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allice89's Journal
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home sweet home
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March 26, 2008, 07:55:pm
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well everyone, when u ask me who i am the first thing ill say is im an longislander, then i'll tell you im a new yorker and after that i'll tell you im an american. i might be leaveing the states, going to germany. and be with a master and another slave under his house. im so unhappy here and nothing any more is holding me here. i finally have gotten to the point where if i dont leave here i will be dead. ive been search for 3 years now for a master like him. this is the home and life i want. i guess all that is left really to say is good bye.
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keep on the light
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March 04, 2008, 08:20:pm
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what was i to you,
a game,
a laugh,
a fuck you threw aside,
am i the abused,
or just the acused,
do i speak nonsence,
or a dark truth,
what is there but lies,
ive become something un named,
and fears race and consume,
i try so hard not to hide,
scream for the right to sight,
the search for freedom and justice,
they may never be found,
the darkness is coming,
and ill keep on the light.
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GAMER
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February 26, 2008, 02:37:pm
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hide and seek
were hiders,
were seekers,
were hideandseek gamers,
we hide the truth,
we seek brand new,
were hiders,
were seekers,
we hide what we witness,
we seek a hope unfound,
were hiders,
were seekers,
we hide what we do,
we seek our own,
were hiders,
were seeks,
were hideand seek gamers,
were no weeker then you,
were stronger you see,
its all hiden to keep you safe,
and we stay up straight,
and hold our eyes,
our hearts on our sleeve,
our minds unreached,
our souls still pure,
we have learned to keep it untouched,
were hiders,
were seekers,
were hideandseek gamers,
and we know the truth.
I HAVE S.I. SENCE I WAS 10 YEARS OLD, IT STARTED SIMPLY WITH PICKING APART MY HANDS WITH NEEDLES AND SAFETY PINS. I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING UNTIL IT PROGRASSED WHEN I WAS 14 AND TOOK A RAZOR TO MY SKIN. I AM NOW19 YEARS OLD AND I STILL DO IT BUT NOW WITH KNIVES RAZORS AND LIGHTERS. MY BODY IS SO SCARRED YET MY SOUL HAS BEEN KEMOT SAFE HOW IS UNKNOWN TO ME. I AM A HIDEANDSEEKGAMER AND IM OK WITH THAT
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we'll change the world
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February 24, 2008, 08:42:pm
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we’ll change the world
we'll change the world,
one word at a time,
we'll wake them all up,
from there death sleep,
and open there eyes wider then ever before,
for fear is the truth,
and tears are witness,
to the lies we try to speak,
hands covered in dirt,
and bath tubs full of blood and razorblades,
falling stars,
and eyes show our souls,
our twisted little ways,
our sick little thoughts,
our demonic little smiles,
the filth we release from the veins we cut,
we know to much for we will pay,
for we witness all from the outside,
the fall of mankind,
and the rise of haterd,
the death of human kindness,
the missuse of the word love,
the mistreatment of human emotion,
and the over wellming growth of weakness.
to all of those who look at this worth threw eyes without hate and judgement, and love and beauty. but are not blind to all is around, yet are stronge and beautiful
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for what am i...........
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February 13, 2008, 02:56:pm
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little one,
i dont want to play,
glass under the skin,
breaking threw,
as the blood falls,
the skin curles to the inside,
the eyes shut and disapear,
falls to her knees,
and she reaches to me,
i back up one step,
and forward four,
the blood surounded me,
but i dare not run,
i cry only once,
as her blood seeps into my torn skin,
a fait laugh, the a a scream unheard of,
yet so formialar,
blades, lighter and needles rain from the sk,
ripping me apart as they fall,
my breath becomes heavy,
i fall next to her,
and she wishpers,
barely heard,
for what am i but the product of something so unclean,
i look to her,
now dead,
i speak,
rest now little one,
where creatures dont stir,
and all is truely safe,
be at peace,
for you knew to much,
and you scrificed it all,
to keep me safe,
but its now time for you to let me see all.
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