|
ann_toxic's Journal
|
What sets me free, kills me.
|
April 02, 2008, 02:29:am
|
|
Im finally 16.
Birthday was March 30th.
Saturday was my party,Sunday was my actual Bday.
Things have drastically changed since ive last wrote.
Thats for sure.
For 1,Im with morgan again.
Weve been off and on for a year now.
Its amazing.
Yet so stressfuuuuuuuuuuuuul.
I make it.
I havent smoked,cut or drank in months.
Im doing much better in school lately.
This website is pretty worthless to me these days.
Which is funny,cuase i used to be obsessed with the damn place.
Mood: Tired
Music: Silver by Nirvana
|
|
|
Remembering
|
January 23, 2008, 07:45:am
|
|
No where to start,since it still isnt over.
All this time ive wanted to release my guilt,
But she held it against me,never giving in.
She doesnt know i speak to her ex best friend.
She doesnt know that i still take a hit,
And think where wed be now.
It doesnt hurt.
Unless i stop to think about it.
Its been 3 years since i last held you.
On my knees is where i begged your love,
You walked away,in the rain you left me.
In the rain,is where i sat.
And Stayed.
Ive not seen you for allmost 2 years.
I begin to think maybe its just better for us both.
All this time.
I blame.
I hate.
I regret.
The wrong women.
The right to hate her,
Is nothing like ive felt.
I find,
Not even days ago,
That the hate for her,
Is mear guilt for you.
I guilt no more.
I sit and think.
But im strong.And i can get past this.
Like everything else.
I shed.
.................................................
I tear myself from the bone.
Rage builds on the deep inside.
I relive my past each night.
What sets me free, kills me.
.....................................................
AshPedia
LOVE: An EXCUSE to hurt
........................................................
I can not WAIT for my birthday,jesus chriminey
Mood: tired
Music: Happy by Mudvayne
|
|
|
Screw MLK Jr.
|
January 22, 2008, 03:08:am
|
|
I continue to listen about all this Martin Luther King Jr. Day. The more I hear,the more im SICK of it.Theyres so many other race holidays but none happen to be White celebrations.
Theyres Black History Month.
Cesar Chavez Day.
Yom Hashoah.
You have the NAACP.
You have BET.
If we had WET (White Entertainment Television) We'd be racist.
Everyone besides whites can be proud of theyre heritage and they are patted on the back.But god forbid someone try to say theyre proud to be white these days.
Cuase you know,thatd be RACIST !
I dont see very many proud white people these days and it makes me sick.Theyres nothing wrong with being proud of your skin color.I myself am not racist,But i will allways be proud of who I am,And others should be as well.
I say its time we start our own pride and just stop being afraid of such a label.
Everyone else does it.
|
|
|
Most beautiful words evvvvver
|
January 22, 2008, 02:31:am
|
|
Shes in the mixed of fighting with my ex,when the most wonderful words fly out of her mouth.
"SHE KNOWS HOW TO TREAT A WOMEN !"
My heart fills with sweet red blood.
The blood of love.
I feel so good right now....
|
|
|
This is the type of girl i want
|
January 15, 2008, 08:14:am
|
|
Come my lady
Come come my lady, you're my butterfly
Sugar baby (X2)
Such a sexy,sexy pretty little thing
Fierce nipple pierce you got me sprung with your tongue ring and I ain't gonna lie cause your loving gets me high
So to keep you by my side there's nothing that I won't try
Butterflies in her eyes and looks to kill
Time is passing
I'm asking could this be real
Cause I can't sleep I can't hold still
The only thing I really know is she got sex appeal
I can feel too much, is never enough
You're always there to lift me up
When these times get rough I was lost
Now I'm found
Ever since you've been around
You're the women that I want
So yo, I'm putting it down.
I don't deserve you unless it's some kind of hidden message to show me life is precious
Then I guess it's true
To tell truth, I really never knew
T'll I met you I was lost and confused
Twisted and used up
Knew a better life existed but thought that I missed it
My lifestyle's wild I was living like a wild child
Trapped on a short leash paroled the police files
And yo. what' s happening now?
I see the sun breaking shining through dark clouds and a vision of you standing out in a crowd.
Hey sugar momma, come and dance with me
The smartest thing you ever did was take a chance with me
So, what ever tickles your fancy
Girl it's you like Sid and Nancy
So sexy....almost evil
Talkin' about butterflies in my head
I used to think happy endings were only in the books I read
But you made me feel alive when I was almost dead
You filled that empty space with the love I used to chase
And as far as I can see it don't get better than this
So butterfly, here is a song and it's sealed with a kiss and a thank you miss....
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
(Artist: Crazy Town,
Song: Butterfly)
........
Deffinantly ! lol
Mood: Wanting
Music: Butterfly by Crazy Town
|
|
|
