so i have a job and thats a good day and news all in one but know, life seems like its going down in a fire and smoke, my plain is crashen my ship in sinking. and i cant do shit 2 keep it at all. my cuz that i got in a fight awhile back keeps comen back 2 my house after i had tould him not 2 come back, after i have tould him that if my grand ma sees him that she is going 2 kick my ass out, but yet he keeps comen back. so soon i think i will be homeless. i am at the piont of fair that i will have 2 pack a bag of things just so that when the day does come i can be ready 2 kiss my life that i never had goodbye. and that fucking sucks so much ass cus here i am trying 2 better myself anyway that i can but whats the point if my life is going 2 end up in shit if i do or dont do anything? sure if u get up and do "what ever it is" it should be getting better but no. it seems like it isn't. and my friend that has been staying with me he helps me in life makes me look at thing the way it should be but my life keeps pointing me back 2 the hell i know so very well. it feels like theres no hope 4 me whats the fucking point in tyring or living? i should just say fuck the job fuck life and go out back and drown in a puddel of wtare that is only a foot deep so 2 make ppl really ask them selfs "why did he do it" and do ppl in my famliy really care or give a fuck or just anything? sure i was never beaten or raped i was showered with love but where is this love know i feel so goddamn out of fuck place that it kills me ever day and night 2 wheres the point in going on?! i will tyr 2 keep u guys posted on the up keeps of my hell that i am in but the way things are looking i mite end up dead in a month or so, so i dont know what 2 really say. life was great it was nice while it lasted? shit what was nice about it??? i feel at odds with everything i come in contakt with. and they all ways say " stay fast, dont give up hope. 4 god is with us in out time of need" well where in the hell is he when i feel like i and already dead on the inside and there no more life 2 give, and the only thing left 2 do is 2 lay down and die. some ppl are scread of the 2012 shit. not me. its sad but i welcome it if the world ends so does my pain and the bullshit in it. buut if it dont end and my life seems 2 go in the same shit it has been going in i wont 2 stop smoken ciggs so i can life a happy life but so fare if it satys the way it is i wont cus i will be preying 4 a fast and painless death but then again thats what death is pain leaven the body and i think and believe on that day i will be at picec and happy cus i wont have 2 deal with this shit anymore.
yeah thats right i have a job. damn it toke long enough i know. so so fare what has been up with me other then having a job. nothen relly just looken 4 a damn job smoken weed and delling with the family bullshit but hey i have a fucking job!. so know i can pay back all the ppl tbhat have helped me over the years so in way thats good but at the same time it fucking sucks cus i wont have any money 4 me 2 ether site on or blow but in time i will i just need 2 wait. and thats what has been up with old malk. so soon if i get the job and some money under my belt i will soon try 2 get a good cell phone so soon i mite have some new pic of me on line and shit like that so if anything just a prayer 4 me on geting it and keeping it i start 2sday. Mood: happy that i have a fucking job! Music: happy by mudvyane
some times u love them and then some times u just love 2 gave them by there neck and give them a good shaken. right now i got my kid of a cuz whouse says "i aint no damn kid!" but yet he acks like one. thats one thing if ur a kid and want 2 be done like the teen u r then ack like one and not some damn fucking cry baby of a girl! but u know what fuck the brat he'll be coming 2 me crying about something and i'll just have 2 be like tuff luck kid u shouldnt have acked like a little cry baby of a bitch and then i would have helped u but u wanted 2 be a dick so bay backs a bitch dont hate me hate the game. well i am going 2 leave this with u in the mean time u can find me on ether facebook now all tho i keep that just 4 the friends and famliy i rather vf then fucking facebook but what ever i am off 2 watch more youtube shit on splatter housr
