You're cute when you play dumb trying to seem so inacent when i know your not , but i 'll play along just to humor you and to fuel my own flames. You're cute when you nuzzle up to me after you spent all your time focused on someone or something else , asking if im okay as if you cant tell im pissed . You're cute in my dreams when you scream for me to stop and your blood sprays across the walls of my bedroom. I'm cute when i am pretending to be happy and ploting your demise .
Its not that I don't want you to be happy but its the fact that when she is around you could careless if I was even here, Its not that I don't like her its the fact that she spits out nonsense and you it that bullshit up like your favorite candy.
All i know is i want you and i want to be happy but at points those things cancel eachother out and i dont have you and im not happy , i know im self-destructive and aggressive but you are the pne who brings out the best and worst in me .
You know of the others and they know of you but you both pass like a summer breeze . The others say empty words that i know not to believe but you say words that sound full but are just as empty but i fall everytime , how long until you become just another one of the others passing like a breeze.
He is everything a girl could hope for but it turns out just like every fairytale it has to end and the inner demon shows and im not sure if i like what i see or if i want to be apart of it . Alan you asked for my hand then you say we should be together but see others too ,but i dont know if i can handle seeing you with someone else and feeling for them what you say you feel for me . Alan it makes me wonder if what you say and feel is all a lie.
My love is sweet and caring ,but he is also calculating and cold, my lover tries to hide the truth from me , but my love make it obvious what he is doing and done. my love loves me but I know somenights my lover would rather be in someone elses bed. my lover is my lover but only because he tells me he loves me to keep me wanting him and for my lover this works but i hurt so deep from my lover.