered him as a potential boyfriend.
That was until he took my hand in the cinema when we went to the 50th Doctor Who Anniversary showing.
I can honestly say I have never felt like this or this strongly about anyone before in my life. Not this soon. It has been two weeks and they've been the best two weeks since I've been at university. I'm not using the "L" word just yet, but I'm crazy about him and he is crazy about me and if I could put everything I wanted into a boyfriend it would be him.
Going to start this journal with an apology. And a big one... I AM SO SORRY FOR MY INACTIVITY! We all knew the university internet was shite, what I didn't count on was that it was a) going to be worse this year or b) I was going to have the term from hell where everything that could go wrong went wrong.
In a nutshell: university has been kicking my arse, I've been feeling like utter shite and just had a really rough few months.
Everyone else has left now, I'm staying until Friday, and suddenly the internet works ten times better as it doesn't have 3000 students all trying to use it at once! Which means I can finally get on and get things sorted now until the start of January and then put my VF "plan of action" into work when I go back for second term (basically go use the library internet a few nights a week as it is super fast!).
Gonna leave it there for now. I am going to post a MASSIVE journal of updates in a wee bit once I have had my groceries delivered, done some laundry and actually gotten dressed AAAANNNNDDDDDDD also post a journal ranting about everything that has happened and gone wrong in my life just because I think I'll feel better about it all. Yeah. WONDERFUL! Anywayssss...
REALLY MISSED EVERYONE AND SENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGS OVER THE INTERNET!
I'm really excited that I have been asked by the photography department at my university to start a photographic society which will be aimed at everyone throughout the university I am studying at. What would be a huge help is if you could please read through my initial proposal and give any feedback. It can be something you would like to see happen if you were a member of the society, or else something you aren't 100% sure of. I am going to have to start pitching it to students in the next couple of weeks so any feedback would be appreciated.
In other news! I am so sorry for my inactivity, and it will pick up I promise. Uni is kicking my arse right now, which isn't being helped by the shitty Internet there. I'm home this week for personal reasons so will try to reply to RP posts and god knows what else on here though tbh is is doubtful. I have so much work to do
Missing you all greatly, thank you to anyone who gives me feedback and sorry for my inactivity!
Lots of love to you guys!
NAME OF PROPOSED CLUB OR SOCIETY: Falmouth and Exeter Photographic Society (FEPS)
PROPOSED BY: Alexandra Webster
Date of Proposal: 30th of October
SECTION 1: DETAILS OF CLUB/SOC
What will the main purpose of your proposed club/soc be?
The Falmouth and Exeter Photographic Society will be a society with the main purpose to bring together students from both universities and across all courses who have an interest and/or passion in photography. We want to not only organise events (from exhibitions to socials) but also be a society to help expand people's technical and creative photographic abilities, bring together like minded people and everything else photography related you can think of!
How will your proposed club/soc benefit FXU students?
FEPS is designed to bring together all the students across both universities who love photography, which instantly benefits students by not only connecting them with like minded individuals who they share a passion with but will also be an opportunity for them to grow creatively and personally. We hope to run regular exhibitions which will help teach students how to not only organise but run an event. We also have plans for technical workshops which will benefit our members technical abilities, as well as creative programs and projects to broaden people's ideas of what they can achieve with their photography which will hopefully flow over into their university work.
Outline how the proposed club/soc will provide new opportunities and activities which are accessible to all FXU students?
This will be a chance for photographers of all abilities to learn new skills to improve their work as well as a chance for them to exhibit their work. Currently the only chance students get to exhibit their work is through their university course, which of course only applies to certain fields and mostly Falmouth University students. This will allow students from all courses to work more in depth within the photographic field, and then have multiple chances a year to not only exhibit their work but also organise the exhibition themselves. We also hope to work closely with the technical staff from the photography department to run special technical lessons and inductions for FEPS members so they are not only learning from each other but also professionals. Outside of the university we are hoping to run two different field trips a term. The first will be to an exhibition of photographic work (ie. the Tate in St Ives has regular photographic exhibitions), while the second will be to a location chosen by the students to a specific location to take photographs. This could be anything from a place of natural beauty to a country home or garden. We are hoping to broaden the minds of our members to thinking outside of what they are currently doing with their photography and help them grow as photographers by giving them as many opportunities as possible.
Why is there a need for the proposed club/soc within FXU?
E.g. Demonstrate how the activities of your proposed club/soc are not already catered for by an existing club/soc:
There is currently no other society like this one in multiple ways. The first one being that we are photography based, with the main aim to expand our members creative and technical ability. Although we want to get like minded people together and create a photographic community, our main aim is to help our members improve their photographic skill base no matter what university or course they are from. This is unique to us as we're hoping to not just be a society of people with a similar hobby but a society that helps its members grow and be the best photographers they can be. The second reason why I think there is a need for this society and what makes us unique is that we not only want to run social events but actual art exhibitions on a regular basis. This will highly benefit those who are on art courses as they will get first hand experience in marketing, planning, producing work and running their own exhibition. These are real world skills which can be taken outside of university and used once our members have graduated. This also benefits those who aren't on an arts courses as it will give them the opportunity to have their work exhibited as well as learn key skills they wouldn't necessarily be able to on their own.
