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Where I've been
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September 29, 2011, 12:09:am
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I have never posted one of these, but I figure I have kinda disappeared with the exception of an occasional drop in so I might as well say what's been going on.
As most of you may already know I work at Lady Foot Locker, and recently I was promoted to full time assistant manager. I am required to spend at least 40 hours of each week in that little store. I also am in college full time with the hope of becoming an elementary school teacher. As it is I hardly ever have a day off from everything unless I request it ahead of time then put in 12 hour shifts to make up for it. The two days per week I have off from work I am in school. I am so damn sick and tired of working there. I hate wearing a referee shirt and black pants to work everyday. It's so dull and I feel boxed in. I hate dealing with feet, they're gross. I don't even care for sneakers much anymore.
My social life is gone, I hardly see my friends anymore. It's getting lonely and I feel like a bad friend for disappearing. I spend the free time I have with my boyfriend, but we don't get to go out much anymore. We used to go on little adventures, but now all I want to do is sleep because I'm so exhausted. I feel like I bit off more than I can chew. I'm scared to lighten the amount that I do because it's like giving up. I miss having time to do whatever I like, going out with friends, being a 20 year old.
When I was in community college I made friends so easily, and everywhere I went on campus I knew someone. At the university I am this little tiny fish in a massive ocean. It's lonely wandering around alone. I know that I have to put in the effort to make new friends there, but I'm scared. Occasionally I bump into someone I know, those times are few and far between.
I don't know if I want advice or just someone to talk to who understands.
Music: Jessie J
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