As I whispered into her ear my love for her my insides wanted to screem it to her instead.she giggled and her bright chunk cheeks turned red. She wasn't a big girl but average. Average height. Average everything but the one thing that dew me to her was the way she smiled and the way she looked at me with her bright hazel/blue eyes.
The way her long hair flowed compared to my short nub of what people called hair was different. She didn't care what other people ad thought of her.
She was nice, cheerful, and to me she was just perfect.
No there was nothing no no one that/who could compare to my darling. My sweet, sweet Jezabelle.
So, tomorrow I'm gonna see Mickey. It's kind of like I'm meeing him for the first time in a way. I have met him before at my last job, but I sold him a sandwich and said bye. When I talked to him on here, completely on accident, I realized "oh wait, he's the guy from burger king". So now he's obviously more than just "the dude I sold a sandwich to". I'm really excited but nervous, I mean, the situation is bizarre but.. I don't think it was just a coincidence. Maybe not fate but hm... Who knows xD. I can't even sleep because of how happy I am. I don't know what to wear or do or say. But at the same time I feel like I need to just go with the flow. No idea. I just hope that he likes me since I ramble a lot when I'm nervous. Oh well. Goodnight everybody, I'm gonna try to sleep xD
Mood: So nervous Music: When in rome - the promise
Check out this reaction of a friend, who recently visited my hometown.
April 17, 2014, 02:45:am
I would like to share something that I saw someone write about my hometown in a facebook post. I thought it was really cool and even though the person that wrote it is a nature person (like me) the person still appreciated why this is one of the greatest cities in the world. Here it is--
"On the Subway in New York. This place is a trip! A COMPLETELY different dimension than what I am used to traveling in. The land is different, the people feel different, the light shines differently, time runs differently and the memes holding unconsciously obeyed codes of the culture here are completely different. This is my first time using public transport and not zooming myself around everywhere and I am asking for lots of directions as I go. I am finding New Yorkers of all different backgrounds and races to be kind, friendly, and very helpful. As someone who is used to having lots of space for my aura to stretch out in (hello nature with barely anyone else around,) this kindness is a balm to my squeezed spirit."
SINGLE or NOT, put this as your journal & see how many colors you get(Don't be afraid!)
BLUE- I like you a lot.
ORANGE- I wanna kiss you.
WHITE- I wanna be with you.
PINK- Inbox me sometime, we need to get to know each other.
RED- Can i get those digits?
PURPLE- I love you.
BLACK- I want you, but I can't have you.
GREEN- I'm sorry for leaving you.
BROWN- You're really cute.
YELLOW - Get in my bed!
Ive realized that i jump into relationship way to quickly because i feel head over heels inlove with one guy who also returned the feeling. He asked me out on his birthday and even though we only dated for four months they were the best four months in my life. Ever since then ive been jumping into relationships im not ready for in hopes of feeling loved and importance thst alex made me feel and usually i just end up really hurtjng the other person which hurts ne because it is never my intention to hurt anyone.
Recently I revisited Portal 2 and the story you're about to read unfortunately happened....
March 13th, 2014
"I found Portal 2 at Walmart for like five bucks, so...I'm gonna get lost for a bit, maybe a couple of hours"
"Alright, don't be up too long..."
Four hours later...
I laid down, a smile still on my face, as I thought to myself "I'm fucking brilliant!" After having completed some pretty complex puzzles in Portal, and downing lemonade for four hours like my life depended on it, I was feeling good....good and sleepy. As I lay there slowly drifting away, the urge to piss hit me like a bus. "Do I get up, walk to the bathroom, stand there like a new born calf legs trembling, blinking against the light as I tried to piss in the toilet and not hit anything else and risk pissing off everyone in the house?...or...I could simply roll onto my side, shoot a portal onto the ceiling in the bathroom, and then one on the wall next to me, I could just roll over and piss from the comfort of my bed and still be able to sleep soundly afterwards....FUCK! I can't shoot portals..."
I wake up the next morning, and realize that I, in my ever present lazy ass mentality, over slept....and thus I'm gonna be late. Now I can either make coffee, and be ten minutes late, or I can get dressed and haul ass to work. A third option, I can shoot a portal onto the fridge, then wait until I get to work, clock in, then fire a second portal onto the break room wall, walk in and grab a cup of coffee and save myself precious minutes and not piss off my manager.....God damn it, portals don't fucking exist....shit.
Needless to say, I made coffee....er well my piss poor excuse for coffee, that being coffee grounds floating in water, and I'm now stuck on the highway, behind some dick head driving way below the speed limit...in the fast lane. "Dude the speed limit is 60, not 50....Go FASTER YOU FUCK WIT!! *sigh* fuck this!" I pull into the next lane and lo and behold....a semi going about the same speed, and the lane beside him? Another fucking semi...great.
But, maybe I can just fire a portal onto the back of the semi, then another onto a billboard up ahead, ramp into the one in front of me and land on the other side.....or I could wait for some of that orange speed gel to show up and use that to accelerate the car ahead of me....but that would still leave the portals unused....and I'm supposed to use everything in my arsenal to get through this. Sadly, no speed gel, so maybe my first hypothesis is correct....could that be the solution? No, It's much too dangerous, but then again the robotic voice is always trying to kill me, maaaaaaAAAAW SHIT! YOURCAN'TFUCKINGSHOOTPORTALSGODFUCKINGDAMNIT!!! "MOVE YOUR FUCKING ASS YOU TESTICLE LOBED FUCK NUGGET! FUCKING CHRIST! THIS COFFEE TASTE LIKE A FUCKING WAR CRIME! GAAAAH! "
I'm fucking late, wonderful, and my manager is being an ass. A wonderful ass in his usual passive aggressive way "heeeey Zax, just letting you know you missed the department meeting and safety overview, but no worries, as long as you turn in your insurance form and the other few bits HR has asked for it'll all be okay..." At this I stare at him like an idiot, but then an idea forms and I open my idiotic fucking mouth "Shit! I forgot the forms at home, but I think I left the portal open on my fridge and I can just open the second to jump home, grab the papers and be back here in no less than a second...it'll be easy!" My manager is just staring at me at this point. "Uuuuuh, what?" *blink blink* "Sorry sir, I meant I'll run over at lunch and grab the forms....my brain isn't functioning properly" "It's obvious...."
I left the joy of his presence and finally get to my department, which, thankfully, is devoid of all human life. I drop my head into my hands, and let the burning of my eyeballs slowly try to fade away, then I hear footsteps approaching, and I look up to see one of the new hires walking up. He's carrying a few boxes full of God knows what, I smile and give a half hearted wave. He nods and is just about to set the boxes down, when he suddenly throws them all over the counter. I proceed to stare in awe and wonderment of his idiotic actions.
"What the unholy fuck man?" Sheepishly and hilariously he replies "If I placed them there, I would have lost all my progress and I'd have to start over on the ground floor....I want to have an epic score when I decide to clear everything out at once...." He stare and drops his eyes embarrassed about what just happened. "Marty, what the shit?" He looks up and says "I just got Tetris on my phone....."
I never realized how much actually goes into planning on college education. There's the dorms, meal plans, registering for classes, moving into dorms, making sure all of your files are in, making sure all forms are filled out. It's crazy, but exciting.
Mood: Stressed. Crazy. Music: Pop Hits on Music Choice.