I really miss all my VF friends ): You guys have been such a huge part of my life I hate that I have no time to get on much anymore. Still trying to get my window in my car fixed. Took it to someone and they said they couldn't fix it I had to take it to the dealership and it'd be at least $400 >.< So not money I have at the moment to just throw around. But, I have all of Gavin's furniture at my house and put up now (: I've washed all of his clothes I have thus far. I'm getting anxious and so ready for him to be here. I have still only been working 4 shifts a week instead of the 6-7 I used to work, but I work all day long >.< blah. Work is slow so money sucks at the moment. Things are going great with Alex so far since we have gotten back together. He comes to my house every single day and makes sure I'm well taken care of because after work since Gavin lays on my sciatic nerve I can barely move he has to help me around my house ): It makes me feel so pitiful but I'm glad I have someone there to help me and get whatever I need. Makes me feel like he cares. I had a baby doctor visit this morning and everything is going wonderful. Gavin has a strong heartbeat the doctor says. So this is the last visit I'll have that I have to wait another month to hear my little man. I'm now going to the doctor every other week well until June which isn't that far away, then I'll be going every week. The end of the last week in June my doctor is wanting to induce me. I can't wait I'm so excited. I also finalized a date for my baby shower May 19th!! I wish that all of you could come!!! Love you guys so much <3
For those who don't know Friday while I was at work my car window was busted out and my purse was stolen out of my car. That being said I'm now down $200 in cash. I have to get a new debit card, which $100 had been used off of but I got that 100 credited back and the card cancelled. I have to get a new social security number/card and a new insurance card. I almost had to get a new license but it was turned in to a gas station found on the side of the road, the gas station it was turned into was one my cousin worked at so I at least have my license back. And my ipod is gone But, so basically anything of importance to me in my car is gone and I have to pay out of pocket to get my car window fixed...this weekend was horrible in that sense. I'm just beyond stressed. This was the worst time for something like this to happen. That money I had that was stolen was pulled out of the bank to pay for some things to be done to my car to fix it so that when Gavin gets here it's safer and the A/C would be fixed. But, now I have to start back at square one and he will be here in a little over 13 weeks. Time has flown by... Oh well... And for those who also don't know this...me and Alex are back together. You can talk whatever crap you want. No one here knows our relationship. Yeah he was a jerk and he said some things and didn't grow up when he should have, but he was scared... I know there are better ways to deal with being scared that your life is about to change forever, but it takes a lot of stress off of me knowing I don't have to go through this a single mom. I seriously thought that even before he got here I'm a single mom and it's the worst feeling in the world. Alex is doing even better than when we were together last time. Everything is how it should be. I probably won't be on much for a little while between trying to get new cards/id/car fixed/working my butt off to get money to pay for everything so I hope everyone is okay. I miss you guys very much.
I'm having a little boy I'm so excited. Had that feeling all along it was a boy, and just glad to know my mother instinct was already correct :P haha. Here's the pictures from my visit today (:
He was so freaking stubborn and had his face towards my back sooo he so happened to turn around and you could see thisss...
This is his little hand <3
And nowww..... You can tell he is definitely a boy :P haha My little Gavin Alexander I love you with all my heart.
This is the quote that so describes my situation and completely made me feel better today (:
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." ~Marilyn Monroe
Those better things are going to happen out of all the bad things that have happened recently, that I can be sure of (: I just needed to read that and maybe other people do as well so I thought I'd share. (:
Only 19 more days til I find out the sex of my baby The little one is moving around more and more now (:
So, I went to the doctor this morning. Heard my baby's heartbeat for the very first time. I almost cried. I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling. My little one has a really strong heartbeat.
I also had blood work done and it will test for brain and spine defects like Down's syndrome, spina bifida (sp?), etc. They said if anything is wrong they will call me within the next week or so (: So, if I haven't heard anything then that means nothing is wrong
And *drum roll* I have my gender appointment scheduled for February 21 at 9 am That's when I'll find out if there's a little boy or girl in my tummy I can't wait to find out (:
But, anyways...stupid cold while being preggo sucks. My dr said natural remedies work better for preggos lol. I think it's just cause they're scared to tell you medicines you can take. Another preggo girl's dr said tylenol cold was okay. No sedatives or other things that you're not supposed to take in it. So, hopefully it'll start working. I don't have money to go out buying nasal spray and a humidifier like he suggested lol.
I will probably be chopping off my hair today. I cannot stand fixing it anymore! Being preggo makes you not wanna do anything :P So, today it's going to be much shorter. Also, going into labor with long hair would suck. Idk, and it just needs to be cut anyways, it's looking pretty bad and my bangs are so long I can't even look at my tables at work without hair in my eyes! It's interfering with my job performance
But, this was really just a happy thread about my baby I can't wait til next month I am so impatient. But, I know it'll go by quickly.
I'm so excited. 
But, so basically anything of importance to me in my car is gone and I have to pay out of pocket to get my car window fixed...this weekend was horrible in that sense. I'm just beyond stressed. This was the worst time for something like this to happen. That money I had that was stolen was pulled out of the bank to pay for some things to be done to my car to fix it so that when Gavin gets here it's safer and the A/C would be fixed. But, now I have to start back at square one and he will be here in a little over 13 weeks. Time has flown by...
I love you with all my heart. 