The world is not the same - without you
The colors washed to grey - what can I do?
How did we all get here - it went so wrong
I cannot disappear - so I write this song...
We are the shattered...
I wake to face the day - it grows harder
To put away the hate - not fall farther
Feels like I'm becoming - more unglued
Every inch of my canvas - has turned to blue...
I will not stand, I will not fight
For the things you think are right
The world has grown so dark and cold
They only do what they are told,
Everyone is such a saint
And a sinner and a fake
stab each other in the backs
the time for pretense has long passed...
So lately I've encountered a bunch of users here specifically for sex, or BDSM while being under 18. I honestly don't know where they get the idea that is what vf was designed for. If you're into BDSM to the point where you want a lifestyle relationship, go on fetlife or some other site don't bring it here, this site has users 13+ which is why there are quite a few rules on posting nudity/sexual material, not to mention they don't approve of people flirting or hitting on under age users.
Personally I just view it as live and let live, but when I see a 23+ year old calling a 14-17 year old hot, etc, leaving sexual comments I just report them, as that type of perverted and loser like behaviour is just childish. If you want to get laid, go to bar, club, show, strip club, whatever where only adults can attend.
Onto another subject, I am tired. I was up since 3:30am due to a power outage, and as I can't sleep without a fan on I ended up just laying in bed until 5:45, then wandering around the house with a little light for a bit. It really is not fun requiring sound to sleep lol. I think I'll be passing out early tonight.
I stole this from someone XD but please fill it out
Would you kiss me?
[ ] Hell Yeah
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Maybe
[ ] already did
Would you do me?
[ ] In an instant!
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Maybe
[ ] you look to sweet to fuck
[ ] already did
Am I attractive?
[ ] Heck no
[ ] hot as Hell
[ ] Fine
[ ] Cute
[ ] Okay I think ur pretty
[ ] Sexy
[ ] Ugly!
Do you think im a virgin?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Don't know
Name one thing you would like to do to me?
3 things you would like to know about me?
If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] maybe
What kind of pic would you send me of yourself?
[ ] Fully clothed
[ ] No boxers
[ ] Just in boxers
[ ] Only shirt and boxers
[ ] Naked
[ ] I wouldn't send you anything
[ ] Who needs pics, I have a webcam ;-)
Would you rather..
[ ] Hook up with me
[ ] Cuddle with me
[ ] Date me
[ ] Marry me
[ ] Friends
[ ] Do me
What kind of underwear are you wearing right now?
[ ] boxers
[ ] whitie tighties
[ ] thong
[ ] g-string
[ ] granny panties
[ ] boy shorts
[ ] none
What's your favourite position?
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..
[ ] 1
[ ] 2
[ ] 3
[ ] 4
[ ] 5
[ ] 6
[ ] 7
[ ] 8
[ ] 9
[ ] 10
What would you want me to be to you or what do you think about me?
[ ] Friend
[ ] girlfriend/Boy friend
[ ] Friend with benefit
[ ] I want your number
[ ] Pretty/Cute
[ ] Hottie
[ ] Sexy
[ ] Gorgeous
[ ] Amazingly Beautiful
[ ] I'd take you home in a second
[ ] I'd make out with you right now
[ ] I'd Hit it
[ ] I love you,
What's your favourite color?
Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No
Hell yes, in an Instant, hot as hell, no, anything you would be ok with, 1 what fetishes do you have 2 what's your plans for the future 3 do you have tattoos, yes, naked, any of the above, none, don't have a fav, and 10, I think your hot and gf, black, yes
I am now the proud owner of my very own cult called "INDUSTRIALliance". Here's the basic skinny on what it's all about.
"INDUSTRIALliance (a combination of the words "industrial" and "alliance") is a cult designed for the musically inclined to meet and collaborate on projects. The core and fundamental focus of INDUSTRIALliance is the FREE cooperation of artists for the betterment and advancement of the music we all love by the artists. Everything from writing to recording, from mixing to remixing, from concepts to album art... it's all encouraged to further promote BOTH artists involved."
I'm pretty proud of the concept, I'm just hoping the cult picks up some members soon so the ball can get rolling. I really wanna see bands and artists helping each other out. Everyone has to start somewhere.
Let me tell you something about pits....
There are different types of pits that give you different feelings
1.You feel that your Pit is full of emotion so you:
a. bottle it upp until you burst
b. let all your emotions out
either way, you will end up emptying your pit of emotion and it will turn into your next type of pit.
2. You feel empty like all your insides just got ripped out and all that is left is a hollow corpse so you:
a. float about in your ghostly empty corpse state and wallow in your emptiness
b. try to fill your pit with unhealthy habits
c. try to fill your pit with healthy habits
if you choose a:
you will never change
if you choose b:
you will go in the dark path that leads you in a spiraling down fall into your pit
if you choose c:
you will develop habits that will make your pit full and make your life feel fulfilled
now here is the question I ask you:
What is your pit? (and more importantly) WHAT WILL YOU DO ABOUT IT?
Join us as we take you on a multilevel, three room journey of the history on Industrial music with our elite team of resident audio curators and one very special guest duo.
- AREA 1 -
FUTUREPOP + INDUSTRIAL DANCE
DJ's Trauma & Rev.John take things back to golden era of trance lead EBM for a night full of epic builds and breaks.
