I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not the 'perfect' daughter you always wanted. I'm sorry I'm not smart. I'm sorry I'm so much trouble. I'm sorry I mutilated myself. I'm sorry I hate living. I'm sorry I'm selfish. I'm sorry I never talk. I'm sorry I'm so shy. I'm sorry that no matter how hard I try I fail. I'm sorry I don't have the guts to actually say this to you....
So Im writing this here cause its the only place he wont see it .
you know how fb people from your past find you , well one my besties and this boy i was with physically , he helped me thru alot ,taught me alot, even saved me once.
pops back in my life 2 weeks ago we both have someone in our lifes but lately we been talking alot and remembering both agreed we wish things were different both admitting to still after all this time still feeling for each other and i mean we knew each other for ever since i was 17 now im 30 lol yes 30. hes 30 as well. we basically grew u together . , my x told me that i love that boy that i been looking for him yrs , and i should be hapy that he found me on his own . and im afraid he might be right. but i cant say anything about it cause like i said we both have someone . an things aren't different no matter how much wed like them to me , kinda sad really ... im not the "emo" type so it is what it is .. im js. im hay he found me tho regardless.
fml shit always has to happened right? first 5 minutes in class and im suspended FML .. <..< >..> -.-' idk what to do anymore im grounded from fb, from skype, my phone is tooken away, and i cant go outside or nothin.. gaaah!! whyyyy!! :ooo
When im sad i either write a song or poem.. its a lot better than cutting or anything i swear and i feel a million times better when im finished the song.. I learnt to Ignore the haters and to put aside hurtful words and to not care because they dont know anything about me im happy who i am and im happy with not socializing with people i dislike
Prop this and I'll send you the answers in a messages n.n
If I Saw You Naked ?
 Woah (;
 Ewww D:
 Walk Out The Room Slowly ;o
 Bite My Lip ^.^
If We Took A Pic Together It Would Be ?
 Hugging Each Other
 Just Chilling
 Holding Hands
 Kissing ;D
 Acting like complete idiots. ^_^
 Normal Picture.
 Holding You From The Back (:
You Are ?
 Cute (;
 A super-duper cutieeeee. :'3
 Adorable (:
 Eh..you're okie.. :I
You + Me + Room = ?
 Watch Movies
 Kiss ;3
 Play Games
 Troloololololol. You wish. :'3
 Get.In.My.Bed. ;DD
You Should ?
 Hit Me Up (:
 Be Mine
 Talk to moi moreeeeee. D;
 Make This As Your Status So I Can Like It ^-^
 Text me
If we got married?
 I'd Divorce You -__-
 Make Kids (;
 Take Your Money & Bounce (:
 I Would Cheat On You
 Be Faithful
 Run Away
 Take care of you and do everything for you
 Stay and never let you go
 We wouldn't get married awwk O.o
I'm sorry guys I just couldn't do it... I'm going thru it all over again and I just can't handle it this time. I won't be getting on here anymore.... This is the last thing anyone will hear from me... To the friends I've made on here, I'm so sorry. You were great friends to me and I appreciate everything you did for me. To those who never talked to me: fuck you. I'm sorry for putting a lot of you down with my misery and what not... That isn't normally how I am... I'm just not me anymore. I've lost so many of my real "friends" because of being like this... And to those I've let down I really am so sorry... Well I don't really have anything else to say... So... Goodbye. I hope you all have a wonderful life. <3
So apparently im only allowed to go to one concert a year..WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? I mean god damn. Heres my moms logic.
Mom: i dont want you going to warped its full of drugs! And the ATL concert is on a school night.
Me: so is my school but you still let me go there!
Mom: well who'd take you? Me?
Me: noo i can most definitely get a ride to either concert..
Me: -lists over 20 people-
Mom:...well you already asked me to go to 2 last year!
Me: uhm no..last year i went to FIR but in 2011 i went to a BVB concert.
Mom: well youre only allowed to see one so its either warped tour or the other one.
Mom: cuz youre already becoming a stupid concert junkie!
Me: thank you mom..
Mood: PISSED BEYOND BELIEF Music: King For A Day by Pierce The Veil