I feel like driving to one of the cliffs I've been looking at and jump, I've been daydreaming about jumping all day. Life is such bull shit I'm so sick of it. My parents don't even realize how much I'm hurting right now. They are to busy outside drinking. Fuck it I might as will drink too. I can't do this anymore I just can't fuck my life, fuck the world, I'm done I'm fucking done
Things to get
alcohol
Razors
Weed
Pills
Coke
Things to do
Hang out with devin one last time
Hang out with my brother
Go to brittneys Halloween party
Hang out with shilah
Right suicide notes
Spend time with kitkat
After I get all the stuff and have done all what I need to do then it will be the end of me. I just don't give a fuck anymore. Fuck everything I see no point in living all life is is pain and I can't deal with it anymore I'm sick of losing everyone I care about. It's such bull shit I just can't do it anymore. I'm so depressed I don't even want to move think blink or even breathe.......fuck this fucked up world I'm fucking done with it Mood: Suicidal Music: Deftones
I'm so high right now, I love weed so much. I don't think I'll ever stop smoking weed
All I've been doing lately is smoking weed because I have nothIng else to do.
I've had a good last couple days, Mood: Content
I'm sick of losing everyone I care about. It's such bull shit I just can't do it anymore. I'm so depressed I don't even want to move think blink or even breathe.......fuck this fucked up world I'm fucking done with it 
