Hello lovely darlings
I'm back again, I'll try and be more active now so feel free to add/message me!
You can also kik me at: bloodybrandit13 if you'd like to talk
(Please no nudes for the first message).
How is everyone?
Mood: Kinda happy but weird o.O Music: Criminal minds
No one's listening to me anymore
which is actually the best feeling in the world
solitude I guess is finding comfort in yourself and it's been so long since I've felt that
so scared I guess of resulting loneliness that I just surround myself with the loudest noise ever
The loudest possible songs
the loudest people
the loudest idiotic ideals
the lousy gym
the financial aid office
the fucking "club"
I quit school and lost a internship because of money yeah but
fuck. if the peace and quiet didn't prevent me from checking into Bellevue
I don't know what did
(Actually I do their names are Josef, Veronica, Ivi, and Chris)
and maybe even Rene, Osasere, and Nathan, and Donicia
I don't know I often isolate myself from my friends
I even went as far as deleting my facebook
and a lot of the times I feel fucked up for it
and when I want to go back to the bosom of my friends it's always "where the fuck were you for two years". it's really sad. maybe i'm not supposed to have friends, it's awful hard to survive without though.
I don't know, it's a fucking stretch to say I give up a normal social life for the betterment of my sanity. but I mean this morning (and it is 4 in the morning) it kinda feels like that.
I should visit Maryland soon, I miss my Uncle, I did so much heartbreaking growing up this year. I just want to feel like a little girl again.
I miss Josef too, god I love the boy so much it hurts. I have commitment issues now, and the fact that he still has my heart across state lines is just....incredible.
I haven't seen either them in a whole year, it would be nice to see them before I turn 21 but I don't see my financial situation letting me do that anytime soon.
Yes I know it's been like forever since I did one of these so here it goes.
Bomb! it's 2014 and a ton of very exciting stuff has been going on.
First off I would like to share a piece of music I just composed today,
It's call Lenora's Snow a little instrumental improve I did to test out some new software.
Or maybe a couple months of craziness, I'm back on here. It's been a roller coaster. And I'm still dealing with some things but it's finally getting better for me. I miss the few ppl I've talked to on here. Not sure if y'all are still on but if you are, msg me ASAP. I need numbers. Got a new phone, lost all my numbers. Whoomp... Anywayz, guess I'll have to start this thing over since I lost about 70% of my friends list. Ehhh... Whatevz.
I've been having a very hard time with my memory for the last few weeks and so far its only getting worse. I'm having a very hard time remembering what a cult is about and what role plays I'm even doing.
If I'm staff in a cult its probably best that I know longer am because so far I can't do much to help with really anything more then inviting.
If I'm role playing with you somewhere please give me the link to the role play because I really can't remember what role plays I'm doing right now unless they have been responded to in the last few hours.
Nothings okay.... Wtf this is not right at all . lost and don't know what to do . I had no idea of what happened , I just know what I've heard . I walked away waiting ,got accused for things I did not do. Stars don't lie. Outside influences messing with heads. Believe what u wish . but I'm telling the truth. Don't kill a star so bright....for something so dark.... Waiting in hurt waiting and dying waiting for you to remember me and see
Hello all you lovely vfers out there.
It's been a while since we did one of these yes I know, A lot of changes have happened in the world of M2V.
Yes! it's true you can contact us via kik now if you so desire for tour updates ticket info and all.
So if you have Kik add March2Victory
Hey! I remember a time when this was one of the most played videos everyday.
Help get it back there, spread it around, share with friends post on FB, I ever heard its good for a early xmas present!
Wow... it's been a really long time since I've made an entry. Looking back on my old posts I was really a whiny little bitch. Gotta say things are way different now. I love my life and everything in it. Love the good but I also love the bad, for if I did not have the bad, the good wouldn't be so great. I've taken up a hobby or two since then and I've also gotten way more into gaming. I've acquired a few more guitars since then and I will be putting up pictures of them soon. A big thing I've gotten into is Gundam modeling. I don't really know why but I just love to build those models. I will be posting pictures of them as well.I've been through a couple bad relationships since then and it's really helped me learn to be a lot more independent. Sure nobody likes to be alone, but I don't NEED somebody there. I can be happy as a single guy. I also got a job.... finally. It's not really that great but y'know... a paycheck's a paycheck. You gotta do what you gotta do. Something else that's happened is my dad was in the hospital for a while. Originally it was for back surgery and he was going to be in and out and back on his feet again in no time. While he was recovering though he got an infection of E coli and we didn't know until it had gone septic. He almost died that night. Fortunately we got him to the hospital in time and he was fine. After that though he had to be put under heavy sedation so all his body's energy could be focused on fighting off the infection and was basically in a coma for about 2 months. When he had fought it off and could be woke up he didn't know how to talk or control his movement. We'd tell him to move his arm and he'd move a leg. Tell him to move his leg and just a toe would move. So he basically had to relearn everything related to motor skills. Lucky he picked it all back up along with his strength fairly quickly and he's gotten back to doing the things he loves. He goes to work every day now and he seems pretty happy. This has definitely been an interesting chapter of my life and has really helped define and refine me as a person. I've come a lot closer to god and I feel like I've become a better person.
Mood: Pretty happy Music: Infant Sorrow - I Am Jesus