Though we're unhappy together, miserable apart,
and they say love is blind,
we must of met in the dark,
cause I loved you from the start,
and even though my brain kept saying no
and i still follow my heart.
there is nothing that I regret,
it really makes me upset that we couldn't just make it work
and i know it's for all for the best
but there's still a spot in my chest
weakening with every breath
with thought of you moving on when I thought we could re-connect.
cause when I think of the past and everything that we had,
i don't know how it got to the point of being this bad
and then there was times that we were mad
and I mean every couple would clash
but the way that we did is just something I couldn't grasp
or was it cause we were too alike?
constantly in the fight?
and no matter who was wrong,
we would try to prove who was right.
looking from the outside it was such a beautiful sight
but me and you will never be,
i still think of it every night.
No matter how much time has past,
I still got love for you that won't pass.
no matter how much we both want to,
you're so bad for me, I'm so bad for you.
Used to think we were invincible,
breaking up's the unthinkable
we would hit the sheets and all of our problems became invisible,
i don't get why i'm missing you...
Its almost like as long as its with you i'd be happier being miserable
All I know this pain is the only thing that remains.
and no matter how much I changes,
it still could never be the same,
it's kinda hard to explain,
why I'm feeling so strange,
cause with or without you i find a way to complain.
it's a shame it's jealous love,
I'm an addict and you're a drug,
and im acting like it ain't tough
but i've had it i'm going nuts,
and all i think of is us,
and everything that we've been through ain't no way that we could trust,
was it passion or was it lust?
that had us thinking that it was something that we needed
when neither just wasn't enough
My friend told me I need to loosen up, told me I should obviously definitely 100% be friends with every single person who wants to be friends with me, and told me I need to stop taking things so seriously. im not that fun loving girl i use to be with that drink in my hand acting like it dont matter. well so this girls taken.
I think this girl just jumbled a bunch of words together and tried to sounds intelligent or like they knew me or knew what they were talking about but it just sounded really stupid. they dont know half the stuff that goes on in my head.
my life, my story, my jerk of a friend, its all about my fucking life..
I never expected 4th of July weekend to be so life-altering. I went to a festival, and met some of the best people I probably will ever meet in my life. That being said, I look forward to branching out and hopefully one day having an influence on others like these people have on me. I am so fucking grateful for my life and the souls in it.
I got a call yesterday about a job I applied for around 2 months ago. Today was my first day. This is the only company I truly wanted to work for, and I finally made it.
I got a parking ticket today, and I'm not even mad.
I heard about that festival, but no-one would give details about where exactly such was being held or how to get there, so I watched fireworks at memorial and hung out talking with friends from church till 2 in the morning. I'm glad you had fun, also congratulations on getting the job. Take care, ttyl.
Life is all about the progress,
learning through the process,
only the insecure will always make it on the contest.
but nothing's guaranteed expect the time that comes from all death,
so I ain't heartless, I just learnt to use my heart less.
and wait, I've been here before, the dark road without light
where all my energy pours.
just like my haters,
I'm trying to put an end to these flaws.
but reminiscing about my past has got my memory torn.
and though I'm stronger by the wake now,
I'm trying not to break down
I've grown so fucking much ain't looking back, I'm looking straight down.
I've let a door slide treated life like it's a play ground
and now everything I was, is everything I would hate now.
And see? I've taken a stance
and with the power of God the devil don't wanna dance.
this is a cut throat world, keep an eye on your family
but even your brother won't dessert you even if you gave them a chance.
and that would fuck up your plans
I mean so fucked up you can't think straight
cause you woulda gave that motherfucker your hand
I try to act like it don't bother me as much as I can
but it does,
I try the best not to bug,
you may as well slice my throat and let it poor with blood.
you may as well take my shotty and full my body with slugs,
cause that's EXACTLY how it feels to be hurt by anybody I love.