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Narci's Journal.

Its the end.

May 24, 2012, 01:01:am

for my computer anyway.

She's gone away. Her power button is broken which is just enough to send her over the edge into disuse.

So now I have to buy a new one.

I'm kind of sentimental and I hate getting replacements for things I'm fond of. The computer I'm thinking of getting however is so fucking cool.

So anyhoo I might be online as much.

I shall miss you all dearly.
Mood: Bit sad

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One of Those Days

May 13, 2012, 01:21:pm

I'm usually a pretty easy going person.

Most of my family is made up of stressed out, wound up, people who over react about everything.

I've always been the "Oh don't worry about it, I'm sure it will work itself out," type.

But then there are those days. You know the kind.

Those days where your anger levels are dangerously high and your patience is at empty.

My whole family has anger issues so I guess it stands to reason that I would too.

But I hate these days where I am absolutely seething and there is nothing that I can do to make it better.

I'm just so pissed off. Especially at the little things.

Like my father who is a plumber but won't fix our broken plumbing.

Like the hole in the roof that floods the kitchen on rainy days like today.

Like how my sister is off hob nobbing it with her boyfriend's suburbanite bitch of a mother while ours has to sit downstairs and wait.

Like how when anyone falls in love with anyone they completely lose track of their own identity and life.

Like how my stomach hurts for no reason and I can't smoke a ciggy because it will make it worse.

Like how I know I'm being a petulant child but I can't fucking help it which makes me even madder.

I wish I could just throw a tantrum instead of waiting this out like an adult.
Mood: Annoyed at everything

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GOOD NEWS

May 10, 2012, 08:14:pm

My brother's cancer markers are down enough that he's in remission or whatever!

He just needs some surgery to get rid of scarring and then he should be good!

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I'm excited.

Also this means he won't get deployed over seas this year like he was supposed to before he got sick. So I'm secretly really really REALLY happy that he isn't going over there. nod

I'm planning my sister's baby shower and I'm so glad that my niece will get to meet her pain in the ass uncle.

I just wish my other brother was here... although I don't know how he's gonna eventually take meeting the baby's dad. confused

Mood: EXUBERANT

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THE FUCK?

May 07, 2012, 07:57:pm

I'm the person with the pony icon.
Mood: confused as hell

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Feeling better

May 01, 2012, 02:59:pm

I'm feeling a lot better about where I'm at with my family relationships.

Julia and I seem to be doing a lot better.

And my brother is almost done with his cancer treatments. He seems to be doing rather well.

My older sister is pretty positive about this whole having a baby thing and my dad isn't even harassing her to give it up.

My mother has even simmered down a bit.

Now if only Joe was around everything would be great.

Tbh I'm only really worried that something will happen and we'll never ALL be together again.
Mood: Upbeat

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