So my dad had this coupon for a free eye exam, and then you get a pair of glasses for free. So, I'm getting a new pair, and then I'm also getting a secondary new pair that will be tinted so that I have a pair of sunglasses. I haven;t had a pair of sunglasses since long before 6th grade. Guys that's like..... over ten years I haven;t had a pair of sunglasses. Do you all know how much I go outside and all I've had to protect me are hats? It kind of sucks. Everything will be better now.
The doctor giving me my eye exam was really nice. We talked about how tall I was, and I told her how my friend said that tallness was so attractive and she didn't know why I was single. I told the optometrist that I told my friend "Well, height isn't the sole determining factor of whether a girl will go out with me or not". She ended up saying "Well. studies show that a lot of girls who had a choice between an attractive short guy, or a less attractive tall guy, would go for the tall guy simply because he's tall. But you don't have to worry about that, cause you're tall AND good looking so no worries" and all I could say was "psh. And I've got this amazing personality, so I'm basically the whole package" and she just started laughing, then she turned to me, and gave me a high-five. It felt nice having someone laugh at my jokes. It felt nice making someone laugh. Today was her last day so that really sucks.
We talked about a lot of stuff. Mostly I brought stuff up and she went along with it. We talked about how I have such pretty eyes, but how my tallness and my need to wear glasses all the time prevents people from seeing them. I talked about how once, in sixth grade My friend took my glasses and this one girl was like "OH MY GOD YOU HAVE GREEN EYES?! SINCE WHEN?" and all I could say was "Uhm.... Like, birth?" and that made even a few people waiting around laugh. I really like making people laugh. It makes me feel like I'm doing something right, you know? Laughter really is magic, and I've realized that making friends laugh every once and a while is the kind of thing I need to try to make myself happier because I've been going though some stuff. I've been acting childish and stupid. Angry, and easy to tick off. It's no one's fault really, just me not taking charge. There's stuff I have to do, but I'm so used to working in a system where I do what people say. Now I'm supposed to do everything on my own and I don't know if I can.
Then I make my friends laugh and I can distract myself from all my problems. Comedy is my ultimate escape. Personally, I think it's a darn good one.
I can't wait for October! I'll have to get "The Endless River" as soon as it's released, since I haven't gotten any Pink Floyd albums on their initial release dates and this might be the only chance I'll have to do so. I haven't been this anxious for anything in a long time.
So I've had this one line from a song called Light&Sound. I heard the song when I was much younger, and now I can;t even find it. All I remember from the song is "And all you really need is a gift from your mom and dad" And that's it. I've tried that humming website, and that tapping website, but nothing. This is seriously making me go wild. I can't find it on iTunes either, and gragh. Whatever. Just another thing to add to my list of things that are ticking me off
So, It's been a really long time since I've actually been active, and I apologize for that. some weird stuff has been going on, so I'll try to fill ion everything that's been going on
Started school, taking Introduction to Philosophy, theater appreciation, English composition, and algebra. The last two I'll probably be repeating.
My computer has a nasty virus and I need my friend to wipe it, and the virus comes from a program I downloaded to watched One Piece because the video files didn't fit my computer.
Was in a relationship over winter break, it ended a few days after valentines, realized my position as a friend to certain people. Started hooking up with someone I had been crushing on since 9th, then I realized the reasons I liked here didn't even really exist, and she's a bitch. So we're just friends now, if you'd even call it that. I'm disappointed in her, but I don;t mean enough to her for it to matter, and the fact that I don't mean much to her hit me hard.
Realized that I'm not the hot piece of poo in peoples lives that I thought I was, and that I'm expendable, but then I realized that I did that to myself because really I dislike getting involved with people (This is the year of personal breakthroughs)
Understand I'm young and stupid and looking for love, but as Mika once said, "Love's gonna get you down"
SO! I'm young and stupid, realized that anyone I attempt to get close to romantically will just shut e down in the end, because I realize in this point in my life that most of the best things in my life are going to end up sucking, but all the bad stuff in my life might end up being what I value most. (Like I said, year of personal breakthroughs)
Getting back on what's making me busy. I've applied to be a camp counselor for the YMCA, my friend works there and says she'd love to have an extra guy on deck. I've been making new friend through friends, been posting on Tumblr, and I've been writing up characters less and less. I'm pulling away from wanting to be a writer, and I'm focusing on what I really notice about myself. I like making people happy. Making people happy is what makes me happy, that's why I destroyed one of my relationships for someone just because I wanted to make someone happy.
I'm an ass, lets move on.
Once I get my computer cleaned, I will be on more frequently. I will be on periodically to check my inbox and such, if anyone wants me to post anywhere, I will only do so on request because my computer is sick. ALRIGHT!
Grocery store is giving me crap hours, that's why I'm looking for a new job. I'm not making any money. I've taken up long boarding. All that good stuff. I've started going to the gym because I want to be able to protect those I love, yada yada be a big man and stuff. Whatever.
Making friends off Ok Cupid
Helping friend with his photography
Watching Netflix religiously]
Sleeping a lot
Living life to the fullest, YEA!
Going to get my motorcycle license.
Anything else? Inbox me, ask for my number, whatever you need. Computer is too loud, need to watch House