i deserved that. the pain. the utter heartbreak. i deserve that. im sorry scott. im sorry. but no matter how many times i say sorry, it will never be enough. so i guess we are both even. or close to be even.
i dont know what else to say anymore.. i dont know how im gunna bear it. i just wanna isolate myself from everyone. block everyone out. build up my wall.
i deserve this, i deserve it all. i can never forgive myself for what i did to you in the past.
Mood: do i even have to fill in? Music: knife vs face round 1
Does anyone have any idea what the hell tiny vamp. com is? OTHER then a tiny chat. I got that part. No idea what it is. I keep getting ANNOYING random inbox messages from random ANNOYING people and yet when I asked them they never told me.
So Anyone? anywhere? know at all what it is?
(Also how do I block people? cause I'm wanting to block the annoying people who are sending me these annoying random inbox's.) -.-
you said you wouldn't choose between us. and you lied. you may not know it. but you chose her. subconsciously though, you chose her. i trusted you. but now i cant. i just cant. you ruined my birthday, i wanted to kick everyone else out of the house. just so i can sit in my bed and cry.
you said it was either both of us, or neither. never never never, you said you would never choose between us. NEVER, and yet you did. you so fucking did. i hope you read this. i hope you know. i hope you know exactly why i put up a wall between us. between me and reality. IS TO KEEP PEOPLE LIKE YOU OUT.
i have no use for this shit. i cant take much more of it. its making me depressed. i really need advice.. :l please..
At the high school I went to from grade nine to twelve, every break we had I also went out for a smoke with my friends. While we were out there we always noticed that every break there was this lady who walked on the sidewalk that all the smokers stood on. In her hand she had a little cross on a chain and it swung back and forth and she'd always be muttering under her breath.
Now my school was well known for everyone having some form of drugs and or booze. (We are all pretty sure more then half the teachers were either high or drunk). And I think more then half of the female population in the school was pregnant and cops were called like five times a week. Now, right beside our school was a church that was always closed but the owner or whoever of that church always gave us cookies on Monday (I think). For the first two years every pot head smoked weed and popped pilled right on the church grounds.. right beside the school. The only reason the school found out was because the owner of the church complained about it one time. The school wasn't a good school though it was awesome at the same time because it was easy to get away with everything. There was fights, lots and lots of bullshit drama and so on.
And yet, here is this lady, holding a cross and praying as she walked around the school every break, every day. What was she praying for? I'd like to think that maybe she was praying for us all to get help but in the back of my mind I really think she was just praying for the school and all the kids to blow up. Hmmm...
I hate itunes. Its the worst fucking thing ever and I swear when I rule the world its going to be the first thing destroyed. All its stupid updates and making things more complicated and it taking all my songs off my ipod.. fuck you itunes.
I'm not having a good day anymore...
Does ANYONE know of a program I can have that will let me put songs on my ipod that I can get in Canada without it being stupid fucked up itunes?
Mood: Fucking pissed. Music: Dr. Horrible - Brand new day.