I just wanted to let you all know I'm really really sorry for any inactivity on my part... I've had three hellish weeks with exams/grad/prom that I haven't even been able to enjoy my vacation from work. My computer has a virus, so I have to fix it before anything. It shouldn't take me /too/ long to do, so as soon as all this clears up, I will get working on it.
I probably won't be on for another week or so... My grandpa's liver failed on him and he has cancer in one full lung, so it won't be long until he's gone. As a kid, I thought it was impossible for him to be touched - Death would never get Leo Fortier. He's always been a happy guy and no matter how he was feeling, he always knew how to cheer my brother and I up. We're his only grandchildren, so we received a lot of things from him... He spoiled us. I still can't believe this is happening to someone I always thought would live forever...
I went to see him yesterday. He understood what was going on and was able to see who was there, and he acknowledged us. I don't deal well with death or sickness, so I had to leave before I got physically sick. When I gave him a hug to say goodbye, he told me he loved me before I could even say it. Every time I used to go see him at home, I'd always give him and a hug and a kiss and say "Love you!" My grandpa was never the super affectionate type, so I only ever got "I love you too"s every once and a while, normally it would just be "yeah, you too". So the fact that he said "I love you" first... It fucking tore me up.
The worst is seeing my dad though. I NEVER see my dad cry, EVER, and its all he's been doing the last few days... I wish I had some way to make it all better.
Je t'aime, Grandpapa. Je ne t'oublierai jamais. Tu sera toujours dans mes pensées.
And Brian, whenever you read this, I just want you to know how absolutely amazing you are. I love you so much. I wouldn't be able to take this without you there for me, and you understanding everything I'm going through. You will never cease to amaze me. You just keep getting more and more perfect. I love absolutely everything about you. Thank you so much, babe... For everything. <3
I'm here for you sis, if you need me I'm right here with Brian and I'm sure others. I'll be praying for you even if you don't exactly have the same religion. He WILL be in a better place than having to face this pain in his body, and whenever he's in that better place he'll have such happiness up there and would make sure that his family is safe. Just remember he wouldn't want you guys tore up too long over him, I'm sure. I love you, Natalie. I'm only a text/message/IM away if you need me.
OMG Natalie Im so sorry to hear about your grandpa. Losing a grandparent is never easy, I lost mine when I was just a kid, so if you need anything, I'm here for you. I know we aren't that close, but I'm here if you need me. I'm sure that everyone understands why your inactive and you shouldn't worry about that your real life stuff is way more important. I'm so sorry and my inbox is open should you need it.