Holy shit these last couple of days have been tiring!
Myself, Jet, shadownightz, vasa_pixie and a couple of other vf minions have been working our asses off at comic con, and we have had an amazing time. For my first ever comic con, I can definitely say I wont forget it, ever.
Cybertron last night was fucking intense. If you didn't come out, you missed the mother of all parties. The collaboration between NYC ravers and Vampirefreaks worked perfectly! Even though I was sick, I stioll managed to stay all night and commandeer the stage most of the night, mwahaha!
I wanted to take the time to personally say thank you to the staff that made everything possible. ShadowNightz did an incredible job, as did AnabellEvil with setting up and getting everything organised. Personally, I honestly do not know how they did it.
Thank you to the vf minions, including Vasa_Pixie, who worked the booth and also lost their voices shouting and running around getting everyone into our booth at comic con, and then partying it up last night. I kid you not, I have NO voice left what so ever.
And of course, Jet. He kicked ass at cybertron, and kept me fucking sane whilst working Comic Con, whilst managing to make sure everyone was ok. He even went out of his way to get us all snacks (including meat!!!!) and lunch everyday, and managed to get up at stupid O clock to set up each day. To top it off, he bought me the cutest tentacle kitty toy ever, just to cheer me up, because I was ill. I honestly couldn't be fucking prouder to be a part of his life. I love you, darling
I will be posting pictures from last night later on, and finally getting around to answering my messages etc. It's good to be back vf! =)
Comic con and Cybertron aftermath:
October 12, 2014, 03:56:pm
I owe those two a lot. JC more because I talk to him more, but he made the account transition easier on me. When I switched I was heartbroken because I thought I lost my VFIU staff chances. And I love chatting with him.
Today I got the news that I was officially hired full-time. A promotion, raise, and full benefits!
I think I feel like doing some celebrating, but I also can't help but feel nervous. Last night I started having the math dreams again...which I usually get when I have math worries about solving problems. I guess I'm just worried I'm in over head so many math subjects at once, and I feel with my "reputation" people are going to have high expectations of me. I'm probably worrying more than I should there will be books and notes but still, I don't want to not be able to help someone because I didn't know how to.
Anyway, I'm also very excited and can't wait to begin. It will also help me learn all my college maths better as I help other college students learn. I really want to absorb as much as I can about math relationships and hope it will come in handy for any science applications in my future.
I see I never would have survived it, even in a dream Problems are way much harder to figure out in a dream. It seems like we're always solving, chasing or running away from them while being held down e.e
I've offically been a VF model for over a year. :3 :3
Last year I got accepted right before my birthday (which is today).
Honestly... I really didn't expect to have the experience I've had as one of the models.
I actually wanted to be one of the Vampirefreak models several years ago. Back when I was first trying out modeling I noticed the VampireFreaks models but I actually never got any response when I tried to apply.
Of course, to an extent I did feel one of my first rejections with modeling and that would be FARRRRRRR from the last... (keep in mind too this was years ago, and my experience and portolio were limited and I'm pretty sure the VF models was managed by a completely different person as well).
Regardless I kept modeling because it was simply something I wanted to do and wanted to put my effort into. I modeled for years and eventually I came to a point where I really began to push myself to get very serious about it. It's difficult for me to describe what modeling is to me... it's not really a hobby and it's not quite an actual career for me but it is very much a major part of my life that I live and breathe.
Anyway, last year in one of the model groups I was part of, someone had posted a link about Vampirefreaks seeking new models... and I saw the link and thought, Sure, I'll give it another try... I already had an account and had been using the site since I was 16 or so. But truthfully, with my last encounter of being ignored I assumed it would probably be the same case so I didn't take it too seriously.
But, it was different this time, I got accepted... and since that day I've gotten to know so many new people from interacting with the other models (and also the other members on the site in general).
I've seen new models join and former models leave... and I've seen some models whom have been actively participating since the first day I joined.
Although my current connection to the VF models is very postive I initially had my reservations.
Most model groups I've been part of are generally exploitative and I rarely get along with the members as they typically just ignore me or it's filled with 16 year old girl aspiring models who spend more time taking selfies and bitching about their home life than modeling.
Furthermore I had been really let down by the model agency I had joined that year.
And, most of all... I really don't have too many pleasant experiences with other models locally. Although I have even gone out of my way to assist some models, most have proven to be extremely self-serving and for whatever the hell reason the photographers (most) here don't mind working with their stupid asses and typically snub me.
So, yes I admit I've become a bit jaded being around other models... males or females most generally have a selfish cut-throat attitude that I want nothing to do with.
The first photos I ever shared for VF was an androgynous fashion shoot. And I was shocked to see how accepting and nice the other models were toward me. When I saw that, it was pretty much when I decided I wanted to be a serious member because I realized the models really were a diverse selection of individuals that I felt I could be part of. I had just become so accustomed to be a type of outcast even in "alternative" communities or groups that I never expected many of them to be so accepting.
I won't pretend that I know each and every model for VF (I don't) and there even might be a few whom I don't see eye to eye with or a couple may even not care for me XD but... all of that is pretty minor.
I actually have really enjoyed learning more about my fellow models and seeing many of them continuously working and doing photoshoots encourages me to always try.
And most importantly I have actually gained a few wonderful friends that I mostly likely would have never made or become as close to had I never joined with Vampirefreaks. I'm very grateful for that and I just hope I can make my experience(s) with VF in the future as valuable as it has been for me so far.