Heres a bunch of shit I wrote while I was out walking. It's just random ass thoughts. Feel free to read what you want. You might learn something about me. I'm up for discussing any of it, too.
I'm no ladies' man. I listen to blink, greenday, paramore, avril lavigne, old stuff, new stuff, pop-punk, industrial, techno, some metal. I'm not all over the board but I like a lot. I play video games. I'm not particularly good at any one game, but i like halo and command and conquer a lot. Old school games are the best, but im no hipster either. i like to hand out and talk about nothing. I like to go for walks and stare at the sky. I think my hometown sucks. I enjoy photography. I go to college, but not for anything you would be interested in. I like to believe im a programmer but I dont do much programming and im not that great at it. I cant run long distances and i cant do flips, but i try my hand at parkour when i can get out. I love my friends, even though theyre few and far between. I wish i could speak russian and sometimes study, but i dont think ill ever get good enough to call myself fluent. i like meeting new people. It doesnt happen enough. I fall in love easy, but that's only because i know so many amazing people. Id give the world to the lady im with, but im not with one. I have a horrible history with ladies and a horrible history in general. It has left its scars, but it doesnt affect me too often. I like pirates and ninjas and zombies and i think everyone is beautiful in some way. I have trust issues but im not clingy. I love my hair and my eyes. I wish I knew everything, just so I could solve problems with the world. I wish I could sing. I think cobra starship is amazing, and my top three bands are them, linkin park, and rise against. I dont rock out much at concerts but i always rock out in my car. Im either really shy or really outgoing, depending on who you are. I always have one girl im head over heels for, but im the most faithful guy you'll ever meet. (it's always the lady im with, if im with one) I have the biggest celebrity crush on hayley williams. I only have one celebrity crush and just recently developed it. I miss a lot of people and wish they were still in my life. I want to visit russia some day. I think their accents are sexy. I like most of europe. I want to go to space. Astronomy is cool and I love the stars. Giant robots and sci-fi spaceships are cool, but i dont obsess. I like the concept of a battle between good and evil, angels against demons. But i think good and evil are completely a matter of perspective. I think vampires are stupid. I think buffy the vampire slayer, angel, charmed, gilmore girls, and Repo! are all good shows, even though one is a movie. I miss waking up and watching awesome cartoons on cartoon network and nickelodeon. I watched starship troopers. Ive typed all of this on my shitty flipphone. I love texting. I like cities at night and country during the day. I used to own a horse and I am sad I didnt ride her mroe before she passed. I love cats, and dragons. I have a theory that dragons are real and hiding in the form of cats. Seriously, just watch a cat for a while. The only things theyre missing are fire breath and wings. I like buffalo wild wings. I think it would be neat to have wings. I want to be a pilot but i'm too blind, too fat, and too tall. I would love to fly. Falcons are my favorite animal. I like cute things. Im not ashamed to admit I like flowers. Some people think im a girl at heart. I think theyre right. Im not gay and could never be. The concept of it grosses me out. But for girls, thats cool and all. I don't find lesbians "sexy" and dont understand why guys do. Im not a huge fan of 'checking people out'. I dont masturbate. I do like vagina. A lot. I hope the person at circle k lets me put a polar pop on my card. Its debit, but still. I miss my old phone. I want a really good camera so I can pretend to be good at photography. I wish I knew my problems so I could work to bettering myself. I kind of want a place to stay the night so i dont have to walk home. thats only because my back is hurting. I might have scoleosis, or howeverthefuckyouspellthat, but i need a professional opinion. Mum is only pseudo-professional. I found a ball on my walk and forgot about it until just now. I hate lying and dishonesty. I dont see a point in it. I would rather everyone be face, even if some people got hurt. I think cheating is stupid and i hate cheaters. I have a bad habit of forgiving the wrong people. I love thunderstorms. I have a few things in my past that I would like to know the outcome of if i had handled them differently. I kind of just want to lay down and take a nap. I miss when hodson lived at his moms and everyone used to hang out over there. I miss the times when I was with cassy. Not the relationship or her, just the stuff that happened. I miss mancenos. I wish josh would get the emo-stick out of his ass and come hang out with me. Dani too. I almost tripped. I laugh when that happens. Im not a huge fan of anime, but I can watch it if you put it on. And enjoy it, too. I dont watch tv anymore. I only find new music from other people. Sometimes that makes me feel like a copycat. I kind of want a hug. According to the circle k guy, my house to here is a hell of a walk. I didnt think it was that bad. My favorite soda is dr pepper because its good when its warm and when its flat. its harder to text one handed. I got cherry pepsi because i wanted something sweeter. Im going to have a blister on my left heel. this will be the 6th message ive completely filled on my phone. I wonder how many words ive mispelled. I think i shouldve gotten water instead of soda. This has gone from self-reflection to random mind vomit. Oh well. Im nothing that any lady i have ever met is looking for. Not even the ones ive dated. Im such an odd individual that i dont know if there is a lady out there looking for what i am. I think im okay with this in a strange way though. My existence kind of catches everyone off guard. Some dont like it and do the best they can to drive me in to the ground. Others love it, and with it love me. There are only a handful that fall in between. I think there are a lot of people out there that are either loved or hated, but thats not /exactly/ what im saying. But i digress. As long as i continue to be unique and fun to be around, im okay with me. Im a night owl. I need more friends who are as well, because i dont have anything to do at night and it kind of sucks. It just started raining. lolwut. I guess that means I stop talking. Catch you later.
Written on my phone while I was walking from my house to circle k and back. It's about 4 miles there and 4 miles back. It rained about half of the way back. It was probably the most enjoyable walk I've ever taken.
