1. so much time has came and gone
fleeting sands through the hourglass' song
I long for your voice but i hear it not
pathetic I may be but I know what I want
I want your voice to be my lullaby
I want your touch to brush my eye
let me know it's ok, that I'm not a fool
not a fool.... for loving you
2. so many have tried to aid my wounds
but how can you help a pain that swoons
that covers my heart and tears open my flesh
leaves me rotten in a dessert thresh
my tears have been spilled and I question now
if you really love me or if I was wrong somehow.
if I was wrong and you love me no more
let me know please so I can heal and soar
3. I love you dearly and I've tried so hard
but you disappeared so much I've had to put up my guard
I've seen you leave one to many times
that now I hear dirges instead of wedding bell's chime
I've given so much and gotten so few
in seems like you changed and i don't know what to do
if you have walked away I'm sorry my dear
I will love you always my moonstalker tear
one day if indeed you have left.
you may return and see what I felt
what I wanted to give and what you seemed not to want
if I'm wrong my dear tell me... what is it you want?
im on my way now. 15 weeks left to go.
then i really do soar and to where I don't know.
I will love you always even though i never got to feel
your touch on my skin and the emotions i thought were real
if you decide i'm what you want please speak soon or nevermore
cuz my hearts finally breaking quoth thy raven nevermore, nevermore...
Mood: Broken and in thought Music: bruno mars - out of heaven
I was going to write out all my feelings about everything on here but I realized that in reality I'm the only one who gives a damn about them. this month is the hardest month for me and i do all I can to stay my normal PLUR self but when you're all alone and the army of thousands gather upon you all I can seem to think about is that one verse in the bible (of all things lol) about how my enemys are many and they gather but cannot harm me for I am yours. yet on this earth i feel so alone sometimes.
I wanna say how I feel so bad right now but I know my words fall on def ears so I won't say a thing, I'll just keep smiling until one day my smile will just fade away. cuz just like the rain it can't always shine all the time either.... specially when you're all alone...
Mood: hoping the world really does end, Q been A'd? Music: blue October-hate me
there one was a boy named fominha his girlfriend called him foefoe
he loved her more then she ever knew and ever would know
then and been through alot
yah they fought
but they always found a way not to go
till one day she said some wrong and in front of his parents eyes
they saw his hurt his crushed heart break as he could only question why
for his parents had too fought
and that was alot
and now he felt he should die
he said some things back hurtful and mean
stabbing at her heart in the spacing between
he hadn't thought
his words to rot
the friendship he thought everlasting
she walked away tears streamed down her cheek
he cried as well but kept it sleak
he couldn't show
the hurt that was slow
that corsed through knowing she'd repeat
she told him his wrongs and told him how
something she didn't realize till now
she told him to die
in a burning car why
cuz he was nothing, he was nothing now
his heart would soon nova as his scarn mind bled through
the hurt she had caused turned his brown eyes blue
his long brown hair faded
turned grey then blond plated
as his sorrow came pouring through
in the time that then followed his rage settled down and he got his thought back on cue
he had felt disreaspected and acted in rage and now he didn't know what to do
he paced back in forth and and paced and paced
and his heart beat raced, it raced and he raced
out in the rain to fix all the pain and undo what he had to undo
but it was to late she was with another now feeling his back and savoiring his pleasure
fergeting the boy who loved her and tryed to be there for her whenever
she needed him, befor
but she had to settle the score
and now she would love him never
he climbed in his car and place the key to ignition
feeling something was wrong he rushed his decision
his car hissed and roared like a beast of glitterfreeze
this pain so strong it brought him to his knees.
he would make this right
he would try and fight
to keep her here
in his life
but the knife had ben stuck
on that day there was given no fuck
and on his way to tell her he was sorry! he cared!
the chapter was written in black smoke ridden air!
on that rainy night
he wanted to make things right
she wouldn't see his position cuz she was in her position and loving it to much to question
with each thrust of lust he gassed and he sped
trying to fix this while she was giving head
if only she's known
from his car he was thrown
and now on the roadside lay dead
the car had exploded from inside to out
he was incinerated in fire as he screamed and he'd shout!....
the last words she said
i wish you were dead
in a car on fire, but his last desire, his words that echoed on... I doubt....
what he wanted to say was I doubt on this day
you ever realized how much I did care
and cold I now part from darkness a heart
that wanted you and though you'd be there.....
he died all alone
as he knew he would
but at least he tried to fix it.....
the next day she heard
of the tragic word
that her boy had Ben burnt to a crisp....
