If you find a man who makes you smile, laugh, blush, and who you feel safe with don't lie to him. He is worth every ounce of pain you've been through. Make him happy tell him the truth. Otherwise he will walk out of your life and you will never find that happiness ever again.
SINGLE or NOT,
Put this as your journal & see what colors people give you. (Don't be afraid)
BLUE- I like you alot.
ORANGE- I wanna kiss you.
YELLOW- I wanna be with you.
PINK- Inbox me sometime, we need to get to know each other.
RED- I love you.
PURPLE- Can i get those digits?
BLACK- I want you, but I can't have you.
GREEN- I'm sorry for leaving you.
GREY- You're really cute.
When everything you do is a mistake and everything you say is wrong. Look out your window at night and ask the stars advice. The will tell you to be yourself and robbe strong. Some one is out there just like you asking the same questions to the same far away suns. Someone out in this big world never does anything right. They want someone who understands them too. Maybe if you stopped crushing your soul with thoughts of what others say you would see that you've been right the whole time.... let your soul sing its song loud and clear. Be wrong to your family and be wrong to society but never be wrong to yourself.
I won't go into specifics for the sake of being discreet. However, I had put a lot of time and faith into an endeavor and it seems like it's not going to happen for me. I feel as if I'm doomed to repeat these mistakes and yes some of what transpired was my doing and not any other party's fault. I put too much stock in things that aren't set in stone. It's a bad habit of mine. None the less, I am heart broken and feel this is the beginning of my end in certain arenas.
I guess all there is left to do is write bitter songs about what I've experienced my whole life as I've done so a million times before. Some may never see the light of day and some will. It's a process. And I intend to keep that one process alive no matter what life throws at me. I will make this band or another project of mine successful and it'll be grand. Not for money, because no one is getting paid well in the music industry anymore, but for the satisfaction that my music is reaching a group of people. It's not for everyone but hell, what is these days? I'm trying to stay optimistic in the face of sheer doubt. It's a daunting experience I'm not gonna lie.
I hope those that know me will continue to fight on my side as comrades in arms, friendship and common interests as well as similar mindsets. For those of you that get it, I am truly grateful. I hope I can make something of this band to share in the wealth of status with my dear friends, electronic and real life. You guys mean the world to me and you know who you are. Everyone else can keep doubting, it'll make it all the sweeter when they're proven wrong.
Thanks for reading as always and thanks for all the support and kind words my peeps have left on my page so far. I'm also looking to possibly add some musicians to my bands roster. Primarily a singer (female preferred), guitarist, bassist and other producers like myself for more heads to send this collective into orbit. If interested, you must be in Illinois (Chicago or Chicago suburbs only) or be able to work over the net to get things done via Dropbox and Sound Cloud. I hope I find some interesting folks that are down to do so. I could use the new blood to invigorate my process. Thanks again.
Art, be it music or visual, is often a good outlet for these things. I find it helpful to sketch or create something when I am feeling like this, and I'm sorry you're feeling this way Sending hugs from across the ocean!
That's what I would do.. Just go through life not really thinking or caring might be the way... Or it could be my degrading mind coupled with stress and sore muscles. Not sure yet! Oh well. Life moves on am I right? Maybe I should dedicate my my to protecting and my writing. Maybe... Just maybe.
I wish I was not enough that I'd get a lot of private comments... At least a few would suffice... I'm not a player or anything but I jus like the comments to boost my spirits up... I'm never gonna be hot... Goodnight everyone.. Have a good day..
rain rain come again wash away the pain with in.
take me to a place of joy were I won't remember being his toy.
wash away the bruises here take the blood out of my hair.
put the smile upon my lips and I will follow the willo the whisps.
keep my skin cold and stone, but never let me descieve a friend.
make my soul of fire and silk so that I may love the man for me.
send forth a river to take away the fever
left behind by sorrow and hate.
bring on the wind the voice I love. the howl from my alphas loungs.
let him call my name to you. let me hear it from the moon.
call to me and sing my song. I'll sing right back to whom I belong.
run to me my dearest wolf. I will run to you from accross the cloth.
bite my neck when you get to me. show the world who belongs to thee.
I belong to thee my mate my love. now if only I had the wings of a dove
to carry me to your side to cheer you up and make you smile.
just let me sit and hear you laugh so that I know you aren't all wrath.
my dear should smile and never frown. allways your life should be good and full of fun.
So I'm in pain. Can't feel any of it right now thanks to some vodka. Wishing I could talk to my alpha haha really want to hear him growl again. Funny thing I mostly just want to hear him laugh.... I wanna hear the smile in his voice..... wanna hear him call me his Georgia peach. Well Damn guess I'm alittle bit drunker than I thought. I just started smiling like a imbecile thinking about him. ... guess my roomy was right before she passed out. I do need to sleep. ... maybe I'll dream of him.
Mood: drunk/sad/in pain/ungodly happy Music: whiskey hang over/whiskey lullaby