So. It's been a long time since I've been here. Eight months or so. And I've gotta say, I don't really miss it.
I did, at first, and then I realized what I've done to myself using this site. I've met some good friends, sure, but I've made some pretty horrible mistakes too.
So let's recap the last couple years, and have it over and done with.
I dated Tara. She got pregnant a few months in, then put me through complete hell for the next solid year, until running off with her ex boyfriend five weeks after our son was born. She let me see him all of once after that, and so I took her to court, and subsequently won custody of our son in December of '12. She moved to Philadelphia the week before last and didn't stop in to say goodbye to him before leaving. She's seen him once since I won custody, for about an hour. Despite me giving her the right to visitation every weekend.
So after Tara and I split came Bree. Who I was beyond happy with, for the most part. We fought and argued, went through our shit, and maybe I was just too numb to it to realize what was going on. We split up in February and she moved back to Tucson. Finding her journal under my bed a couple weeks later and finding out she'd been cheating on me with Gage since November, for four months, hurt me in a way that still aches when I wake up every morning some two and a half months later.
So given I've passed a lot of time on this site and such over the years, the relationships I've forged here and the pain I've put myself through are reason enough not to regularly come back to it. So I'll check it from time to time, or you can find me on Facebook or something.
Mood: Terminator Music: Our Time Is Now - Story Of The Year
The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.
2012 is ending & soon my favorite numbered year begins.
Made many friends this year & kinda lost others.
Got my GED finally over with.
Built my gaming setup up quite a bit.
Went up 2 more ear gauge sizes. (Woops) XD
Got a bit healthier & a bunch of other things. So not too bad a year. lol
Got a lot of plans for 2013. Mostly becoming as awesome as I can be. Let's see what's in store for me this time. :P
Might start making videos & music, so keep an eye out for that.
And I want to thank all you guys (And girls of course). Without all of you I would have gone insane long ago. Without you all keeping my spirits up, I don't think I'd still be able to keep going. Thank you all. ^^
And I hope you all have awesome years.
I really fucking hate stupid bitches that talk up a storm and act like they are mad interested in you, only to for NO reason whatsoever randomly just want you completely out of their life. This world is full of scumbags, and as much as I am well aware that guys can be dicks, I'm beginning to have a resurgence of my old opinion of women. Nothing but scheming, lying, fuckbags waiting to just clinch onto a lie that they have convinced themselves is true to just funnel more hate and validate their own existence.
It's been a while since I've made one of these. Mine as well keep you guys up to date. I went to the flea market yesterday. Met 2 awesome people. One owned a photography shop. Not the greatest but he has some good deals on used lenses. I'm probably going to take up his offer soon on a 50mm f/1.8 Nikon AI-S lens for my EM. I enjoy that little camera so much. I'm also planning to make a home lab so I can process black and whites and scan them without needed to pay another company who can't even do it right. The second guy, we talked about everything and anything for almost 2 hours. He was a really cool dude. I was glad I met him.
So, anyone i still talk to on the interwebs on here. I'm probably gonna disapear from the interwebs for a few day. If you were a video game fan and currently own Sleeping Dogs. You'd understand. I must beat this game! I'm thinking lack of sleep, and playing as till i'm so tired I can't see straight... I could beat this game in a week. If you text me, and I don't reply. Sorry, but I will try to keep up with the interwebs and my phone... no promises though. Phones been going off for the past hour and i've yet to check it.