A white man and an elderly Native man became pretty good friends, so the white guy decided to ask him: “What do you think about Indian mascots?” The Native elder responded, “Here’s what you've got to understand. When you look at black people, you see ghosts of all the slavery and the rapes and the hangings and the chains. When you look at Jews, you see ghosts of all those bodies piled up in death camps. And those ghosts keep you trying to do the right thing. “But when you look at us you don’t see the ghosts of the little babies with their heads smashed in by rifle butts at the Big Hole, or the old folks dying by the side of the trail on the way to Oklahoma while their families cried and tried to make them comfortable, or the dead mothers at Wounded Knee or the little kids at Sand Creek who were shot for target practice. You don’t see any ghosts at all. “Instead you see casinos and drunks and junk cars and shacks. “Well, we see those ghosts. And they make our hearts sad and they hurt our little children. And when we try to say something, you tell us, ‘Get over it. This is America. Look at the American dream.’ But as long as you’re calling us Redskins and doing tomahawk chops, we can’t look at the American dream, because those things remind us that we are not real human beings to you. And when people aren't humans, you can turn them into slaves or kill six million of them or shoot them down with Hotchkiss guns and throw them into mass graves at Wounded Knee. “No, we’re not looking at the American dream. And why should we? We still haven’t woken up from the American nightmare.
Most of us prefer Native American by the way. Indians would be people from India.It isn't our fault some guy sailed over here and thought he was in India and started calling us Indians. Indigenous works as well.
So! I'll be getting published!
The weird thing is that I don't know in which magazine yet
The photographer is taking care of everything and she can't share all that much yet, hahaha.
Anyway, I am pretty excited.
I've only been published twice, but this one will catch a lot more attention!
It's an 8 page issue, so it will be hard to ignore!
I can't wait to share it with you all, the pictures are awesome but ofcourse...I can't post anything yet.
1st of December is the national day of Romania, the country I was born in, the country that I love and hate at the same time.
Actually, it's the third date that was chosen to be the national day. Yes, during history we had 3 different national days. December the 1st was set after the Romanian revolution in 1989 (when Romanian became a democratic country after 42 years of being communist) and it marks the unification of Transylvania, but also of the provinces of Bessarabia and Bukovina with the Romanian Kingdom, in 1918.
The two other dates were May 10 (the day on which the prince ratified the Declaration of Independence from the Ottoman Empire in 1877 and the day on which Carol I set foot on the Romanian soil in 1866) and August 23 (this was in communist Romania and it marked the 1944 overthrow of the pro-fascist government of Marshal Ion Antonescu).
Okay, enough history (I bet no one even reads this far anyway since it's no drama or whatever, but I'll keep writing). Now, where is Romania located on the map? It's in West Europe, that country that looks like a fish.
Romania, as a country is very beautiful, because a lot of the nature is still preserved. I will shortly present you just a few of the natural places you SHOULD visit.
The Danube delta is the best preserved delta on the continent and the second largest, after the Volga delta. It is now part of the UNESCO patrimony and it hosts over 300 species of birds and 45 species of freshwater fish.
Scarisoara Cave is one of the biggest ice caves in the Apuseni Mountains. The glacier has a volume of 75000 cubic metres and it is 26 m high. Not all parts of the cave can be visited by tourists, some are reserved for scientists.
The Berca Mud Volcanoes are small volcano-shaped structures typically a few meters high caused by the eruption of mud and natural gases.
We have a lot of man build places you have to visit also, even though most of them aren't well preserved. In the last years, with money coming from the European Union, a lot of them were rehabilitated, but for so many it's too late. Very beautiful houses unfortunately look like after a war, but even like this they still have beauty in them, and they're worth visiting. I will just enumerate some of the cities that are worth visiting for their old historical center (in no particular order): Bucharest (the capital), Sibiu, Cluj-Napoca, Alba Iulia, Timisoara, Constanta, Arad, Brasov, Iasi and so on. Some of them have even been European Capitals of Culture.
