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bloody_black_rose's Journal
some cuts heal an, some cuts may never heal
this is my journal were i write poems and entrys so please have respect and tell me what you think and if you cant handle depprison or suicidal thoughts then keep the FUCK OUT
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IM MARRIED
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November 22, 2008, 01:27:am
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YEA ITS TRUE IM MARRIED HAHA =D
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just letting out some of my pms out cause i dont need it to confuse me or mess me up more so here it is
watch me burn away
watch me fade away
darkness comes
holding me
im screaming let me go
my angel im screaming "WHERE ARE YOU!"
i feel a heavyness
i feel my eyes burn
sighs
fears
tears fall
baby i love you
i miss you i need to see you
im so happy were one
one day the real thing but for now its this
im you beautyfull dark wife
your my handsom hubby
i love you
im sorry i feel this way when we just had something
happy happend
its just a mood swing soon i'll be happy or sobin
Mood: HAPPY
Music: TRULY MADLY DEEPLY - SAVAGE GRADEN
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love i miss you...
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November 19, 2008, 03:36:am
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here i sit in the darkness of morning
my only light sorce is this screen an lamp
its 3:30am
your still not online i miss you hun
i hope we talk soon
you must be fast asleep
while im here waiting for you
i have two ciggrets
so once there done im off to bed
i miss you its the second time
we havent talked
when pland to
its ok because i got to hear your sweet voice
i wish i could see your face but im gonna have to wait i guess
im hopeing soon i can see you face to face
but things keep fucking up
i have to wait
an i will because i love you
you fill my being an heart with happyness
i hear a song play
an it makes me think of you more
i just lit my ciggret as the smoke escapes my lungs
i wish for you to be here
i love you
i miss you
now i will stop writeing
in hopeing you'll at least email me later
if not come online to talk
goodnight my dark angel,my everything
Mood: missing longing hopeing
Music: Patience - Guns N' Roses
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love help me...goodnight
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November 17, 2008, 11:41:pm
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i don't feel like you deserve me,
but maybe it's just a bad hour
i just feel sad
as a tear rolls down my face
i let our memories pace in my mind
over an over i think of you
i scream into silents
im so scared to lose you
i wish i didn't carry this fear
so i wouldn't have to bear this
you make me happy
you make me smile
you make me laugh
an i want this to last
if i could cast a spell to bring you here already
i would have but thats disany
last night i layed my head down an i couldnt sleep
you were on my mind
i hope you find away soon
to come here
i miss you my dear darkest angel
i know if i didn't have you
i would be doing what i did befor
but im glad i have you
cause i dont have to do it anymore
an i know when we talk again
we'll get through this
i miss you
i love you
but tonight i dont know what to do anymore
my mind is fucking with me
an i believe your not like that
now as i get ready for sleep
i hope to dream of you tonight
i hope i wont cry tonight
cause it saddenss me that your not here
but i wont give up hope
cause if its ment
all will work out
i love you my dark angel
goodnight
just the tunes im listeng to at them moment
the saddest one i know it makes you think..dont it?
Mood: i donno
Music: wednesday 13 my demise
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to you my everything
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November 16, 2008, 04:09:am
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here i sit its 4am
how much more do i have to wait?
i hate waiting this is starting to stress me
but im not gonna let it press on our love
i just want you to be here
you may not see my tears but inside my heart cries
i have so much love for you
yet the demon of the past is clawing at my soul
your the only one i want an need right now
your the only one that can leave me breathless
i need you now more then ever
i miss you tonight
can we find a way to make this time spent apart
fast forwed untill your here
here i lay on the floor waiting for you
im hopeing
im prayin for you to be here soon
i know patiance will need to set in to make this work
but i hate seeing you feel your a failer to this
your heart is mine untill your fate
my heart is yours untill you no longer want me
sometimes i feel life's playing its cards upon me
but to make this last i cant give up
i cant let this fade
i hope you feel the same way
now sleep sets in
i light up my last ciggret
i think of you
to ease my mind
but i long for you to be here
i love you
i miss you
i cant wait till i see you
as the ashes fall i feel my past pull away
i need you to hold me
i need you to catch me
im falling..
be my dark angel an fly to me
warm my heart an say your here to stay for now
tell me you love me an need me to
so now i close my eyes an silently
i say "goodnight my everything"
Mood: missing longing hopeing
Music: motley crue - the animal in me
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someday,sometime soon
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November 12, 2008, 10:07:pm
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i hope one day soon
i wish sometime soon
that you will be here
an plans wont get messed up
i wish you where here already
i want to be held
i long to be kissed
an i wish to feel your warmth inside your arms
your so close yet so far
i wish there was a way you could be here tonight
an spend more then a week by myside
i love you
i miss you
soon i want you here
my dark angel
my everything
you mean more then words can say
you mean more then the world to me
Mood: sad,missing,happy
Music: Dont Fear The Reaper - H.I.M
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