People are not obligated to comment or rate you just because they viewed your profile.
If someone drops by, reads your profile and doesn't say anything, it's probably because of your shitty personality, or they were just having a look in the first place.
Get off your high horse. Seriously.
If you want to have a conversation with people, start one.
VF Model hatred/general hatred/ you're fucking stupid RANT
April 10, 2014, 04:18:am
If you hate a group of people and you don't know every single person in that group of people...you're a fucking moron and I severely dislike you.
"I hate asian people. But I have only known/talked to a handful of asian people."
You have no reason to hate asian people. If an asian person, say, killed your friend, you have every right to hate THAT asian person if you want to. Hating every single asian person for it though is just stupid and judgmental. You have no real reason to hate someone for their ethnicity. You could one day meet an asian dude and he could be the COOLEST NICEST DUDE EVER. But you're going to risk not having that ever happen. Because you decided you hated all asians.
"I hate preppy people. But I'm super gawfic and avoid preppies at all costs therefor I know no preppy people."
1. Grow up.
2. Shut up.
3. You have no reason to hate someone for the way they dress, especially when you get all pissy because someone gives you shit for the way YOU dress.
Again, one day, you could meet a preppy chick and she could be the coolest nicest chick ever. And you'll never know because you decided you hated all the "preppy" people in the world.
I hate VF models. They are stuck up elitists and they clique themselves together and they do this and that and blah blah blah.
I'm a VF model, and even I will admit that I have talked to a model or two who WERE in fact stuck up elitists. That doesn't mean all of us are.
We're just fucking people. We model for a website called VAMPIREFREAKS. WHY on earth do you take your hatred for us so seriously? None of us really even take ourselves seriously.
I dunno about all VF models, but the ones I talk to are all really friendly, outgoing, helpful, and socially awkward. Yes. Socially awkward. I'm personally the most socially awkward person I know and I don't know how to hold a conversation with people. A lot of the VF models are like that. At least a handful of the ones I know in person.
If you don't know every single VF model and have not had extended conversation with all like...80? 100? of us...why in the actual fuck are you going to say you hate all of us and that we're this bad trait and that bad trait?
I'm a fucking person before I'm a VF model. I'm a person before I'm an ANYTHING that you could label me as. All the VF models are people. Preppies are people. Asians are people.
Your hatred for a group of people is just so judgmental and ignorant and it honestly makes me sick to my stomach.
WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG?!?!
There's no reason to hate someone for whatever group/label/clique/whatever they fit into. The people who have this senseless hate about them are the people that should be judged harshly. Not the people who just mind their own business and do their thing and try to enjoy life and make friends in the process.
I have never really spoken up before about senseless hatred but I'm seeing so much of it lately and I'm getting stress headaches from it all.
Learn to fucking love. Life is so much easier/better for everyone when you act towards others with friendliness, kindness, and love.
I'm not saying you can't dislike someone. If you have legitimate reasons, go right ahead. Dislike them all you want.
But to hate someone for their skin color? Or their ethnic background? Or their style of dress? Or their fucking member status on a social networking site?
Why do people see any of that as okay?
If you're reading this and have gotten this far, I challenge you. TALK to someone today. Talk to someone that you don't particularly think you would get along with because of their differing taste in music, or their different style of dress, or their status on a social networking site.
Try it. If you don't get along, well, at least you tried! Maybe you are just not compatible with this person as friends. If you do get along, great! Maybe you'll make a new friend with someone you never thought you'd be friends with.
I'm personally a very approachable person. I've met so many people in person who knew who I was because of my modeling and stuff. Ask any of these people- I'm always really excited to meet them. I can be shy and awkward and avoid eye contact, but I'm always super friendly. I give hugs. I'll take pictures with people who want pictures with me. I'll chat with them if they want to actually talk to me and aren't intimidated by me. For some reason a lot of people have told me they were too scared to talk to me for long because they thought I was out of their league. Well, newsflash! I'm not in any higher-up league! I'm Nikki!! I'm a socially awkward cosplay dork who loves pitbulls and bunnies and hamsters and I shave off my eyebrows because I don't grow much hair there and I dance in grocery stores and put my pants on one leg at a time just like everyone else. I'm a person. I will never be more important than any other person. ESPECIALLY not because I'm a model who's well known online. Seriously, who could even THINK that this makes them more important?