How do you envisage your proposed club/soc developing in 3 years?
In the next three years we hope to develop into a photographic collective, with regular exhibitions of work and to be a well known name not just around Falmouth and Exeter campus but also Cornwall and it's large arts community. We also hope to put together a database of not only the photographers that are at both universities but also those they can work with, with models to MAU's. This will not only benefit society members but also the university work of our members. There is a very large photographic community already in existence at both Falmouth and Exeter University, and through our society we hope to not only bring those two universities together but create one of the most active and diverse societies the FxU has seen.
SECTION 2: DETAILS OF ACTIVITIES
What activities does your proposed club/soc intend to carry out in a typical year?
E.g. talks, lectures, social activities, training sessions, matches etc.
Autumn Term: The main aim for the autumn term will be to welcome new members into the society as well as plan upcoming trips, events, exhibitions and technical workshops. We want the members of FEPS to be a large part of the overall running of the society, and as such the Autumn term is going to mostly be about planning the upcoming year as well as allowing our members to get to know each other.
These meetings will also be a chance for our members to not only socialise but also as a chance for them to show work they have produced. We hope to book a room on campus with a projector where members have the opportunity to talk to our members about work they have produced, as well as as, for feedback or advice. This of course will be followed by the obligatory group trip to the Stannary, as a further chance for our members to mingle!
What we would love to do each Autumn term is organise an initial exhibition based on campus which is a chance for our members to get to know each other and each others work. This will also be a great way to promote the society to other students, and the opening night can be the societies first major social event.
The final thing we hope to run on a regular basis (currently looking at monthly) is competitions! These will start in the autumn term and will carry on throughout the rest of the year. All members will be able to enter, and we hope to display the winning photographs somewhere around campus as a way to not only congratulate the first place winner and runners up but also a way to advertise the society.
Spring Term: In spring term we hope to start running regular workshops, that will continue on into the summer term. These will either be run by members of the society or else special guests. We also hope to start running the regular 'field trips' (for want of a better phrase) to local exhibitions of photographic work, and locations for members to take photographs. Both of these are designed to help our members grow as photographers both technically and creatively.
Towards the end of the spring term we will start planning the end of year exhibition, which will be a chance for members to use the skills they have learned throughout the year to create and display work, as well produce their own exhibitor. In the spring term the main aim will be working together to come up with a brief and initial concept for the exhibition before starting to work on the photographs to display within it.
Throughout the summer term we will also be running our usual events from the meetings where members can share their work, workshops, trips and also competitions!
Summer Term: Over the Easter holiday our members will be set a brief for the final exhibition of the year, it is up to them to produce any work of their choice under this brief. As soon as we come back after Easter the society will work together to find a location, advertise, organise and then run an exhibition of their work produced. The final exhibition will also be our final social event if the year and a chance for members to show off what they have learned throughout the year.
Throughout the summer term we will also be running our usual events from the meetings where members can share their work, workshops, trips and also competitions! However they won't be as often or regular as before as we know students will have exams, final hand ins as well as the main aim is to organise the exhibition.
I've finally, properly, gotten ridden of any trace of the brown and my mermaid hair is back!
It makes me so happy, I feel like me again.
I went to th charity shops with my best-boy today and found the find of the century!
Vintage tweed jacket and high waisted shorts.
Only eight pounds...
I am so happy with them, and cannot wait to do a fashion shoot with them.
And yep, these are both shameless from my Instagram account.
I'm on there as AlexaAdorkable - add me bitches!
I woke up to this lovely inbox by my beautiful Bella, and of you hadn't seen already I'M FEATURED MEMBER! Again I think this is the fourth time now?! Possibly?! Still, it is always super cool and thanks to everyone for the congratulations inboxes!
The reason I am very lucky and I'm featured member is because I won the self-interview contest in sponsorship! Apparently Jet is going to to post it to the main page at some point, but that has yet to happen and it has been a couple of weeks now. So! If you want to read it you can check it out here: My Self Interview
I have finally updated my profile! All the information is up to date PLUS I have these really gorgeous banners in my gallery and journal that Sany made for me! They are utterly gorgeous and look so cool with my random layout theme! ...Okay, I have no theme just things I think are cool but either way the banners look epic!
I have had the week from hell. I don't want to go into too much detail on the Internet because that would be stupid but me and flatmates were the victims of a crime which is now part of an ongoing investigation, then we've had flat drama and tension which has followed. I am doing my best to keep up with posts but it might take me a wee while to get back on my feet and reply to everyone inside and outside of cults. If you could just bare with my right now I really appreciate it, thanks guys!
I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS AND AM REALLY MISSING EVERYONE!
