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XXXDEATHXDREAMXXX's Journal
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unespectable O.o
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September 01, 2008, 05:17:pm
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For some reason i had The most RAD days ever!!!!!!!!!!!
This last 3 days were totally WTF >.
Mood: Highed?? ISN'T THAT OBVIOUS???
Music: The Hives - Diabolic Sceme
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BACK FOR GOOD
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August 26, 2008, 11:56:am
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Hey folks??? MISS ME? no? yES?
JACKIE I MISS YOU HARDCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well folks i've been absent as you can observe... for a long i know..........
I'm doin a Huge revo on ma life... Changed university... Changed style... changed life.
im still studing chemestry, still working on a bar,still with my parents.
I'm on Punk/indie/rock aTm, stop playing bass, now i just sing XDD i made some friends, cool peps i start talking with ma old friends that's why i left almost for complete vf, i found out real life for good. and im loving it
i still don't have a bf... but im cooolllll XDD for good XDD
i miss you guys, Hardcore XD
Mood: Tired, upset
Music: MGMT- the Youth
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i know...
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August 15, 2008, 12:32:pm
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sorry folks for the abcense... but i had too much work -_-" i am fuckin tired... oh man!!
first of all i want december to come, cuz with december that means that jackie comes too XD yey!!!
second my parents can actually commit suicide i dont care if that happens, they are anoying me a lot, my Mom loves too hit on me and screw things up with my stepfather -_-" i swear i'm freaking out... i never wished for classes to come, in that way i will live alone again,please work hurry!!! i wanna STUDY FAR AWAY FROM MY FAMILY!!! EISH!!
Third and last point i need money right now to pay bills and sum other stuff, so i will be working a lot, but jackie i didnt forget you, naaaaah nevah XD
Sorry Kissyyyyy
Mood: pissed off with "mother"
Music: NIN- Lights in the Sky
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Lost forever more
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August 07, 2008, 07:47:am
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If my pride was heard by devotion, just a story that gets unturn, my mind is deep and is it like this?
well ppl this is my last journal. I'm not being dramatic at all, i'm tired of lies, of caracters, of internet. My mother left me like all my family, I can't blame them at all, cuz they expected other things for me, in the beginning of September i will kill maself with work studies and rehersals, I'll never ever again have time to get here online or even is messenger... I have to keep up with my real life, i think i was always on VF some months ago cuz i didn't realized how people can actually be important for me. but it's too late for my family to accept this. Maybe i wanna be someone, maybe i realized that i'm nothing, MAYBE i realized that i don't have nothing. So, my new journey starts now. I will talk with my friends and ask for forgiveness at least i think they love me. They do, they support me, not my family. they hate me actually. Fuck it.
Mood: Starting a Depression....
Music: Sigur Ros - Staralfur
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awwiiieee
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August 04, 2008, 08:32:am
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Hi folks specially Jackie XDD
these days have been OMFGGGGGGG!!!!!!!! Always drunk and highed in a fuckin beach playing accoustic guitar, having bath in the sea all naked with my friends, Indie Rock Discos, Drink a lot, Smokin lots of weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed and POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT XD Yeah ppl peace and love!!!
I am in a Caravan in i dunno where, but i know that i am in Portugal cuz my portable internet works, but i'll repeat i dunno where, the only thing i buy is whiskey and beer, no no i bought 3 packs of smokes yesterday XDD
I never had fun like this, Now i know many different ppl XD i have rastafaris has friends, rockabillies, punks... i dunno XD PEACE!!
And jackie i wanna Teleport too XDDDD you know what for i guess XDDDD
Kissus ppl
*Rapes Jackie*
Mood: AWWWWWWWWWIEOFGMGGZNEGZQNEGZKQENGZNGZEOVS
Music: Thievery Corporation- Marching the Hate Machines into the Sun
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Last day of my tour.
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July 27, 2008, 07:16:am
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Finally the days of a screamer ended.
My crazy days of rock 'n' roll will start at last, i will bought an acoustic and start to compose my own music XDD
My style changed also, i Got tired of dressing like a Gothic lolita/industrial smth >>"
Now the ties, Shirts, ripped out pants all star is my way.
These days were important to establish some ways to be, to go, to do.