I'm just so tired of hearing that people hate me, who have never spoken a word to me, just because I'm a VF model.
Get over yourselves if you seriously think I'm LESS important than you because of my online status.
It's 4:30 am now and I'm done ranting.
Idk if I've made any sense. I probably jumped around a lot with my thoughts.
VF Model hatred/general hatred/ you're fucking stupid RANT
April 11, 2014, 10:34:am
As long as you like yourself the way you are and have people in your life that feel the same way, other people's assumptions and negativity shouldn't bother you forever.Well, it's the case for me. I know that not everyone has a thick skin developed.
This is for the new people of VF and the stupid people of VF.
The people who don't quite understand what VF ratings do because they are new, and the people who whine and cry because they didn't get a perfect 10. Or got a 1.
The Rating points is the only thing that matters.'
That is the number that gets you boosted up the "Top Rated" list.
When someone rates you a -3, it takes away 3 points.
When someone rates you a 10, it adds 10 points.
So, when someone rates you a 9, it add 9 points. 8, 7, 6, 5,4,3,2,1.
If someone rates you a 1, they are boosting you up the top rated list. Yeah, it's only by 1 point. But that is STILL A POSITIVE NUMBER and it still moves you higher up that list.
The only ratings that can hurt your ratings are negative numbers.
A 1 rating will still boost you up the list. In other words, if you want to hurt my ratings, you can either give me a negative number or not rate me at all. Not rating someone will hurt their ratings more than a 1 will.
Essentially, when you cry and throw a hissyfit over 5 rating points someone just gave you, you are crying over the fact that they boosted you 5 points up the top rated list instead of taking you down 3 notches or not rating you at all.
I don't understand why so many people don't get this. It's pretty simple to understand.
So to every person who thinks they're an internet tough guy because they have rated me a 1 and left me some sort of shitty comment...you've actually just done me a favor and made a fool of yourself. Want to ACTUALLY hurt my ratings? Get a premium membership or don't rate me at all.
People have been whinging and arguing about ratings since forever.Oh and so too have people been all like "I'm too cool for ratings, who cares? What kind of MORON gives a shit about ratings? I'm such a badass." since forever.
When I was in inspiration I started something called "cult rescue" where once a month the cult would pick a cult that needed rescuing. Imagine yard crashers of the internet. We weren't the best gfx designers of VF but we worked together to make things match to make sure that the cult package people received was worthy.
Hogwarts won 5 icons, 5 banners and a layout from the VFDT as a package for some sponsorship contest. Cool right? That's what we thought.
Does anything match? No. SO GLAD THESE ARE THE OFFICIAL DESIGNERS.
Out of the 10 graphics I've gotten so far (no layout in sight). 5 are useable-ish. I mean they're not bad but I'm not falling on my ass going damn this cult looks fun. It just looks bland. It looks like oatmeal. Plain, boring, oatmeal.
To me I can imagine Bob Ross going oh look a gif, we're going to resize it to a happy banner size. We don't really like the colours so we'll gradient map an overlay. It looks bare, let's add some text. Maybe mix in some pixel text in case you didn't know this was at vampirefreaks.com or that this was a cult. There. Happy boring banner.
It's been what six months? Six months of waiting on stuff. I found 5 or 6 owl images/gifs for the icons, got 3 icons with the same owl.
I wanted a TC banner, it took me 3 days to realize there was one in there because yknow it really pops out at you. Not. And yet, it's the best in terms of graphic. It's the one that looks best out of the whole lot.
And honestly, I hope to fuck another header has been made. Right now, I am holding back from having MMH banned altogether from making graphics for this request because honestly, I've never seen her make shit so ugly. If the first one wasn't bad enough, the second one is just...bad. The worse part is, she's actually a decent designer (in case bitches don't see the positive in my commentary), but obviously only when she wants to and if you don't want to honey, then don't fucking do it. Save us both a fucking migraine. Just do it right or don't bother at all.
I just I think the VFDT is an awesome concept, but the delays, the poor "craftsmanship", the piss poor attitudes that lead to well I don't like this person I'm going to make shit - it's making it get old fast.
When I was on the VFDT, HogwartsWizardingSchool was requesting graphics and a layout. They jacked my shit from Hogwarts, I mean I had a reason to be fucking pissed at them. The point is, I didn't sabotage them, I didn't talk shit, I didn't do anything. Instead I ignored their request and moved on to other requests because I knew that I would botch it. I could have been a petty little sumbitch but I wasn't because people had earned points for these things. There are so many backed up requests in the VFDT, might as well do something useful and right the first time then work on someone you dislike's request and try to piss them off. At the end you're just making yourself look bad and fucking the team over.
