After finding her for more or less two years, i finally found her. She's like my bestfriend by that time and though i don't believe much in friendship i tried and did found her for even a stone need someone to talk to sometime.
Everything's normal, i had a friend again. Till today i found out that she went away once again. She went away without saying anything.
People come and go and only fools will shed any tear for being left behind. Friendship, it's not that important afterall. i won't look for someone who abandoned me again, i won't look after to someone who ran away from me. i will run after my enemies and not for anyone else.
I agree , a lot of people have a notion that friendship is like the sort of thing you learn when you're in the third grade. you shouldn't give a full trust maybe just a bit.of trust is fine friendship is really just a word people throw in about someone they somewhat know about.
What a week! Last week was such a rollercoaster ride. I really haven’t had a chance to catch my breath til now. At work it was mostly deep shit, of the highest degree – but on wednesday, as we warmed up for Antimatter and Vic Anselmo in Semifinal, Helsinki, I witnessed something utterly breath-taking, that really got my spirits up! Vic Anselmo played with my Nord Electro for her own solo-show plus the Antimatter show, and I must say that I really haven’t seen or heard anyone play the instrument so beautifully. It was magic.
We started the evening quite early with our 30-minute acoustic show, and it went quite well, considering the amount of rehearsing. Some songs worked outstandingly well as acoustic numbers, but a few songs still need some re-arranging. Well, they didn’t sound too bad, but we all noticed that without the rhythmic base from the drums, the songs seemed to just wander about, without ever reaching the dynamic climax. And It Remains, on the other hand, with its’ new acoustic arrangement worked really well. I decided to play slightly distorted bluesy organ in the chorus, and it instantly took the song into the Pink Floyd-department. And it was great! The closing, new song in our set was the new rough arrangement of a song called Days To Come, and it also worked quite magically well as an acoustic piece.
Then, after a short breather, Vic Anselmo took the stage and played her solo material, just singing and playing piano. And let me tell you: it was pretty fucking epic show! She played and sang with such a talent, I think my jaw dropped open. It was simply amazing. After the gig I had to buy her cd – signed by her, of course!
Finally Antimatter got on the stage: Mick Moss on acoustic guitar and Vic Anselmo on piano and backing vocals. The show started with a cover of a legendary Richie Havens number, an old negro spiritual Sometimes I Feel Like A Motherless Child, in honour of this great musician who just passed away the day before, on April 23rd 2013. As Mick was playing this song in the soundcheck, I knew I had heard it before, but I just couldn’t figure out whose song it was. Not until he announced it later that night. Richie Havens, of course! I think Havens didn’t actually write the song, but he made it famous with his Woodstock performance in 1969. Originally Richie Havens was supposed to be the 5th artist on this legendary festival, but due to the fact that all the four other bands and artists were running late, Richie was to open the whole festival. He played for 2 hours and 45 minutes (!) - the audience demanded an encore after another, and when he came back to the stage, having played every song he knew, he played his own interpretation of this old spiritual song. When I first saw the Woodstock documentary with some live footage of each artist, this song really made a huge impact on me. Havens’ performance was so emotional, so spiritual. What a way to open the festival! And what a song to open a gig with! Antimatter really served justice to the song. It gave me the chills. Like the whole show.
I have to be honest and confess, that I’m not very familiar with Antimatter’s material. Of course, I have checked out some of the songs, but I didn’t really recognize any when they played - maybe the setlist was mostly newer songs that I hadn't heard, dunno. I really recognized only one other song, another cover. This time it was The Power of Love by Frankie Goes To Hollywood – one of my favorites from this notorious 80’s synth-pop band. I had the double vinyl back in the day, and I remember that this song was the opening song of one the sides. I used to listen to it, time and time again…you know, in the age of vinyls you had to pick up the needle and place it back on the first groove. It was almost as a ritual of a kind. I think I will have to get that album back in cd-format. I haven’t really listened to it in years. Nevertheless, the Antimatter originals all sounded awesome. I think I oughta get the whole back-catalogue! Mick Moss has such a deep and evocative voice!
When Antimatter comes to Finland the next time, I will be there! If not warming up for, then at least in the audience.
Those of you stalking our Tumblr updates on a regular basis, already know this. I've got some good news and some bad news. Being such a party pooper, I'll let you in on the bad news first. The thing is, after a 4-year rollercoaster ride together, our dear friend and a magnificent drummer Lauri decided to quit the band. For a number of reasons, one being the fact that for the past 12 months or so the band has obviously lacked a bit of direction and drive. During this time we have only managed to complete one new song for our live-sets. One song in 12 months ain't much - despite the obvious fact that the song came out pretty fucking good. Of course, there were other reasons, too, but I think this was one of the biggest and nastiest things that bugged him for all this time. Yeah, lazy li'l cunts we are. So, basically we don't have a drummer for now. Not that it matters so much, as we already decided to focus on an acoustic EP next. We might need a little bit of percussions here and a teeny bit of single shots of various drums and rhythmic stuff there, but I'm sure Lauri will lend a hand when needed. After the release of the EP, we're a bit fucked, to be honest. Lauri was/is such an intuivite sort of a musician, it will be really hard to find a replacement of equal caliber. Plus, if we don't get our shit together by then, anyone with enough skills and ambition will not tolerate our lazy ass approach for long. We need to straighten up. Sad little cuts, we. The project with the EP will keep us occupied for the rest of this year, for sure - and if the usual perfectionist inside our tortured souls rears up its' ugly head at some point, the project will probably blow up in our faces and take longer. But, the sunny side of it will be, to us and to our fans, that instead of just warming up some leftovers from our previous EP's, we will record a bunch of new acoustic songs on this EP. Yeah, we have a few in the making, and they're all good. And as I'm going to be in charge of some of the sessions, I'm going to be the sick slave-driving fascist to whip out the best performances out of my bandmates - pretty much like the last time around. Not much editing, real organic musicianship. The old school way. There's gonna be all kinds of acoustic instruments, like cello and violin(s), saxophone(s) - and a bit of electric piano, the vintage stuff, and even some blues organ. So, semi-acoustic, actually. And as luck would have it...
...the good news is, that we are very honoured to inform you, that Carved in Ashes will be warming up for Antimatter (UK) next week in Helsinki! It will be an acoustic gig, just like the previous gig in Boothill - only this time, I will be playing the keyboards. (Last gig it was Lauri who replaced me, as I couldn't make it).
And after the gig, we start tracking the acoustic songs. And I can't remember if I told you already, but we'll start making a low-budget music video for Midnight Solitude in June. The screenplay is in the writing - the rough synopsis has already been written. And because we can't really afford to have explosions and strippers, let alone any state-of-the-art, hallucinatory digital effects, we decided to put emphasis on a good storyline instead. We've no idea how long this project will take, but...we'll keep y'all posted!