- AREA 2 -
CLASSIC EBM + RETRO INDUSTRIAL + NEW BODY + ACID
DB resident's J.Short & G. Holger are joined by the veteran DJ/producer duo Raíz (Droid Behavior) as they recreate the sound and vibe of a Belgian EBM club circa 1989.
- AREA 3 -
RHYTHMIC NOISE + DISTORTED TECHNO
Das Bunker co-founders Franck H-Bomb & Ryant Reel Eyes team up with The Operative to take you through a journey of broken beats and pounding distorted rhythms.
My friend unpardonablesin made this post:
When Companions Become Strangers
You take comfort in the compliments of strangers instead of those already in your life, failing to remember that it was those already in your life that were there for you when you couldn't quiet the darkness inside your own mind. It wasn't strangers that wiped away your tears. It wasn't strangers that held you. It was the very same people who became invisible to you the second you ignored them for some text on a screen. Do not act surprised when you lift your eyes from that screen, for once, and realize that those people are no longer there. They grew tired of your silence. They grew tired of being invisible, of being useful only when convenient. Perhaps for once, they needed their demons silenced, and you were not there for them. No, you were too preoccupied with receiving praise from voiceless words on a screen with frozen faces.
And this was my response:
this is legit my life :-( I have no friends outside of the screen but it wasn't because I ignored them I turned to the screen when the people outside of the screen let me down too many times. I was broken and needed something. So I turned to internet friends and you know what IN MY LIFE strangers have been there for me more than any friend has ever been I faced my darkness ALONE and no one was there for me I got out of it ALONE and no that im out of it I realized that those "friends" that I thought I had were nothing but pieces of shit that used me for my kindness. I can honestly say that I legit have never had a true friend EVER in my life yea sure ive been sad and had friends wipe my tears but no one answerd my call at night when I was on the edge of destruction no one has held me no one has been there through thick and thin but I did all that for them so what is wrong? what did I do to not have a friend I talk to everyone so its not the people that I pick that is the issue and the ones that stay I treat as genuine gold as I possibly can and for what? only to be used. What am I doing wrong?....what am I doing wrong?
Never had a true friend
November 18, 2014, 04:37:pm
Ive been to one elementary school with people that were different from my other school -never had a single friend at allIve been to two different middle schools that were different people from my elementary school and from eachother - legit I ate in the bathroom and my only friend was my teacher who called me names in classI went to a different highschool with different people that Ive never seen before yea I had friends but never a true friend I thought I did but they just used me and told me publicly in long ass public posts on fb that everyone hates m and that I annoy everyone with my "so called anxiety issues" and "faking disorders" etc So over all ive tried a change of scene and that hasn't worked
It's that time again, the middle of the month, which means we're kicking off the next "Fan of the Month" contest!!!
For those of you that are new, this is how it works...
1. Add me to your bands list
2. Add one or more songs to your player (the more songs the more chances you have to win)
3. Drop me a message or comment letting me know you've done 1 and 2. Once I've verified that you have done those steps then I add you to the "Kick Ass Fans" section and you are entered. That easy!
What do you win? A picture in the fan of the month picture section of the page AND 1 MONTH PREMIUM MEMBERSHIP!!!
So, what are you waiting for? Get to it!
Capricorn Moon needs to feel useful and productive. They are competent and collected, even when their emotions are churning beneath the surface. They want realistic goals and clear boundaries set. They are not risk takers. They much prefer security and safety and plan ahead for every eventuality.
Capricorn Moon does not deal well with all those messy emotions. they are frightened of dealing with them. While they can have some mood swings and can dip pretty far into the darkness themselves, they don't like to delve into this side. The Capricorn Moon Sign person is their own worst critic, and they can be really hard on themselves. They often hide their own sensitivity behind a sarcastic demeanor. They are painfully aware of their faults and weaknesses, and try very diligently to compensate for them.
Moon in Capricorn may come across as cold and calculating, but in reality they just don't feel comfortable letting their feelings hang out in public. They prefer to be organized and efficient; practical to the bone. Those born under this Moon Sign have a strong need to feel worthwhile. They want to be respectable in the eyes of others. Patient and able to endure quite a bit, Capricorn Moon has a big sense of duty. They jump to take responsibility on the job or at home. They may feel that they give more than they get, and it takes a lot for them to learn that others are giving back to them. They need to learn to give affection. they may feel it; they just tend not to show it very well to those they love.
In a relationship, they are often unable or unwilling to see what their partner wants or needs. They tend to worry and find it difficult to relate to those who have different values and opinions. They have a hard time discussing their own problems. It is rare that they feel relaxed and content within themselves. They fear rejection. Unless everything is outlined clearly, they feel insecure. It may take them a long time to find someone to trust and love. They mellow with age as competition isn't so important and can genuinely be a lot of fun as they get older.
Capricorn Moon likes to get their own way. They can be ambitious and strong of will, especially as it helps their own career. They like the spotlight, and do well in public positions. Often very intelligent, they have a great respect of knowledge, and they know how to use it to their benefit. They do have a problem with holding anger and resentment deep inside, and can actually cause illness or depression within themselves because they don't deal with their feelings.
Moon in Capricorn is dignified and tenacious. They are able to concentrate well, and do not like to be idle. They can motivate others. When they do lose control, you might as well be standing in the shadow of Mount Vesuvius. Luckily, this doesn't happen very often.
Mood: Missing something Music: Digitally Imported: Ambient radio