I've offically been a VF model for over a year. :3 :3
Last year I got accepted right before my birthday (which is today).
Honestly... I really didn't expect to have the experience I've had as one of the models.
I actually wanted to be one of the Vampirefreak models several years ago. Back when I was first trying out modeling I noticed the VampireFreaks models but I actually never got any response when I tried to apply.
Of course, to an extent I did feel one of my first rejections with modeling and that would be FARRRRRRR from the last... (keep in mind too this was years ago, and my experience and portolio were limited and I'm pretty sure the VF models was managed by a completely different person as well).
Regardless I kept modeling because it was simply something I wanted to do and wanted to put my effort into. I modeled for years and eventually I came to a point where I really began to push myself to get very serious about it. It's difficult for me to describe what modeling is to me... it's not really a hobby and it's not quite an actual career for me but it is very much a major part of my life that I live and breathe.
Anyway, last year in one of the model groups I was part of, someone had posted a link about Vampirefreaks seeking new models... and I saw the link and thought, Sure, I'll give it another try... I already had an account and had been using the site since I was 16 or so. But truthfully, with my last encounter of being ignored I assumed it would probably be the same case so I didn't take it too seriously.
But, it was different this time, I got accepted... and since that day I've gotten to know so many new people from interacting with the other models (and also the other members on the site in general).
I've seen new models join and former models leave... and I've seen some models whom have been actively participating since the first day I joined.
Although my current connection to the VF models is very postive I initially had my reservations.
Most model groups I've been part of are generally exploitative and I rarely get along with the members as they typically just ignore me or it's filled with 16 year old girl aspiring models who spend more time taking selfies and bitching about their home life than modeling.
Furthermore I had been really let down by the model agency I had joined that year.
And, most of all... I really don't have too many pleasant experiences with other models locally. Although I have even gone out of my way to assist some models, most have proven to be extremely self-serving and for whatever the hell reason the photographers (most) here don't mind working with their stupid asses and typically snub me.
So, yes I admit I've become a bit jaded being around other models... males or females most generally have a selfish cut-throat attitude that I want nothing to do with.
The first photos I ever shared for VF was an androgynous fashion shoot. And I was shocked to see how accepting and nice the other models were toward me. When I saw that, it was pretty much when I decided I wanted to be a serious member because I realized the models really were a diverse selection of individuals that I felt I could be part of. I had just become so accustomed to be a type of outcast even in "alternative" communities or groups that I never expected many of them to be so accepting.
I won't pretend that I know each and every model for VF (I don't) and there even might be a few whom I don't see eye to eye with or a couple may even not care for me XD but... all of that is pretty minor.
I actually have really enjoyed learning more about my fellow models and seeing many of them continuously working and doing photoshoots encourages me to always try.
And most importantly I have actually gained a few wonderful friends that I mostly likely would have never made or become as close to had I never joined with Vampirefreaks. I'm very grateful for that and I just hope I can make my experience(s) with VF in the future as valuable as it has been for me so far.
Finally have the family I've always dreamed about...
October 20, 2014, 10:34:pm
So as you all know on 10/11/14 I got engaged to the love of my life, Joshua. We've had so many firsts together. Even being married before, I have never had the love and family I have always wanted, and my kids have not had the father figure they have needed. I am proud to say that I am going to be this man's wife. He is my partner in everything I do, including my modeling. He has helped make my dreams come true, and has been a godsend to my children. I can't thank him enough for everything he has given me.
Tomorrow is Josh's ( rawrfishy ) 24th birthday, so HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Finally have the family I've always dreamed about...
October 22, 2014, 12:32:am
I was looking around at journals and saw yours I had to respond. Congress to you, and your family. Looks like a lovely couple should feel proud. I hope someday I will find my soulmate in do time as I always say. Good luck to you hun. :]
And you backstab your real friends because you need to look cool?
People that you most likely will never ever meet are your priority rather then your friends that you see in real life.
You've become everything you used to see as distasteful.
Anyone who knew you, no longer trusts you..
You're a s#^* talker now
People you used to constantly talk crap about are now like your best friends.
Haha sadly hilarious to me.
If you read this and get offended (which you shouldn't) then maybe you need to look at yourself.
(By the way this is in no way targeted to anyone who is internet popular or internet famous.)