The oldest man-build place to visit in Romania is Sarmizegetusa Regia, the capital of Dacia before it was conquered by the Roman empire.
Unfortunately (in my opinion) you also have a lot of churches and monasteries to visit in Romania. Some of them are beautiful, but some are just stupid buildings made by people that want money. Anyway, from the beautiful ones I will mention: The Black Church, Curtea de Arges Cathedral, Voronet Monastery and so on. Why I said unfortunately in the beginning? Because in Romania there are 18,300 churches, 4,700 schools and 425 hospitals. Amen.
A lot of castles and palaces have been well preserved in Romania, like the Bran castle, Corvin castle, Peles Castle.
And I'll keep this for last. I think you all have heard of Dracula, right? Well, the character was inspired by Vlad the Impaler, also known as Vlad Dracul or Vlad Tepes (in translation dracul means dragon and teapa, from the word that tepes is derived, means stake). Why did he had these names? Well, his favorite method of killing people was to impale them (why he was called the Impaler) and he was from the Order of the Dragon, hence why he was called Dracul.
Anyway, I could ramble all day about why I love my country. What can I say is just visit it, I promise you won't regret it. Except the fact that you won't find good roads, or parking spots in big cities, or if you use the public transportation it will stink, or someone will steal from you, or you'll find a lot of beggars around, or junk in a lot of places, or a lot of stupid people. Yes, we have a lot of bad things in our country also, but I just made this journal entry to show to everyone that not everything is bad.
I will leave you with two songs: the national song and a song from a band I love. Both patriotic in their own way.
Romania's national day
December 09, 2013, 02:32:pm
I'd love to visit Romania, it's not that far, I'm from Czech Republic, so I hope that when I finnish studies... I knew a lot about it before reading this journal but still i've learned something new, that's nice. (:
A lot has changed in my world, and a lot has happened. This isn't the epic rant about why I've been struggling - this is all the good things that have happened to me in the last couple of months (:
I CHANGED MY HAIR (again)!
I needed a change - so now I have a side fringe, side parting, went darker and I lost three inches off the end!! It has boosted my confidence, which I needed, and I just feel happier with myself (:
BIGGEST PHOTOGRAPHY PROJECT OF MY LIFE!
Myself and five other members of my course were given a studio for three days and were told we could create anything we wanted. BUT WE COULDN'T EDIT IT AFTER WE TOOK THE PHOTO! Which means it all had to be done by lighting, setting the studio up and in camera. So we created the below image.
The set itself contained the two working neon lightings in the ceiling that we hung from beams. A pool of water we made using wood, a staple gun and a pond liner. There are then gold curtains which he shaped using chicken wire and the drops in the water were make by throwing stones. That is not including the 13 lights it took to light this bad boy to get that white out effect from the water to the background to the ceiling.
It might have been the hardest project of my life but to say that the below image is unedited, how it is in camera and all the skills I learned in creating a photograph like this... It was worth the exhaustion and break downs
I HAVE BEEN MODELLING AND MY WEIGHT IS UNDER CONTROL!
I am officially a size ten again! YEYEYEYEYEY!! I've been trying to walk a lot more and doing pilates in my bedroom. Also just been careful which what I've been eating and making sure to keep my weight where I wanted. And from this has come a lot more modelling! I canne share most of the photos because I have officially become the go-to girl for nude modelling, but I love it. Really enjoy working with the other photographers and come on... We all know I enjoy modelling
AND DON'T WORRY! THIS IS CENSORED SO YOU CANNE SEE ANY WOMAN PARTS!
I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW!
This is the most shocking out of everything that has happened and the one that has completely blind sided me. He is called Josh and is a first year photography student - and is fucking perfect. We've been talking since the summer and I've always found him beautiful but never considered him as a potential boyfriend.
That was until he took my hand in the cinema when we went to the 50th Doctor Who Anniversary showing.
