FUCK YOU like seriously, you said we were cool now your coming back with this shit again? act your goddamn age your in fucking college for crying out loud. your just mad that you look like a fucking horse. thats actually the only reason i havent hit you well that and i dont want to be kicked from the college. but seriously id be afraid if i hit you that animal control would be called and told im abusing an animal LOL thats kind of what your acting like. im surprised he gave you another chance like if i were him i wouldve told your psycho self to hit the fucking road. besides hes a grown man if he doesnt want me as a friend HE can tell me NOT you okay? we are adults we can talk to one another. actually YOU cant youd rather yell and threaten people. so back to the main point, GROW THE FUCK UP i really hope you have a vf and see this because im so fucking done with you and ya know what? im done with him as well until y'all get your shit together im focusing on bettering myself because guess what ill be making money and y'all will still be living with mommy and daddy so fuck you,fuck him and fuck anyone else that decides to side with your psycho self. guess what by the way im not the only one that thinks you look like a horse. everyone in the lounge? they all think you do. also they talk shit about you ALL THE TIME you think your loved by them but you arent. kevin even said hes only giving you another chance because hes a nice person but he doesnt trust you bitch but then again i wouldnt trust someone who left him then fucked someone THEN came back. ill be surprised if y'all last i really will. Mood: pissed the fuck off Music: brokencyde
if i just disapeared one day would any of you care?
do any of you even care im here now?
go ahead say you dont care say i dont mean anything, guess what i KNOW i dont mean anything to anyone.
if i wasnt afraid of death id be dead by now but im to afraid of death itself and of the pain involved with it.
atleast self harm works.... i just... i give up i now understand im not wanted or needed im just here.
i dont get love nor do i deserve it i just have to shut down like i used to then ill be fine. Music: the fuck do you think ^
depression. dont read if your only gonna give me shit
November 26, 2014, 04:12:am
Whats the point? In anything? Life,love,etc it all ends.. theres always pain in the end.. your born live life then die whats the point? Im curious.. if i died how many people would miss me? 2-3? Maybe.. even if i was missed they would get over me.. even my girlfriend would get over me eventually.. i just want to die but im scared if death.. maybe ill just bottle it up and make things seem okay.. i dont even cry anymore.. my emotions are falling apart and i cant even talk to my girlfriend because it stresses her.. im all on my own and i fucking hate it! Everyone has irl friends to go to right? I dont i spend 90% of the day inside and the other 10% outside cleaning chicken coops.. i have no friends or atleast friends that ive close.. even my girlfriend lives far away.. like seriously i think this is life telling me to give up and stop trying... Mood: ^ the fuck you think? Music: twenty one pilots-house of gold
i give up like seriously. all that ever happens is i get used and hurt, im done i really am... no more love, no more happiness.. nothing i just give up... in turn i feel like just giving up on life all i do is fuck things up... everyone would be better off without me.. Mood: depressed Music: amityville horror movie