cower in the darkness, from which i dwell, the shadows swell, you cry and i know all too well, the taste of fear, the sweet odor of your fright, i shall comsume you within, from your heart i'll begin, devouring it all, taking every morsel of energy from your soul. draining you dry, not a tear shed from my eyes, darkness...hear this cry.
i will never hold you. i will never laugh with you. i will never get to wipe away your tears. i will never get to hear the word "dad" from your lips. i will never get to watch you grow but you will feel my love from the beyond. you will know me one day and I will always love you my unborn child. RIP feb. 2012 Mood: trying to make sense of death Music: none
Mummy...Johnny brought a gun to school, he told his friends that it was cool , and when he pulled the trigger back
It shot with a great crack! Mummy I was a good girl, I did what I was told, I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold
But mummy when I went to school that day, I never said goodbye, I'm sorry mummy I had to go, but mommy please don't cry
When Johnny shot the gun he hit me and another, and all because he got the gun from his older brother
Mummy please tell daddy that I love him very much, and please tell Chris, my boyfriend, that it wasn't just a crush
And tell my little sister that she is the only one now, and tell my dear sweet grandmother that I'll be waiting for her now
And tell my wonderful friends that they were always the best
Mummy I'm not the first I'm no better than the rest, mummy tell my teachers I won't show up for class, and never to forget this and please don't let this pass
Mummy why'd it have to be me no one deserves this, mummy warn the others, mummy I left without a kiss
And mummy tell the doctors I know they really did try, I think I even saw a doctor trying not to cry
Mummy I'm slowly dying with a bullet in my chest, but mummy please remember I'm in heaven with the rest, mummy I ran as fast as I could when I heard that crack
Mummy listen to me if you would, I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new, I guess I'm not going with daddy, on that trip to the new zoo
I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid, I wanted to be an actress
Mummy I wanted to live, but mummy I must go now the time is getting late
Mummy tell my Chris, I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date , I love you mummy I always have, I know you know it's true
Mummy all I wanted to say is "mummy I love you", In memory of the Columbian students that were lost
Please if you would, pass this around, I'd be happy if you could
Don't smash this on the ground, if you pass this on, maybe people will cry
Just keep this in heart, for the people that didn't get to say "goodbye" Mood: thought prvoking Music: silence
If knowledge knew... if knowledge knew what I know now from day one life began rough marine father controlling mother but the smiles between hardships are what i seek again. the wanting of pain he crusade of my agony is what my hunt was many din not want to know what it is to be different the craving of a fixtation of blood and flesh and distruction mostly my own the sick saddist smile on my face when enter a mospit meant for me....the one word i never tohught would make me giggle madly....blood and pain mix with insanity most would see that smile and leave this sacred circle of abandonment to me the thrash of an eblow connection to ribs is like a spyhony to me with a purcussion of my fist to that actions response with a pound to his chest and a smile that connects the two of you knowing this man has your back if this went south if a real brawl came to it that this....this is an ally this connection is not found it is brought together no mistake no miscalulation just knowledge of ones self so if knewledge knew what i know now... would i have still learned? still learned love or sacrifice or knowing what it is to strive for something not just anyone but anything to feel that pain can bring other things beside hurt it brings a bond. Mood: intuitive Music: under and over it FFDP
