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XxexiledchildxX's Journal
It begins...
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Re-Cap
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June 25, 2008, 05:23:am
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I quit BK. I work at subway now.
I have changed a lot in the past couple of months. Thanks melissa.
I'm not the person I thought I was.
I got a car. It's a convertable.
My girlfriend left me to sleep with a multitude of people. Again, thanks melissa.
I decided to go back to high school in september.
I got a puppy.
I am learning a lot about life right now.
I moved back in with my mom :P
I owe $3000 dollars to a couple people and a bank
I did my own taxes this year
I fell in love
I got promoted twice
I have had 3 jobs this year
I am learning to be myself with everyone
I love my life, though it's not going the way I planned
Mood: realistic
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Getting Back to me
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April 06, 2008, 08:30:pm
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Why why why? HOw can emotions run so high? How can we go from hating to liking to loving, back to hating again, in such a short period of time? Why why why? Why do i let it bother me that you chose to leave me for him and he chose to leave you for her? WHy? I just waNT YOUR HAPPINESS YOU KNOW. wHAT IS best for you, even if it isn't the best for US. Because there is no us any longer. There never will be. You should never leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love and the one who loved you all along will realize that you never really cared about them. I tried to UNDERSTAND the predicament you were in, but sometimes it was HARD for me. I was put LAST on your list of things and you were NEVER THERE for me. I tried to be the ONE, the PERFECT INDIVIDUAL but the longer you IGNORED me, the more i REALIZED that this situation was CRITICAL. and that's just how i feel. Critical. In desperate need of some attention, the kind you used to give me. Not the touching. Or just the touching. But the care. THe warmth. The LOVE. THe love I thought was there, i believed you when you said, and just days later you get with this guy you've known for a short time. And now he has left you, and you know how i feel. Hurt alone and confused. And you have no friends because of what you did to me. Karma is cruel little girl. But I want you to remember that you are getting what you deserve for trying to find something or someone etter when you know i could have given you the world. You are the one who has changed. I'm just getting back to normal. Back to me. And the sad thing? Im still here for you princess.
Mood: CRITICAL
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Fuck me
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January 31, 2008, 03:21:pm
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Fuck me, suck me, kiss me, love me, lead me, tease me and then just leave me. That's how i feel about her right now. On a bright note, i will be performing in this years anual Stonwall Youth Drag Cabaret. Excited? You bet.
Mood: bleh
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Putting the "Us" in frustration
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January 19, 2008, 08:15:pm
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I changed my work schedual, thinking it would help you and I to get along better. everyone sees it you know. the fighting, the arguing, the hostility. well maybe if you wouldn't flirt with him when you say you don't like him... then again, maybe if he hadn't touched you in the first place...i don't know. so i started to rebuild what i have given up for "her" with my other friends. and you don't even seem to care. Don't seem to care that for the last two nights i lay awake in bed, trying to get some rest, but to no avail, because y0ou aren't laying next to me, and i am wondering who you are choosing to lay with instead. perhaps the ever-loving ex? myabe... which only makes me want to kill him for hurting you like that... or maybe the one i hate so much for being able to hold so much of your attention? who knows? you tell so many stories. funny. that you call them stories that is. Becuase most people would call it A LIE.
Mood: hurt
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Love-struck ramblings
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January 06, 2008, 12:49:am
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Soilove her.yep itsofficial.i bought hera puppy for christmas. red-nose pitbull.cute. 400 dollars.expensive but cute and worth it. I love the girl...
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