Mood: kinda show's it don't it? Music: nothin, silance. about to go drive.
the earth quakes on glitterfreeze as pillars of ice and glass shatter to the ground thousands of miles below breaking into a sharp dust brushing across his molten skin. his rage shaking the very foundation of glitterfreeze, cursed with the rage of a god he spews lava as he screams a curse to the ones to sent him to this purgatory! "why has thou forsaken me!!! all I ever did was love her!!! I fought for my people and you repay me and my love for this hell!!!!" the beasts of ice are quickly skewn atop spears of cooled lava as he pulls beasts of Cerberus from the very sun that placed him in this tundra of misery! that consume the flesh of the spralled and skewered. as his power burst out of control he must learn to live with the demon inside him..., the demon he has become. the land of glitterfreeze is pretty much a berren hell but the occasional beast does live there. mainly used as a glactic prison in the years to come he will find it to be a valhalla in it's own making where he can fight for all eternity with the rage of athousand suns. until the day he can slay the god that made him what he was and be freed from this prison and given the crown he so deserves instead of the one of fire he now holds.
but even in victory will he truely be happy? of will the loss of his dearest love still haunt him as a all new form of hell? ..... we shall see..... when.. that day comes....
Mood: enraged and heart broken Music: Skarn, thee enraged
I trusted you to stay, to keep me by your side
you push me away you'd laugh at my suicide
I shoulda known my love for coyote would push you away
but you stabbed me in the back never thought I'd see the day
no song will sum, the pain you have caused
this blood won't stop no matter how much gause
it will spill to the streets and consume all your joy
mark my words traitor I'm not you're toy
you used me, my friendship a lie
you don't give A SHIT!!!! you'd piss on my grave if i died
all my rage will surely consume
Skarn is now real and he creeps in your room.
I was suprised at first cuz i truely believed
you were different then the others that you wouldn't JUST LEAVE!!!
but my girl comes back and you just dissapear
not that you've fucked my life you're nights you will fear!
you used to stand to my rage and still stay
but my friend you are no longer for now you choose flee
enjoy you're #1 cuz you wont have me!!!
you fucked me over, of you this is a suprise
I thought I really honestly could trust you.
I thought you were real! but now I don't exist and you couldn't be happier.
now i know why the other's left.
you spit in my eye. you were too busy fucking your toys to save a friendship
to talk to me
i warned you befor now you can suffer. >
you always said I hated you
guess you finally got your wish.....
good bye my once trusted friend.
I had no desire to leave but I shoulda realized that you did!
Mood: hatefull and enraged Music: Skarn, rain of the bloodbath!
dear coyote if you hear me through my rage (Skarn's song)
November 15, 2012, 03:03:pm
I love you. I can admit I love you more then the moon loves the stars.
through the scars and pain i see!
the pain you caused that was caused by me!
you'll never know we were meant to be
because i let you down and I let us down
down it goes my sorrow in this bottle
let it settle now let's go full throttle!
punch it to the core punch it to the core!
let my pain return to this broken, cracked bottle
of my soul.....
I tryed to save you I tried to reach my hand!
I tryed so hard but still couldn't stand!
I've grown so weak watching you fall
and to know I caused it all
I'd give all my love to bring you back to me
all my rage and set you free
I wish I was a better man but I am not
I'm weak and broken and my skin will rot
I don't diserve all you'd given to me
this rage burns hot, like lava through my veins
I don't have much time it was never a game
part of me was allready broken
and seeing you leave has left me choking
I cannot breathe with all this shame
I'm sorry for not showing you...
how much I loved you when I had the chance
not you're gone and I have to deal with that
but I will always love you never ferget
now I'll let the fire cosume me with regret
good bye my dear. I'll love you from afar
good by my love goodbye....
Mood: sad but creative Music: Skarn the Enraged - glitterfreeze bio I
dear fuck who told the love of my life I was fucking around on her
November 15, 2012, 02:20:pm
I hate you. i hate you to the extent I hope you burn in hell I loved coyote and thanks to your bullshit I lost her. she was my fucking everything!!! who ever the fuck you are i hate you. I truely full heartedly hate you!!! she was my world!!! I may have thought she was lying to me but I fucking sucked it up and did my best to be for her!!! and you're lies and bullshit took my Coyote thirst from me!!! I fucking hope you rot in hell fuck Ima go blow my fucking brains out now bye!
Mood: fucking lua maka fakaz!!!! Music: vic the butcher coheed n cambria
the owl had given all he could holding onto the thought that his coyote would be true to him, faithful to him, but she was a liar, she betrayed the owl for another and his rage filled the sky. night would fall on the coyote wherever she tredded. he loved her, he trusted her and she fled. his rage consumed him turning him from the owl to a easgle of thunder! the lightnight crashed the sky's as rain began to downpour, the ground began to flood, her tretchery would be her doom. as tears fell from his eyes lightnight whipped down smashing the coyote's paw! she would hurt the way he hurt! she would feel the pain corse through her body the same way she did to him betraying him for another! his sorrow took him. as he fled the life of the living and returned to the sky people to let her suffer for her lies
Mood: enraged and heart broken Music: coheed n cambria the suffering
purest angel flying high, may your blessed wing burn down
when i had what I had I felt like a king, now a kind without his crown
I trusted you, to be my friend, to be my slave I could love n trust.
