I really wonder why birthdays are such a miserable time every year. I always seem to be broke, irritated and disappointed - even when I actively try to make it a more pleasant time. I don't think I'll bother putting effort in this time, save myself the trouble. I made plans and centrelink shattered those, so I just don't give a crap anymore. Blergh.
Soooo its christmas eve, and my side of the family has had issues and my partners family, where I am living, has had a breakdown in communication - which is pretty typical but worse because of how much we all need to interact tomorrow for the gift giving and lunch...... All I want to do is bury my head and talk to no one but instead I'll suck it up and join in with the faked smiles and forced niceness. Hurrrrr durrrr, christmas.
I don't want to be in this place anymore. Its hard enough to get places with money, without is impossible. I miss socializing, and freedom. I miss my computer and my own space, my own bed. I feel like there's no way out of this, already nearly a year wasted. I owe mother nature nothing because she took away my life.
I don't want to be in this place anymore. Its hard enough to get places with money, without is impossible. I miss socializing, and freedom. I miss my computer and my own space, my own bed. I feel like there's no way out of this, already nearly a year wasted. I owe mother nature nothing because she took away my life.
