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thus far this year...
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February 13, 2012, 03:59:pm
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so far 2012 can bite me.
The year has barely started & I'm already slipping into this familiar heartbreak type feeling. I know life isn't easy, but really, can my family just get a break. I wish I could blindly put all my faith into a god and just leave everything up to something I can't see. But with everything that has happened in the past and is happening now, I just can't seem to throw it all in. I am scared for my family. Everyone's health including my own has got nothing but a slap in the face this year. It's been non stop hospital visits already & funerals. Family friends keep dying. It's killing me having to watch all the people I love loose everything. Their lively hood, their loved ones. Everyone in my direct circle, seems to be having a hard time. I look around and see others in the world having good things happen to them, and it only makes me sit back and wonder what me and mine did wrong. Did we piss off the karma fairy that bad. All I want is a break for the ones I love.
In my own personal emotional mind right now. Old memories that I have tucked away and people I have since forgotten about and pushed out of my life, for good reasons...seem to be coming back. I understand our past can always haunt us.(if we let it). The demons are never truly gone. I guess I'm not strong enough to leave things behind. There is so much I want to accomplish this year. So many big goals I want to get started on and finish. The year is still just beginning, and I'm still so young. My life is just beginning. I just need some motavtaion to move forward and make this year better. I need to wake up from this dream and step back into reality and make things happen.
I'll keep telling myself "I am strong" & eventually I will believe it!
Mood: blogging
Music: 3 Doors Down - Here Without You (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover)
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TanyaRozellaBliss <3
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December 12, 2011, 05:31:pm
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TANYA ROZELLA BLISS
MY BABY SISTER WOULD BE 21 IN TWO DAYS!
Five years ago today I had to say goodye to someone way to soon.
Someone I loved and still love more than anything in this world.
Someone who no matter how they were feeling always had a smile to give.
Someone who taught me more than I knew at the time.
Someone who I will forever miss.
These feelings never go away and the days don't get easier without her.
click here for pictures! <3
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