but you betrayed me and let my rage take over what once was lust
you wanted in but took everything away from me
so why should i trust you know when I trusted you to stay you instead flee?
you broke me down to a point i thought lost, drunk and alone I guess was the cost
it froze at my heart like an arctic frost, my angel of lust you've left me lost
you may have been, just a friend, just a friend!!!
but you turned on me time and time again.
you threw my coyote at me and how I loved her
but you wanted nothing from me you forced me to smother
and the funniest part is i feel so alone
I thought I had friends, ones to call my own
but this place has become a tomb fitting for my demise
cuZ what once i saw love and friendship in now all I see is lies
you said you'd always be there in case my love ever left
yet you left before everyone and couldn't even pay the check
but the tabs on me and so is the barrel.....
burning angel may this be you're Christmas carol!
may the gunshot burn away your wings so you may fall to the earth
and feel the pain you've caused me on this earth
may your wings burn cuz i know i surely will
with this gunshot echoing who shall save me still?
no one? no one shall try?
figures when you're alone you're "friends" just leave you to die.
Mood: alone, betrayed, no suprise there Music: pandora
you strip me of who I am. you cast me out
you hear nothing even though I shout
I tried to trust you but you stabbed my back
I wanted to let you in but that was that
you were my slave, and i thought my friend who cared
both were tied yet you stripped me bare
my precious slave I needed you so
but you left me to die all alone
friends are supposed to be there for each other
but you never understood me and left me too smother
I'll survive in a manner cursed at my own accord
because you've turned on me instead of hearing my words
alone i was and alone I still stay
I asked for your hand and you laughed and walked away
I've beat myself sensless black n blue
drank away my pain cuz i thought i could trust you
maybe one day you'll see i really cared
instead of thinking I wanted more when you dared
I was fine with it all, but you thought me a liar
I wanted us to be close THAT'S what i desired
you'll never really know and that sucks truly it does
but I'm not going anywhere you are a good friend or at least you was...
if i lost you and my slave then it is what it is
it's just too bad cuz I thought you different then this...
the owls wounds were very deep and the poison corsed slowly through his veins, he was dying and he knew it. the water washed out alot of the poison but without constant care he would die. he could not ask the coyote to stay by his side after all the pain he had caused her. he asked "why did you leave me for so long?, you were gone for so long, I was without my companion, without my friend..." "i never ment to hurt you, you were my friend, and my companion, we were happy but then you vanished into the mist, and now I lay here dying, my heart wanting to give up and let me fall into a slumber to never be reawoken." as the poisong swam through his veins he began to drift off, the coyote there watching. "this was my fault for trusting a serpant not to sting, my fault you not chasing you...."
what happens next is up to you my precious coyote, i never wanted to hurt you, I just wanted you to know what had happened in your leaving me.... :
so time past on and the owl noticed the coyote playing less and less as if to say coyote had lost interest in the owl. so the owl began to get used to hunting alone, for coyote was busy hunting other prey. so one day the owl was flying and became thirsty and saw a stream and flew down to get a drink. where he saw a beautiful Serpent coiled with scales shining turquoise and the serpent asked, "I feel a flood coming and I need help getting to safe ground, will you please help me find safety?" "am I a fool? you will surly bite me" "no I shall not, for if I did I would surely drown please trust me" asked the serpent, very well, so the owl flew high with the serpent coiled around his legs, the coyote too bust to help, and as the own was high into the clouds, the serpent began to bite the owl, "why would you bite me, now we will both surly die?" "I can't help it, it's in my nature" replied the serpent. as they plumited the owl crashed into the lake below, the serpent slithered away into the depths, as the owl drifted deep into the water... would the coyote be there to save the owl she once loved so dearly?
broken heart broken dreams
scarlet tears silent screams
knife sliced heart and blood drenched sheets
all this pain history repeats
screams to the sky the question is why
and yet my heart still beats
I sit alone as i always do
knowing that you have no clue
that the final cut is oh so close
and once I'm cut there can be no close
the gash will will gush, the wound will bleed
and you'll never know what you meant to me
when it all ends and im at the gate
hell hath no fury like a shattered fate
my soul will fly on owl spread wings
while my body burns in hells lava springs
coyotes will howl and lovers will croon
as my soul departs this blackening room
I thought it was real I thought it was true
but now darkness may will and it's all thanks to you...
shadows fade and darkness flows
from a heart hurt to much and blood that just glows
I now depart and you cannot follow
sorry if this is all to hard to swallow.
ferever alone and i know this now turn
into the darkness I fall and I burn
farewell to the loved farewell to my foes
please mock not my grave for my soul still flows.
the seasons are changing and i can smell fall in the air
the slight breeze awkens my spirit.
i feel alive, stroger, more powerful, if you seek to see the truest me i this time in when you should speak. the best of me is alive and strong. come see the best of me. lay under the stars and let me blanket your sorrow. let my love be a sword to those who i care about and those who will need me.