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XTearsXdontXforgiveX's Journal
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Happy Valentine's...posted b4!
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February 13, 2008, 12:11:pm
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Help me,
Help me,
To get rid of myself..
Cuz every time i close my eyes,
I think,
to you,
Maybe this is a goodbye,
Yes, Cuz im leaving this sky,
Hard to understand,
I know,
But im not okay,
Alone,
Im tired,
Tired of everything,
I wanna cry,
Leave it all here,
Im sure this a goodbye...
Be happy,
You'll never see me again.
Be happy,
I will walk away.
Be happy,
I'll get rid of myself.
It was fun till it lasted.
Happy Valentine's.
Mood: ...sad,tired...almost dead.
Music: AFI:The leaving song :'(
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February 10, 2008, 11:41:am
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Now I realize,
you made me cry,
And I just closed my eyes.
But now...my tears are not forgiving u anymore...
Im gonna stand up,
Im gonna forget you,
But never forgive you...
I watch the birds flying in the sky,
so high,
and then I cry,
Cuz i remember...
I watch the season's end,
everyday,
Im not okay.
Im alone ,
with no sense of diffidation,
Im different now,
you will never recognize me,
Im another now,
Now i'll walk this world on my own,
and cry.
Mood: Sad...
Music: AFI:Death Of Seasons.
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..Red is a color that makes us forget....
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February 03, 2008, 08:17:am
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...I think it's time to die...
There is no reason to live again.
Im suffering,of everything...
Red.
Everything is red,
Red.
As blood.
Red.
As Love.
Red.
As hate.
Red.
As my hands,of fate.
Should I close my eyes...
Ignore,forget and cry?
Should i lie..
again?
Should i just fall down again..
To cry,and feel and die inside?
I don't want to die again.
I died more than I wanted to.
You made me cry.
You made me Deny.
You made me like this.
Im not forgiving.
Im not closing my eyes.
Mood: ...sad...
Music: Underoath:When The Sun Sleeps
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Shot's from a gun full of sorrow.
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January 30, 2008, 01:06:pm
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I don't know how I can continue.
Im soffocating now.
Help me.
Everything...should follow me..
and then kill me.
Everything should destroy me...
inside.
Everything should be so sad...
for me.
I need to change,but I don't know how...
I need to close my eyes and stop...
I need to take revange...
I need to change.
I need to cry.
...
Mood: ...Sad...
Music: Underoath:The Impact of reason.
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Tears of fate and sorrow.
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January 29, 2008, 07:34:am
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Tears are falling down,
I wanna scream,
but i can't.
Im between darkness and sorrow,
I don't know what to do.
So i just cry,
Cry for love and sorrow,
crying,
Without reason,
crying,
Waiting for tommorow,
crying,
when locked in this prison,
Save me.
Mood: Sad :'|
Music: From Autumn To Ashes:Autumns monologue.
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Rain is my best friend....
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January 27, 2008, 09:15:am
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Im alone...
I know..i don't have friends...
everything is so soffocating,
I wanna cry,
But I can't...
I try to smile,
But it's no time...
Leave me...
I am alone,
everywhere...
I don't wanna be alone...
even when i have a somebody next to me...
I am alone.
Silence.
Please don't patronize me,
Tears.
Please don't soffocate me,
Tension.
Please don't block me.
Sorrow.
Set me free.
Frustration,Torment...
You left me alone...
Im not anymore that girl,
Time eats my dreams..
Standing in the rain.
Trying to kiss the rain.
Rain you are my best friend.
My only friend.
Mood: Tired,Sad and alone.
Music: Escape The Fate:My Apocalypse
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Love Kills....
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January 26, 2008, 11:56:am
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Love is loosing time...indeed.
Love is falling down...every time u stand up.
Love is staying down..for sure.
Love is self-harm...for your mind.
Love is soffocating...yeah it is.
Love is destructive...and it destroys everything.
Love is bad,mean.
Love is what we don't need.
Love is suicide.
Nothing more.
Just Death.
love sucks.
Mood: Sick....
Music: Escape The Fate:Situations
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Love is something u should not look for.
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January 26, 2008, 04:30:am
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Love is loosing time...indeed.
Love is falling down...every time u stand up.
Love is staying down..for sure.
Love is self-harm...for your mind.
Love is soffocating...yeah it is.
Love is destructive...and it destroys everything.
Love is bad,mean.
Love is what we don't need.
Love is suicide.
Nothing more.
Just Death.
love sucks.
Mood: Sick
Music: Escape The Fate:Situations
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Throw me away....
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January 25, 2008, 12:31:pm
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Leave me alone...i wanna cry.
I can't take it anymore.
My heart is broken.
Im soffocating inside.
Im dead Inside.
Your breathe kills me... .
Please stop.
In my feelings and my emotions im blocked.
Please Throw me away.
Please throw me away.
Im falling down.
I cant take it.
Go away.
I need silence.
Just silence.
My tears are falling down.
I am bleeding.
Inside.
Let me fall.
Let me cry.
Let me Down.
Let me scream.
Let me end it here.
Just words.
I can't breathe.
I can't talk.
I can't feel.
I just cry,cry and cry.
Please go away.
You are blockin me inside.
Im dead inside...
Im not insane.
Im just alone.
Im just starving.
Im just dead.
You killed me.
I am falling down every time I stand up.
I am decinding but never acting.
I am feeling bad.
I wanna throw up.
I am alone
I am alone
alone.
Mood: ...Apathetic
Music: From Autumn To Ashes:Short Stories with Tragic endings...
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Stupid...
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January 25, 2008, 08:23:am
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Everything is so depressing.I can't take it.
1.I don't have any stupid friend...everybody hates me at school and I really dont have friends.
2.People always make fun of me and make rumors of me.
3.School is annoying and im terrible like always.
4.The only thing that is good now are my parents that magically aren't annoying me and saying phrases such as:"You should study more" or "Stop being so depressed".
5.I am so alone...And my Hawthorne Height CD just broke.
6.I wanna scream...but I can't.I don't have energy and courage.
7.My Ipod is acting weird today.
8.My only friend (that isn't truly my friend)is annoying with messages such as:"TALK" "WRITE SOMETHING"..i just dont want to chat with her now.And at school she says..."You are always listening to music,u never talk"
Mood: Depressed and Apathetic
Music: From Autumn To Ashes:Recounts And Recollections(Max.Volume)
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