After about 10 years of having absolutely no artistic inspiration, I finally have some back! I finally feel like I can create something again. I have no idea how my inspiration came back Im just glad it finally did! It feels amazing to be able to do something that I thought I would never be able to do again. If any of you are constantly inspired to do what you love to do please dont take that for granted because simply having talent isnt good enough when there is nothing there to inspire it. In some way I feel as if some light has returned to me after so many years of being in darkness. I love being able to pick up a paintbrush and a piece of paper and create something magical out of it. I have never had one single maternal instinct or feeling in my body but for some reason when I finish painting a picture I get this maternal sense over it. Perhaps because it is an image born of my imagination. Ill close this by saying that inspiration is fleeting so if you have it in abundance treasure it and appreciate it to its fullest because you never know when it could leave you!! <3
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There is something I need to put out there that I don’t feel like bringing up to humans in my life face to face or personally. So here I will type this aloud in hopes that it will give myself the satisfaction of voicing my opinion whether anyone reads it or not.
I am twenty three years old and I have been alive for many massacres, tragedies, and other heart breaking things. I.E. Columbine, 9/11, Santana High School(which was very close to home), Virginia Tech, Aurora and many others before and in between. I had felt a strong sadness for the families of the victims and was in disbelief and the evil that had ensued.
Recently a shooting happened at an elementary school where many humans especially children died. While I still think it should not have happened, my feelings are very different now than they were before. I simply think that “it sucks” and that “it’s unfortunate” as to the tear i use to shed when hearing about such thigs. But I can’t feel for the families like I used to.
You see in August, I lost my mother very unexpectedly and without going into detail, I can barely handle it. It is the single worst thing I believe I will ever go through and it has left me very numb.
People die every day. People who are mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, best friends, wives, husbands, etc…. Yet the world is not grieving over them. In order for that to happen the media would have to find their death interesting and broadcast it their millions of viewers.
I’m very tired and I don’t know how else to put things into words. But I guess my whole point is to say that since my mother died, I now look at life and death a whole lot different than I used to.
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