I know but with her and myself its always dead on fights and arguments for things ain't fighting about plus she doesn't trust me for anything even if I am hanging out with my brother , also she always wants to do is roleplay everyday
I'm gonna be off line for a small bit, no more than the weekend. If there's something urgent I need to reply to soon, inbox me and I'll get that done tonight. Hope all you northerners are enjoying your snow, I'll be in Florida having heat stroke
So I use tumblr sometimes when I want to write something out. I did, and I kind of liked it. I don't want to spam out my tumblr page because I don't look for followers, but I do want some people to read this. Maybe relate. Don't know, but enjoy
I like you. You’re like me. Worrying over something so small. Some of you just want somewhere to be, someone to be with on that day so famous for love. In grade school, we were forced to bring valentines for everyone in the class. Then as we grew older, we became more selective. Middle school we gave small cards and candies to just friends, and favorite teachers. High school you gave it to your girlfriend, best friend, or crush. Sometimes under anon. You may still be in high school, or you may be graduated, like me.
I can't say for certain what you might be going through, but I can tell you what I’m going through. Valentines day usually involves me texting ex-girlfriends, messaging crushes, or even sending a quick IM to a random female friend that I enjoy hanging out with. It usually ends up with me sitting alone, ordering one of those heart-shaped pizza’s from Papa Johns, and eating it alone. I contemplate my love life. My looks, how I come off to girls, and I fell sad. Hell, I’m depressed as shit. I regret the mistakes I've made. I still wish I was dating three of my ex-girlfriends. Not at the same time, but wishing I was still in those relationships. Wishing I had a valentine again.
Tobi! Da fuck?! It’s so below you. You don’t need to worry about your valentine, that’s such a small thing to even give the slightest of thought to in the real world. Shrug it off man! I know you can do it!
I know I can do it too. I've always had the power to not care. I always can save the money on a large pizza shaped like a heart, I know can. It’s so simple, I’d rather worry about not having a valentine. Fuck man, you look at the real world, and there are BIG ass problems. College, education, employment, surviving, staying healthy, maintaining friendships, doing work that needs to be done, holding in or letting out strong emotions that may be bottling up. The list goes on but…
I’d rather worry about something small and easy to fix, as opposed to something too big for me to handle.
So those of you who are sad, depressed, lonely, or upset because of Valentines day, you keep on doing that. Use this one chance to forget about your bigger problems. Love the fact that you can spend your energy on something smaller and more affordable, even if it’s just for one day.
So I've been wondering a lot recently. s it better to tell an inconvenient truth, or a reassuring lie?
Since childhood, most are taught that telling lies is always wrong, and if you have the choice, you should always tell the truth. As we grow older, we realize that lies are always there. Fictional holiday characters, or mysteries that we can't figure out because we haven't matured yet. Reassuring lies are there to protect us until we're ready for the truth.
Some might believe I'm wrong. That we should always start with the truth, and never lie to others. I'm not saying you should go around telling people that you're related to a famous person, or that you lie about your age. I mean things that protect people from being hurt. Lies that will allow you to keep good things going.
There are issues with some people though. Like me, they aren't so good at the whole "knowing when to tell the inconvenient truth" thing. As much as they want to, they never find a good time to say it. Partly because they don't want to hurt the others in their life. Also partly because they don't want to accept the truth themselves.
My mind is already made up on the matter. But what do you guys think? What are your experiences with Reassuring Lies and the Convenient Truth?
Which is best to start off with if you realize you know something that might hurt someone's feelings/your relationship with that person?
So I find hate funny. I don't use it often, and even when people know I don't like someone, they know I don't hate them. Even complete strangers that I've gotten into arguments with, I don;t hate. I try to understand. But one person, for some god forsaken reason, There's one person I'm working so very hard not to hate. So very hard. I try to relieve stress because it really does concern me. This new way of thinking. It's so..... cynical. I'm not sure if that's the right word. I need a word that describes how sometimes I dream that I torture someone in the worst ways my mind can think of. I apparently study in the medical field to learn about the body and the mind so I can just fuck with him forever. I'm afraid that if I put those things down, police may be involved. I could never do any of them. I don't have the guts, nor the energy to learn proper surgical skills.
I just needed to write out what I was thinking. To make sure I really felt this way.
I just really want enough money to solve my issues right now.
So here I am facing oblivion once again and I just openly greet it. By now I figured that I would be married and have a kid, but then the pregnancy rate goes up and I just don't see it happening. I have so much rage built up inside of me, I wanna scream but I'm afraid to do it anymore, like who wants to give a shit about what I gotta say so tonight my liver's turning to dust.
So I'm making a new character and I hate it when I'm trying to make a character and I can't think of a name for him. He's supposed to be a prince so I know the last name has to sound important and blah, but the first name always stumps me. I don;t want to be generic, but I also don't want to bee too exotic. Should I go with a Celtic name, or a slightly altered name from the most recent video games I've played?
So I was watching Scrubs, my favorite TV show, and I noticed two things in the last episode I watched. 1) I do this thing where if I'm being serious, or emotional, or getting my absolute point across, I tell the person to look at me if they aren't. Well, JD (main character of the show)told Elliot (best female friend throughout the show, they end up together) to look at him while he confessed how much he loved her. I've been watching this show since it came out, so I guess the fact that I watched that scene when I was younger stuck to me. Basically I'm saying one of the biggest parts of my social personality comes from Scrubs
You know that song "Hey Ya"? It's the one that goes "HEY FELLAS! What's cooler than being cool?" "ICE COLD!!!" and the "Shake it, shake shake shake it" yea that. Well the blanks (band that also acts in scrubs and performs in the show as well as outside) sang the song and it actually, at least to me, sounds really awesome and has some really nice lyrics.
SOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'bve decided that I will write a book series based on my first ever version of Tobi. The way he has developed now, after everything I've created in not just him, but all of my characters, I feel I could create a world around it.. Intertwining every character I've ever made. I figure it will be molded from either a trilogy, or a series. A series is sounding better to me, and then there will be a prequel (When he was younger) and an after story (what happens either after death or when he becomes much older)
I'm going to finish up college so that I can tune my writing skills before I actually start on the series, and I don;t want to put out too much info because I want it to be a surprise
So there's the update on me. The reason I haven't been much around is because I have either gotten no responses, or they have all been drowned by the posts in intro threads and stuff