And now my band will be rock 'n' roll, i will finish chemestry to have a great job in the Future, then i'll do the other thing i said i would.
I broke up with my boyfriend, i will dye my hair in black, i will leave drugs behind, i will smoke less, i will drink less and i will only care with the people that love me, like really love me. Guys I'll be out, for a goooooooooooooood time. Tata (Like ma friend ani Says)
Jackie i'll miss you a lot i'l try to be on msn and yes, i'm alive and thinner XD
bye bye Folks
Mood: Calm, relaxed, happy.
Music: U2- She moves in Mysterious ways ( YEAH I KNOW)
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4th day of my tour.
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July 19, 2008, 09:02:pm
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Gig: awesome.
Parental control: ZOMG! me and my mother almost hit each other, if it wasn't my stepfather, well he is more than a father for me i was screwed! he defend me, like all the time. I'm sorry mom but i'm not perfect, not at all. She would love to have a Daughter like preppy and of course that wanted to be a doctor, well i'm grunge/industrial/punk girl that wants to be a fuckin rockstar. ok, you don't let me go work and be independent anymore, why? WTF!! That's the most nonsense stuff ever heard, she don' want me to leave university and let me be independent and let me work? why? i want to have a real full time job!!! >.
Mood: pissed off and dangerous!!!
Music: Cannibal Corpse - i cum blood
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3rd day of my Tour
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July 18, 2008, 09:05:pm
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well guys.
Today i had the first talk with my parents: i just said "Mom, Dad, i love you guys but i wanna change my life, i'm sick and tired of chemestry, chemestry suck balls!!!"
they said: " We understand you daughter, but what you want to do about that?"
I said: "Change into something that i really love"
They said: " ..."
End of discussion, tomorrow we have the second round probably XDD.
Talking of music, my gig was great and my band did me a surprise, in the end of the gig guys asked for an encore, like of course they did cuz we were great, at least they screamed and applauded all the time, so i think we were great. Like i was sayin, my band did me a surprise XDD in the encore, instead of playin a song of us, Deathcore or w/e, they started to play Main offender of The Hives and said, girl Just sing it!!! we know u know this song, and i sang it so fuckin well that in the end i cried and hugged them!!! i love u Guys XDD And yes i know i'm turnning sensitive XDD YEY!!! XDD
Kissu, well i accept comments and opinions, bad, evil, shitty, good, with sense most of all.
I love you guys!!! from the deep of my heart Vf Community XDD
Mood: Wierd
Music: El Gincho - cuando maavilla fui
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2nd day of tour.
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July 17, 2008, 09:06:pm
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Like i said before i'm changing...
I'm going to say to them (parents) the whole truth... I'm scared, I'm feeling lost.
I feel like a big disapointment for them, i never did what they wanted i never reached what they desired for me, never, not even a small thing. Yes i'm shit, w/e.
good things: i said to ma band mates that i wanted to play rock n roll and they said: anything you want master.
ok at least that!!! XDD now i feel happy and with more strenght!
Bring it hell Lipa!!! and btw our gig was great! XDDD
kissus
Mood: incertain
Music: Embrace - Looking as you are
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1st day of my tour.
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July 16, 2008, 09:57:pm
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we arrived to a house, a house in nowhere... It's a beach house Situated near Faro, a city in the south of Portugal. I'm here with my band mates Has you can actually know that, we need concentration and time for ourselves before our gigs start.
My parents are coming also and i think that things will go wrong when i tell them the truth.
I'm Scared, i dunno what to do. Well i do know what to do, but i think i just don't have the guts... Can truth for the first time being so difficult for me to admit it? sometimes i just ask to myself Where is Filipa, the brutal, strong and honest person ever i met in the entire world. I don't feel like her anymore... i'm Hiding in a shell and surrounding me with lies.
I don't like Deathcore anymore i wanna do Rock 'n' Roll please mates accept it.
I don't wanna do Chemestry anymore i wanna study sound technician during the night and have a cool job during the day.
That are my first thoughts in the first day, things become clear but still i'm afraid to admit them.
Like i promised, there you have the first updates of my inerself trip.
Mood: Scared, Sad, Fake.
Music: Gary Jules - Mad World
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