Im excited! im leaving for Iowa soon. granted i spend 1d14H on the skanky greyhound .. ill still make it and be thankful for the time ill be gifted to enjoy with my family. My cousin is getting married. :0) makes me think of Marcus... and how he asked me into wed lock last May... IN NO way am i saying i wish i had.. but it just has me thinking.. and im surprised about how much hes flooded my thoughts this past week or so.. my dreams and nearly constantly throughout my day.. any way. i know he isnt who i think i miss.. i mean change is an encouraged part of life.. i just wonder alot.. well im painting my nails. a green from revlon# 571 i think my mom will really like it she loves the color green! imma take it with me when i go so i can do her nails for her. its been a few years since ive got to see my sisters and just as long since ive seen our mother. .. ive soo much on my mind from health to my love life/lack of... i wish i felt better.. to my future a career? a family? my family? bleh... my paper journal is such a messs.. Music: flux pavilion / Cracks Randy rogers/ Can somebody take me home
"The Devil card suggests that my alter ego today is the Risk-Taker, whose superpower lies in my laughing in the face of limitations, possibly guided by my obsessions. I will watch my step today and know that I need to take responsibility for my actions -- no one can shoulder that burden for me. 'I know it's wrong, but it feels so right.' My obsessions are in control and I can't help myself -- I'm addicted to love. But you just may be hurting the one you love. So either go with it, or exercise self-control and avoid those temptations that may come back to haunt you." Music: Chinter's Will/ Klypex
okay so i didnt keep from tx for long.. ended up back here in mid march.. kristi helped me get here... um summer was good i spent a fair share of time in the sun on the sand and under the deck drinking beers and punches with my father listening to the local NPR .. have met a few interesting ppl .... miss lamb actually came to visit i wished she had stayed longer shes such a doll and i want her to be happy .. .. sooo im head over heals ! i cant deny it.. life is soo good.. and i have the feeling its only gonna get better.. and that whatever comes my way wont pull me as far down as it ever had in the past. i have so much to write about.. so many things.. i just dont knw where to start or do i have the time to do things or can i do so in a timely order.. as of this moment im sitting in Davids living room listen to the T.V. he just left to head back to work he came home for his lunch hour.. and oh boy oh boy is he just wonderful! its my day from work working for those cambodians isnt bad just not as promising as my dreams .. ive got some school work to finish today .. im so close to taking the last test in this set of studies. like i said i have a great feeling of growth about the things in my life. im in LOVe*
