So my structural geology class is hard, I knew it was going to be hard, that's fine. I don't care how much work I have to put into it, that doesn't bother me at all, If I have to put in a billion hours a week then I will, I just want to understand it.
BUT
And there is a big fat fucking But in here, it feels like no one wants to help me. My professor doesn't speak very good English, so asking him for help in general is hard enough, and he just gives me the answers instead of teaching me how to do things. Secondly trying to tell him that I don't understand math and physics very well is hard because of the language.
Secondly the T/A for the class can be a little asshole, and he just seems like he is so exhausted dealing with me that I hate asking him for help.
And the other girls I know in the class are starting to be bitches to me, probably because I have asked for their help a million and seven times, but you know what, you don't need to be a god damn fucking bitch about it. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM DOING. I want to, and I feel very very alone....
So for the fourth time this term, I am crying because I feel completely lost, and completely retarded when it comes to this fucking class and its ridiculously hard lab...I just want to understand, I shouldn't have to fucking fight to be able to learn...
...FML.