I can honestly say I have never felt like this or this strongly about anyone before in my life. Not this soon. It has been two weeks and they've been the best two weeks since I've been at university. I'm not using the "L" word just yet, but I'm crazy about him and he is crazy about me and if I could put everything I wanted into a boyfriend it would be him.
This cult is extremely entertaining the be in.
There's almost always someone on to post with.
There's plenty of threads open for games and discussions.
The people are amazingly nice.
I can guarantee this cult won't be a waste of your time.
Going to start this journal with an apology. And a big one... I AM SO SORRY FOR MY INACTIVITY! We all knew the university internet was shite, what I didn't count on was that it was a) going to be worse this year or b) I was going to have the term from hell where everything that could go wrong went wrong.
In a nutshell: university has been kicking my arse, I've been feeling like utter shite and just had a really rough few months.
Everyone else has left now, I'm staying until Friday, and suddenly the internet works ten times better as it doesn't have 3000 students all trying to use it at once! Which means I can finally get on and get things sorted now until the start of January and then put my VF "plan of action" into work when I go back for second term (basically go use the library internet a few nights a week as it is super fast!).
Gonna leave it there for now. I am going to post a MASSIVE journal of updates in a wee bit once I have had my groceries delivered, done some laundry and actually gotten dressed AAAANNNNDDDDDDD also post a journal ranting about everything that has happened and gone wrong in my life just because I think I'll feel better about it all. Yeah. WONDERFUL! Anywayssss...
REALLY MISSED EVERYONE AND SENDING LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGS OVER THE INTERNET!
Fuck you too lads.
I like how religious people only want to enforce certain parts of the bible.
"Gays need to die because the bible says so."
Let's pull some bible verses out, shall we?
If anyone curses his father or mother, he must be put to death. - Leviticus 20:9
If a man commits adultery with another man’s wife—with the wife of his neighbor—both the adulterer and the adulteress must be put to death. - Leviticus 20:10
If, however, the charge is true and no proof of the girl’s virginity can be found, she shall be brought to the door of her father’s house and there the men of her town shall stone her to death. She has done a disgraceful thing in Israel by being promiscuous while still in her father’s house. - Deuteronomy 22:20-1
So all you 13-17 year old sluts out there fuckin' guys while you still live in your daddy's house? DEATH TO YOU, SLUTS. DEATH UNTO YOU, SO SAYETH THE BIBLE.
For six days, work is to be done, but the seventh day shall be your holy day, a Sabbath of rest to the LORD. Whoever does any work on it must be put to death. - Exodus 35:2
So I guess anyone in a medical profession that works on a Sunday should die. Peace out doctors. Peace out medical assistants that take care of adults with MRDD. CY@ ANYONE THAT DOES ANYTHING DECENT FOR OTHER HUMAN BEINGS AS ACCORDING TO THEIR JOB DESCRIPTION, SHOULD YOU WORK ON A SUNDAY. Lel, there goes the sluts from Deuteronomy that take my order at McDonalds on Sunday. Looks like you don't get a second life, your ass is dead there too.
When you march up to attack a city, make its people an offer of peace. If they accept and open their gates, all the people in it shall be subject to forced labor and shall work for you. If they refuse to make peace and they engage you in battle, lay siege to that city. When the Lord your God delivers it into your hand, put to the sword all the men in it. As for the women, the children, the livestock and everything else in the city, you may take these as plunder for yourselves. . . . This is how you are to treat all the cities that are at a distance from you and do not belong to the nations nearby.
However, in the cities of the nations the Lord your God is giving you as an inheritance, do not leave alive anything that breathes. Completely destroy them—the Hittites, Amorites, Canaanites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites—as the Lord your God has commanded you. - Deuteronomy 20:10-17
So basically.. It's okay to go to a foreign nation, destroy anyone who doesn't want to be peaceful and accept our already shitty God, and plunder their women, children, and livestock? Sounds legit.
Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. - Ephesians 5:22-24
I'm pretty sure none of you married women are slaves to your husbands and bow at his every whim. I know you bitches have backbones. So either submit to him like a slave, or get divorced and die. YOUR CHOICE LADIES.
So there we have it folks. Religion at its finest. We're only going to take to heart parts of the bible and try to enforce it on people, namely the parts involving homosexuality, because we don't really care if our heterosexual couples cheat on each other, we won't put them to death, just the gays.
You can take your bible and shove it up your ass Salvation Army.
While your at it, enjoy a nice tall holiday glass of go fuck yourself, followed by a shot of 'get stoned bitch'.
A friend of mine recently asked the question, "Why do you show off your body?" The question was asked in a most respectful way and it got me thinking, why do I exactly?
This entire journal entry is dedicated to my answer, as well as some ranting about the subject of the "standard" woman.
I show my body off on every site I'm on. The reason for this is that I'm extremely comfortable with my body; every inch. I don't do it for attention, and I don't do it because I'm desperate; girls who do this do it for the wrong reasons. You see countless amounts of "skinny" girls in skimpy bikinis and underwear on TV/public, but when a curvier girl like me wears something like that, we're told to put more on because "nobody wants to see that."
Why is this? Because the "standard" is, I think last I heard is a 4 or 6? Who's to say all women should be like this? There are several women and girls who are built like me, with wide hips, who would NEVER look good that small. Can you imagine me? A 5'8," 165lb (yes, I weighed myself yesterday) young women currently wearing a size 16, loosing enough weight to fit into a size 4 or 6? I would look horrible. Especially considering for my frame I "should" be around 150? Certainly not small enough to be a size 6.
And let's not forget the confidence factor. If a woman is comfortable in her own skin, why should she be required to please others, be it family, friends, significant other, or doctor? If a young woman is say, 210lbs, and wants to wear a bikini, why shouldn't she? Because her family is embarrased by her? Because of the immature kids at the pool? At the end of the day, it's the girl's self-confidence that will determine what she wears; not the words of others.
I could use this entry to touch on self-esteem, self-respect, and so-on, but that would be a novel by itself, so I'm going to skip over that right now.
Basically what I'm saying is this: You cannot go through life trying to live up to the expectations and desires of others. If you are happy where you are in your life, like for example, with what you look like, then why do the other people and what they say matter? Living for others is no way to live. Doesn't do you any favors (this is excluding dom/domme and sub roles. That's something completely different). So a shoutout to all the curvy women in bikinis!
I am in no way saying "skinny girls are ugly." All I'm pointing out is you don't have to be a size 4-6 to be sexy and beautiful. I am also not excluding men, who battle these issues as well. This journal is just from a female perspective about other females and how the world views them. Keep in mind, I am also not promoting an extremely unhealthy lifestyle.
I hope that something I said made sense, considering my thoughts are often jumbled and disorganized.
And for those wondering, here is a true story:
I really didn't start to embrace my body until I got out of highschool. I wore big Tshirts and baggy pants to hide my curves; it wasn't until after I graduated that I realized I wasn't doing myself any favors.
After graduation, I was seeing all these girls with bodies like mine. But they were comfortable and embraced their curve. I couldn't understand it. My mother was always the first person to insult me about my weight, and she was doing the same to them through the TV screen. She told me that because we have the bodies we do, no man would ever want us (she's the same lady who thinks a size 10 is obese). I had lost my virginity long before, but I figured it was just because I said yes. Not that the other person was attracted to me
One day i figured "what the hell?" And posted a PG-rated picture on another site. My outfit was not slutty, just form fitting. The response was overwhelming. So many people calling me sexy. I realized through a support group on the site that I WAS sexy.
My fat (yeah that's right, I said it) is sexy. And people who are too blind to see it don't deserve my company in the first place.
It can be hard.. I honestly didn't even really get into making costumes until I got with my group. It helps a lot when doing group cosplays and everyone is helping everyone out with something. I actually found my group while in a community college..