Except Joe, he can fuck off
-As some of you will know I did some photographs for a charity Calander, which was partly to raise money for a local charity called Made for Life which supports people going through cancer, but it was also confidence boosting for the people who took part.
Last night was the launch party and annual ball for the charity and I was very grateful, as well as honoured, to receive a personal invite and have the evening paid for me.
And the whole experience was just beautiful, as well as heart breaking at times.
The first thing that happened was I walked through the door and one of the models called Sasha came running up and gave me the biggest hug! She is only seventeen and has been battling cancer for a few years now. Last night I found out it has come back and she is going to London next week to go to a specialist hospital. We had such a long talk, and it was really wonderful to see her.
I then bumped into Sue who is my favourite woman we photographed, she is so strong. We had a massive hug and a huge catch up. I found out her husband had beaten her and she chucked him out four weeks ago. Over a cigarette she sat me down and we just talked about about life from health problems to her partner. She said some things about how you need to be happy in yourself, keep your friends close because they are the family we choose, and no one has the right to make you feel any less of a woman or person. I poured my heart our to her about Tom and everything that happened. Cried on her shoulder. And felt one hundred times better about anything!
I told her this last night, and I'll say it again - what she told me then changed my life and how I view myself and what I deserve from life. I feel like I can finally start moving on, emotionally, and get on with my life!
The next woman who came up to me was Ros who gave me the biggest hug in the world then promptly dragged me over to all her friends who have either suffered from or still have cancer. She then proceeded to tell them how I'm the strongest and bravest girl she has ever met and everyone should meet me - I just burst into tears once more. Literally just sobbing that I could affect someone so much and make them say such beautiful things! I can't process it. I just don't understand how I could have done that - but I am so proud that I have. To have affected someone that much... What more could you ask for in life?
Then I found out that one of the women we photographed, called Sarah, had past away five weeks after we photographed her.she was such a beautiful and strong woman - she had plans to travel across Thai Land and was planning her wedding. She and her husband got married while she was in her hospital bed, and she passed away five hours later. I cried even more, I cried so much for her. I only met her twice but she was honestly an amazing woman and I'm so grateful I got to spend that time with her.
After the women after shown their photographs some came up to me, gave me hugs, told me that they didn't think they could look that beautiful, thanked me for everything I'd done. We cried some more... (There really were a lot of tears!)
Finally, at the end,the photographer who ran the calendar took me too one side with the woman who runs the charity and a group of her 'seconds in command'. He said how he remembers the first time he met me, how I introduced myself and explained how I wanted to do the calendar but was worried about getting to locations because of my health. He said he asked me if I would've okay in the studio and I replied that if he could get me to the locations I would work my hardest, do a job he asked me to do and not stop or complain or let my health hold me back once. He then told them that what I said was an understatement, how I was the first person through the door in the morning to the last one at night, how I had worked the hardest and how I had touched the lives of everyone who I had met. I cried, for the millionth and final time that evening. It meant so much to me what he said, and it just made me realise that I can do this - this career that I want so, so badly.
I'm an emotional wreck and had some huge highs and huge lows, I haven't really stopped crying since last night but god it was all worth it! All the 4am starts and midnight finishes. The studio days that lasted nine hours. The people I met. All of it.
I honestly feel like the luckiest and most loved girl in the world like now.
It sounds like a wonderful project and an amazing night! You're incredible! I'm so happy for you, being ready to start moving on from Tom. If you had the strength to do all this you have the strength to do anything. SO MUCH ADMIRATION FOR YOU RIGHT NOW.
Oh good lord I cannot wait I kinda want a new one actually and go to my profile, go to the cults section, click on the banner called NerdyGeekyDorky - that is my cult. I own it. It is beautiful!And yep, I got you a Birthday present. I did send you a text telling you this
So happy to be back at university!
I've missed it so much and it has been so good seeing all my friends.
GOD I HAVE MISSED HAVING A SOCIAL LIFE!
In other news the Internet is fucking shite.
Plus I have a lot of work to do - more than last year.
So my activity is going to drop massively
Oh, and remember the journal I posted about being in the friendzone with my best friend?
Yep, well he stalked me online and has seen it!
So Joe if you're still stalking me then helllllloooo!
I'm already looking at sleeping bags online for when you next crash over.
God I hate having a single bed
We miss you over at ExquisitelyResplendent !!Cant wait till you have some free time to come check it out, you will remain co-owner btw And also other than VF, I hope everything is going great for you!!It all sounds very exciting!
Back to the land of slow Internet and a photographers wet dream!
Hopefully I will have Internet but as we all know my uni Internet is, well....
Basically it is utter bollocks
Hopefully I'll be back on soon though!
The day after a bad fibro' day is always the same: I take my first steps and there might as well be a beam from heaven falling on me and the 'Hallelujah Chorus' playing in the background. It's like Phil on ANTM getting his Jesus Hair - a beautiful, messed up, wonderful, and strange miracle!