If I ever push you away, I don't really mean to. i am so afraid of saying the wrong thing i say nothing at all. When I tell you I don't want to talk about it, I do. I am just looking for the right words. Give me a minute, and if I can tell you, I will. I try to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time. i am so afraid to show people the real me. i show them who they want me to be instead. When I get really quiet, it is because I have too much to say. I have thought of too many things to tell you all at once, and I don't know what to say first. I get immaturely jealous of anyone who gets to see you on a daily basis. I miss you really easily, but I also like that we can be apart and we are both okay. Space is good. I love the way we love some of the same things, and I love how we love entirely different things. My head is a complicated pile of thoughts, and fears, and cravings, and dreams, and this tangled of nostalgia for the past, and somehow, the future. I am flawed and I am human and I am broken and I am trying. And I am one person and I am two hands and one heart. And I love you. I am so glad you're here. And i am so glad i can call you mine. You are truly my other half forever and always!<3
My friend told me I need to loosen up, told me I should obviously definitely 100% be friends with every single person who wants to be friends with me, and told me I need to stop taking things so seriously. im not that fun loving girl i use to be with that drink in my hand acting like it dont matter. well so this girls taken.
I think this girl just jumbled a bunch of words together and tried to sounds intelligent or like they knew me or knew what they were talking about but it just sounded really stupid. they dont know half the stuff that goes on in my head.
my life, my story, my jerk of a friend, its all about my fucking life..
I never expected 4th of July weekend to be so life-altering. I went to a festival, and met some of the best people I probably will ever meet in my life. That being said, I look forward to branching out and hopefully one day having an influence on others like these people have on me. I am so fucking grateful for my life and the souls in it.
I got a call yesterday about a job I applied for around 2 months ago. Today was my first day. This is the only company I truly wanted to work for, and I finally made it.
I got a parking ticket today, and I'm not even mad.
I heard about that festival, but no-one would give details about where exactly such was being held or how to get there, so I watched fireworks at memorial and hung out talking with friends from church till 2 in the morning. I'm glad you had fun, also congratulations on getting the job. Take care, ttyl.