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darknecroed's Journal
DarknecroEd Journal
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Beloved
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September 26, 2008, 11:08:pm
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Beloved
[October 2001]
it's colder than before
the seasons took all they had come for
now winter dances here
it seems so fitting don't you think?
to dress the ground in white
and grey
it's so quiet I can hear
my thoughts touching every second
that I spent waiting for you
circumstances afford me
no second chance to tell you
how much I've missed you
my beloved do you know
when the warm wind comes again
another year will start to pass
and please don't ask me why I'm here
something deeper brought me
than a need to remember
we were once young and blessed with wings
no heights could keeps us from their reach
no sacred place we did not soar
still greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same
my beloved do you know
how many times I stared at clouds
thinking that I saw you there
these are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed was ours
moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
no pain remains, no feeling
eternity awaits
grant me wings that I might fly
my restless soul is longing
no pain remains, no feeling
eternity awaits
© VNV Nation
Mood: [FINE///+///alone]
Music: VNV NATION
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Illusion
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September 22, 2008, 01:12:am
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ILLUSION
[February 2007]
I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt I don't want you to change
Because everyone has hopes
You’re human after all
The feeling sometimes wishing you were someone else
feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness
This feeling is not joy
I truly understand
Please don't cry now
Please, don't go
I want you to stay
I'm begging you, please
Please, don't leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Being like you are
well this is something else.
Who would comprehend?
But some that do lay claim
that divine purpose blesses them
Well that's not what I believe
and it doesn't matter anyway.
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
or maybe to the last but I'm still not sure
What I do know is to us the world is different
as we are to the world
I guess you would know that
Please, don't go
I want you to stay
I'm begging you, please
Please, don't leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please, don't go
I want you to stay
I'm begging you, please
Please, don't leave here
I don’t want you to change for all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion always trying to change you
copyright © vnv nation - all rights reserved
Mood: not sadness ,,, not joy
Music: vnv nation
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[new OS]
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September 15, 2008, 05:43:pm
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[+] Old system is down / / / Welcome to the new OS [/] Good sources = good support / / / poor systems = fast death / / / the system won't help if sources are bad . . . [ok?]
Mood: thinking... .. ... ... it really worth it!
Music: Torrent Vaccine - Pessimist LO - FI
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about life...
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August 19, 2008, 11:34:pm
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I think these difficult times have helped me to understand better than before how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way and that so many things that one goes around worrying about are of no importance whatsoever.
When life pokes and prods you, it is not punishment or abuse. You are being pushed out of the nest. Spread your wings and take flight. See how well you can fly.
It is the denial of death that is partially responsible for people living empty, purposeless lives, for when you live as if you will live forever, it becomes too easy to postpone the things you know you must do.
Cultivate the habit of taking time every day to sit in the middle of your soul so you can be in conscious contact with the beauty of your inner garden.
However mean your life is, meet it and live it: do not shun it and call it hard names. Cultivate poverty like a garden herb, like sage. Do not trouble yourself much to get new things, whether clothes or friends. Things do not change, we change. Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts.
Attitude is the way you mentally look at the world around you. It is how you view your environment and your future. It is the focus you develop toward life itself.
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
Don't be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams
Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.
Holding on to anger is like holding on to a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.
Set yourself free from the past, bring peace into your life, and move into the present by letting go of your anger and bitterness.
You must be the change you wish to see in the world.
When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Mood: thinking
Music: memories
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Happy Mother's Day - Mom :)
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August 16, 2008, 12:05:am
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I hope u had a great day! ... and enjoy what we did for u!.. I miss u so much and writing this is a great way to express what I feel cause u know i was always the one quiet and shy! ... I miss u soo much! I know ur in the right place! I want to go there too!... and be happy again ... Rest in peace! and show me the right way to be with u again!
Mood: Thinking about my life
Music: Simplicity - Metus
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