I did the first two photoshoots for my Disney project!
And I bet you can never guess which princess the top set of photographs is
I honestly am so proud of the Brave shoot.
I've never shot on location before or used natural lighting for anything other than selfies.
It was such a huge confidence boost when it comes to what I am capable of!
The below photographs are my favourites.
Out of these I am going to have to select three final photographs to hand in.
The first two photographs are in, no question.
The third I am going to use is still a mystery though
Any feedback is welcome!!
I usually get such good constructive feedback and would really appreciate it.
Which of the number photographs should be submitted with the first two?!
Final Beauty Photograph
Final Fashion Photograph
The Rest - I need one more!!
I also did my Alice photoshoot. In this shoot I took over 250 photographs, and I got back two which are useable... And when I saw useable I mean better than the others. The lighting and composition in so many of the photographs are stunning, but you can tell in all of them that the model simply did not want to be there. It was so frustrating photographing someone who just complains constantly and works against rather than with you. I should have this reshot by the end of the week, fingers crossed! Here are the only two I like...
GOD I WISH SHE WASN'T DEAD IN THE EYES OR THESE WOULD BE STUNNING!
Disney Fashion Shoots: Merida & Alice
April 18, 2014, 12:21:am
I like the Brave concept, however, as a photographer you need to pay attention to small details. The thing that is throwing me off with the second photo is how she is holding the arrow and the arrow itself. I know other people may not notice this, but those who have training in any form of art field will most likely notice. (Not sure if you're doing this for a class project or not). Other than that, it looks good so far. The Alice shoot- I'd stick mostly with the one with the cup full of pills. Again, if this is for a class, you can say her dead look is because she's been so overly medicated. Who wouldn't medicate their child in this day and age if they started talking about their adventures in Wonderland? haha*Models can definitely help or hurt your images, though. If she was this hard to work with, I'd suggest not using her again. She can be pretty, but she's mostly wasting your time on images that don't fit your vision. It's not worth your time having to fight for one or two good images.
Just because you were once a terrible person, doesn't mean you always will be.
A phoenix will rise from it's ashes, it simply needs to die first.
A field of flowers can grow from the shit that you once were.
Never allow your past to hang over your head. Never keep those that refuse to forgive you, around past their time. Remember to eventually forgive yourself after you atone and change.
And never worry, you can always be a little shit again if the new you displeases you.
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Me: You have to promise..
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Me: You have to agree to see my dick too
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Black Veil Brides. Fakest of all.
April 18, 2014, 05:30:pm
Right... seeing as I have been away for work I have just read through this debate.You've just called a 15 year old a retarded cunt... You sick fucking bastard. She is practically kid! I bet you were dragged up as a kid.. not brought up. Does a person's taste of music really tell you about a person's personality? I like BVB. Not love. I also like A7X. Now please tell me everything about me. Just let somebody listen to their own music without any fucking hassle. Is that really to much to ask for?This cult is full of uneducated children. Please grow a pair of fucking balls and grow the fuck up.
Black Veil Brides. Fakest of all.
April 19, 2014, 03:57:pm
hey bethanyEatdown this is not a cult. its a journal entry. You are fat, yet shallow. Can't think for yourself. You hate your father for sodomizing you. Yet you miss it. You can't stand to be alone. You eat for comfort. And you have horrible taste in music
Black Veil Brides. Fakest of all.
April 19, 2014, 04:50:pm
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Sticks and stones, love.Call me all you like, really doesn't bother me... especially from a Keyboard warrior.Can't think for myself? WOW Sick insult. Because to be honest, I did in my previous comment."You are fat, yet shallow"I'll give you that one"Can't stand to be alone"I love it. Especially when I am arguing with demented people over the internet.But I won't sink to your level But yet, I get off my arse every day of the week, and not bring people down over TASTE OF MUSIC (Just saying, how retarded could you get. Such a silly, controversial topic to discuss)Every moment of the day.Therefore, I shan't be commenting on this again As I said before, I would hate to sink as far as you are. If I did, I would probably hang myself as I would consider myself as a monster Ta ra!"BethanyEatdown"xoxoxoxoxoxoTherefore