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sk8er_x1's Journal
I Want To Fucking Break It
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Attention all who were on my friends lists
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November 17, 2008, 11:14:am
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recently ALL of my shit was hacked by my ex, who some of you know to be a real cunt sometimes, apparently messages were sent to many of you saying "youre a cunt" "youre a bitch" etc that kind of stuff. i would like to apologize for that and inform you that it WAS NOT me. i appreciate each and every one of you as friends.
if you feel the urge to re-add me to your lists, please do
Mood: stupid fucking cunt ex
Music: the chosen legacy-dimmu borgir
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The Fate Of Norns
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February 05, 2008, 03:40:am
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Recently some of yo may have noticed a slight change in my mood and ever increasing apathy. the reason, well its been two years since that dreadful day(i realize some of you have led shitty lives but it was deadly to me) since then ive been unable to keep a steady relationship for one reason or another ..sometimes im not good enough, one mistake too many or im just being used...which you know it sucks but thats life...but there is one girl out there thats made such an impact on my life in such a negative way i can never thank her enough for it because she showed me what my life was meant to be like. Another girl made such a huge impact on me in a positive way that ive seriously considered tattooing her name on my chest even though i cant be with her right now. I love her and i hope it never ends.
the song below gives clues to what i mentioned above since that day...not only was it playing when i got the news but lyrically it basically matched what had happened. I hope some of you can figure this out, as cryptic as it may be. and i hope i never have to live through that again with my BabyDoll....another thing...if you play this song and i just shut up and you cant figure out why...dont ask any questions...its a REALLY long story
The Fate Of Norns
I feel a chill in my heart
Like lingering winter cold
I and my son are torn apart
He was just 6 winters old
My first-born was he
And the last of my kin
The last one to carry my name
Death smiled at him its deadly grin
There is no one for me to blame
The fate of Norns await us all
There is no way to escape
The day to answer Oden's call
Or walk through hel's gate
I carry him to my ship
He seems to be asleep
But the deep blue colour of his lips
Is enough to make me weep
No man should have to bury his child
Yet this has been my share
The tears i shed run bitter and wild
It's a heavy burden to bear
His body feels so light in my arms
His skin is pale as snow
Yet his weight feels heavy in my heart
As my sadness continues to grow
Allfather!
What fate has been given me?
Why must I suffer?
Why must I feel this pain?
Allfather!
LIfe has lost it's meaning to me
I think I'm going insane!
I lay him down on a pyre
A burial worthy a king
And as I lie down by his side
I hear the weaving norns sing
The fate of Norns await us all
There is no way to escape
The day to answer Oden's call
Or walk through hel's gate
The fate of Norns await us all
I know this to be true
It's time to answer Odens's call
My son, he calls for me and you
Mood: meh
Music: antikrist-dimmu borgir
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Last dedicated entry or at all
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January 30, 2008, 11:22:pm
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its been a day and im going crazy
the life you gave me is worth living
please come back to me i miss you insanely
to be with you anything is worth giving
tattered and torn and raped is my soul
im crying my heart out
im dying slowly and this bullshit has taken its toll
i want to be with you forever, there is no doubt
i learned to fly with you
but without you my wings are broken
mend my shattered soul, oh please do
i love you so much im floating.
dont be afraid to start over
when its over
i love you now
and my soul, to you is in vow
this will be the last time anyone sees or hears from me. too much has happened and i fear the worst may happens so im just going to avoid it all together. you can call if you know my number but soon, i may not be there at all.
im really drunk right now...and those who know me know what im capable of when im drunk so if you care...you know what to do
Mood: ........
Music: we want to fuck your dog in the ass-?????
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