My hatred has shifted target from myself, to all the wankers at Optus who have, once again, fucked me from behind.I was overcharged on my last bill by about $44. They couldn't refund the money, but instead said they would use it toward the next bill.The next will was $148, instead of $42. And, instead of using that $44 overcharge like they said they would, they took the whole $148 from my account.I don't call people enough to use my credit. I barely text. And the only thing I use that uses data is my facebook app, which is UN-METERED according to the fucking contract I signed.
If you haven't read my FB inbox yet, do. But when you call tomorrow tell them they either refund it immediately or you go to the TIO (who actually charge them money and make them fix their error, so it's in their best interests it doesn't get to that point)
Pudding face it's okay. Please don't feel shitty about leaving me there. I had a great time, you got to do your thing in an environment you are comfortable in, and sleep in a nice warm bed. There is no reason to feel bad. Smile, I love you. x
I arrived at Kayla's looking mighty fine (seriously...I had the girls out a bit, I was wearing my boots, and I actually spent an hour and a half getting ready which I NEVER take that much time).
So with my pristine and amazing makeup and bitchin' outfit I got there a little after 7 when we had reservations at 8:15.
As soon as I walk up the three flights on stairs in my 4 inch wedge heels in 85+ degree weather, I am met with a drunk Kayla.
She decided to day drink as soon as she got off work because she had a bad day.
So I'd have to drive her 2013 Dodge Dart to Savannah, GA because she can't and my 2013 Chevy Sonic didn't have enough gas (and I didn't have any money on me to fill the tank).
What happens next?
She couldn't find her keys for 30 minutes.
Where were they?
Sitting on her bedroom floor.
Once we found them, it was nearly 8 and it takes about an hour to get there so we rescheduled and got McDonalds instead.
Tonight at 5 we are going, as soon as they open, and this time she won't be drunk...I hope.
I was a little angry.
I just had some random 17yo chick add me. Never talked to her before. I looked at her profile. "I'm a yellow belt in taekwondo, don't mess with me. I know how to defend myself. I'll destroy you".
HAHAH!!! Oh man.. That poor, blind, stupid girl. Yellow belt is the first fucking belt you actually obtain. You're given the bloody white belt just for participating. Sorry hunny, you don't know shit, and thinking you do will hurt your fighting skills.
*sigh* some people...
I was purple belt in Karate, but you don't hear me bragging. That's because it all means shit if you don't have a fighter's instinct.And really, people who have just started learning tend to over think their technique instead of just doing what comes naturally.In fact, it's half the reason I stopped martial arts training. After getting in a few legit fights, I realised that karate didn't help at all. Muay Thai did, to an extent. But the thing that saved me the most was my determination to not get knocked the fuck out.
Zakk only got 2 hours of sleep last night and they put him on staff duty without giving him any notice.
I swear, I'm never letting him stay up late again because that's when it seems to happen.
So I can't sleep right now because I miss him too much and hardly got to see him today.
I half figured cuddling with Dahmer would help, but it's not the same.
Kitty paws and my husband's warm embrace are two vastly different things...who would have thought?
On a brighter note:
Tomorrow night Kayla is taking me out to The Melting Pot in Savannah.
I'm totally stoked! I've only been once and that was about 7 years ago.
And that's exactly what I did last night at Kayla and Cody's.
I got drunk quickly to catch up to Kayla but then I got too drunk.
And my husband drove us home probably when he shouldn't have been driving.
Silly MP should no better, but I wanted to go home.
After consuming quite a bit of wine and then half a bottle of vodka, I wanted to be home.
I woke up around 4am with a horrible headache and got the spins while I tried going back to sleep.
It was a good night though.
Kayla and I are hopefully going to The Melting Pot on Wednesday when she gets off work.
I really will miss her when we leave.
Yesterday Zakk and I went to the beach.
I saw the Atlantic Ocean for the very first time.
We spent most of the time standing waist deep in the warm water, drinking ice cold beer, and kissing.
I can officially say I've been in both the Pacific and Atlantic Ocean.
I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day.
After we got back and showered, we went and saw the new The Great Gatsby movie.
He'd never read the book so he didn't know what was going to happen and he enjoyed the movie.
I absolutely loved it, it's one of my favorite books.
I was SUPER insistent on playing this game last night.
In case you don't know it's where you take a shot of beer every minute for one hour.
I was begging Zakk to play it since we were bored.
He tried telling me how he's played it and how it's a horrible idea.
I didn't listen.
So 20 minutes (20 shots) and 6 beers later I'm throwing in the towel and declaring the game is "horse shit" because I feel so full that my stomach is going to explode.
And then 30 minutes later after we'd stopped I was pretty drunk.
I'd started writing out this big entry about how much I've been hating myself lately. About how I've been sabotaging my own relationships with friends and prospective partners. But I really just don't have the energy for it.
I don't fucking know what's wrong with me lately. I don't want to do a damn thing. I've been so bored but don't want to go out and have fun. I miss my friends but after having them all cancel plans with me so many times, I've stopped asking to see them.
I've been sick for over a week now. Maybe that's got something to do with it. This fucking cold.. It came right when I quit smoking, so I've got this fucking terrible cough, too.
Ugh.
I've got so much to rant about but I don't even want to start, because I know I'll never finish. And to be honest, I don't know where to start. There's problems with Hannah, with Lexi, shit, I've got problems with just about everybody these days.
I miss Stef. I never had problems with her.
Mood: Le tired Music: Pulse of the Maggots - Slipknot
Once in a while do we all need to ask ourself if we really need to run after everyone and if we really wanna be hurt over there mistakes or missing out on seeing us. I know the feeling you have because of my staying in swiss for 2 years here soon.. But i have learned that we all need to just relax and see what comes to us. Plus real friends does not disappear, but might need some time to see others as well.. We all just have to let time pass and let people have a chance to miss us again..
Then after that can we tell them how disappointed we are over the way they maybe have been and you just wanted them to be honest and say that they need a tiny break of seeing you. Might not be nice to hear but in the other hand do we all need a break from different friends once in a while to see others.. With the missing people or feeling sad..Remember that you are still surrounded by other lovely beings and there is always someone who might wanna listen to you <3i send a lot of love and hope for you to see that its okay to have a period in time with a bit sadness as long as you also can see some light or else create some light <3 kisses
Oh bby!
