I live on the sadder side of life.
To say I live is an understatement I thrive on the sadder side.
I watch from this side to see people true nature and self destruct, some might think the sadder side is a bad place but I enjoy myself here and watching the world implode on its self.
The sadder side is the only place for me to be myself and find out how people really feel about others and myself.
This side lets holds no secrets and all truths , its a place to be alone with your darkest thoughts and feelings.
Well well. It's been a while. So I might as well update this thing. Let's start slow.
Life is beautiful. Work is great, Adrien is doing well, and Jen and I are (hopefully) pregnant. We're trying, so I'm hoping it worked! We'll know in a few days. Got a new car, driving a Dodge Magnum. White, but there are worse colors. Moving soon I think. Not sure where in terms of city, but I think our family needs to be elsewhere. Bigger place. I'm considering being a DJ again. I have always loved making music.
And you're expressing it for what reason, exactly? Oh noes! Someone, somewhere may not hear your opinion! Hurry! Rectify it! Minority or majority makes no difference. Based on the one definition you clipped, sure. The majority here is me. My journal. Public entry, my journal. Your oppositional opinion, while fun, was pointless. I'm starting to remember why I haven't been on here in a while. Lots of self-important, shut in, socially awkward disassociatives giggling at each other's farts, and regurgitating each other's diarhetic insults and unintelligible memes at one another in a fruitless and pathetic attempt to feel less alone, while isolating themselves from the world behind computer screens like their 'friends'. Shocking that it took an hour for me to recall that.
Hello lovely darlings
I'm back again, I'll try and be more active now so feel free to add/message me!
You can also kik me at: bloodybrandit13 if you'd like to talk
(Please no nudes for the first message).
How is everyone?
Mood: Kinda happy but weird o.O Music: Criminal minds
No one's listening to me anymore
which is actually the best feeling in the world
solitude I guess is finding comfort in yourself and it's been so long since I've felt that
so scared I guess of resulting loneliness that I just surround myself with the loudest noise ever
The loudest possible songs
the loudest people
the loudest idiotic ideals
the lousy gym
the financial aid office
the fucking "club"
I quit school and lost a internship because of money yeah but
fuck. if the peace and quiet didn't prevent me from checking into Bellevue
I don't know what did
(Actually I do their names are Josef, Veronica, Ivi, and Chris)
and maybe even Rene, Osasere, and Nathan, and Donicia
I don't know I often isolate myself from my friends
I even went as far as deleting my facebook
and a lot of the times I feel fucked up for it
and when I want to go back to the bosom of my friends it's always "where the fuck were you for two years". it's really sad. maybe i'm not supposed to have friends, it's awful hard to survive without though.
I don't know, it's a fucking stretch to say I give up a normal social life for the betterment of my sanity. but I mean this morning (and it is 4 in the morning) it kinda feels like that.
I should visit Maryland soon, I miss my Uncle, I did so much heartbreaking growing up this year. I just want to feel like a little girl again.
I miss Josef too, god I love the boy so much it hurts. I have commitment issues now, and the fact that he still has my heart across state lines is just....incredible.
I haven't seen either them in a whole year, it would be nice to see them before I turn 21 but I don't see my financial situation letting me do that anytime soon.
Yes I know it's been like forever since I did one of these so here it goes.
Bomb! it's 2014 and a ton of very exciting stuff has been going on.
First off I would like to share a piece of music I just composed today,
It's call Lenora's Snow a little instrumental improve I did to test out some new software.