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Lonely, cold and can't sleep. November 16, 2008, 08:47:pm
Ugh, the weather outside is horrible.
I hate it.
I'll never be able to sleep in this, i need my boyfriend with me, i really miss him.
I'm cold and i'm lonely and because of some weird reason i'm just really pissed off, at everything.
I hate this feeling, i get it too often.

I went to a awesome concert yesterday.
Wistaria, Embrace the Plague, Gone Postal, Bastard, SEVERED CROTCH <3 and Celestine.
I loved it, it was pretty crazy and i just really love that kind of concerts.
Drunk metalheads are so much fun.

Haha, my mom just walked in and i'm sitting by the computer wearing nothing but panties, and it's 1.42.
I think i'll just try going to sleep now.

I hate sleeping alone.
Mood: Lonely.
Music: Nettie - Type O Negative.
Illugi<3 September 24, 2008, 06:55:pm
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Be jealous.
He's mine <3

Mood: Bored.
Music: No Fear for the Setting Sun - Amon Amarth
HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! July 13, 2008, 11:00:pm
MY BABY IS HOME!!!
my darling, my pumpkin, my bestest friend, Agnes! is home from Denmark.
She was there for 16 days!!!
I thought she'd be home tomorrow so i was like so surprised!!!
I was at a metal concert and i went out to the car to change a shirt and there she was!
I WAS SO HAPPY!
I screamed and ran to her and hugged her for like half an hour XD

Anyways wow that concert was AWESOME!

It started with Disturbing Boner,
then there was Atrum,
then there was Dark Harvest - the singer gave me a cd and the whole band signed it ^^
and well then there was... INNVORTIS!
I loooooove them <3
AND THEN there was CONTRADICTION!
They we're so awesome.
I bought a cd and a t-shirt and the band signed both for me ^^
I slammed so much, my neck is hurting like hell!
And the mosh pit was so great,
i fell down once and i was like so scared, but i got up without hurting myself.
I lost a shoe couple of times.

This was just so awesome :]
Mood: Happy & Tired
Music: Nothing, watching South Park
Needy. June 17, 2008, 11:58:pm
Mig vantar einhvern.
Mig vantar einhvern sem getur staðið með mér,
í gegnum allt sem ég er að ganga í gegnum.
Allt sem ég geri rangt,
öll mín mistök.
Einhvern sem ég efast ekki um að elski mig.
Einhvern sem ég get alltaf farið til.
Einhvern sem sýnir mér þá athygli sem ég þarf.
Einhvern sem tekur mér eins og ég er.
Einhvern sem vill alltaf verið með mér.
Einhvern sem skammast sín ekki fyrir að vera með mér.
Einhvern sem vill sýna öllum að ég sé frátekin.

Það er of mikið til að ætlast af einhverjum.

Ég hef reyndar, tvær manneskjur sem ég get alltaf treyst á.
Agnes Ýr og Sigrún Emelía.
Elska þær svo mikið, þær eru yndin mín.
Og ég sakna þeirra :/

Mig vantar knús...
reyndar... þá vantar mig miklu meira en knús.
En já, það er það sem mig vantar, ég á nógu góða vini...
Ég á bestu vini í öllum heiminum.
Æji þið fattið, mig vantar einhvern til að elska... pleh væmið.

Mood: Depressed.
Music: We Will Rise - Arch Enemy

Það er ekki hægt... June 05, 2008, 10:40:pm
...að lifa í afneitun
og telja sér trú á hverjum morgni að lífið verði betra,
að þetta sé bara slæmt tímabil.
'það koma betri tímar...'
'þú munt geta brosað aftur eins og áður bráðum'
'þú munt geta sofið'
'þú munt geta borðað'

Það er ekki hægt að lifa svona,
Það er ekki hægt að segja öllum að þér líði vel,
þegar maður er alveg við það að brotna algjörlega niður.

Afhverju geri ég ekkert rétt?
Afhverju les ég skilaboðin vitlaust?
Afhverju reyni ég svona mikið?
og afhverju mistekst mér alltaf?

Má ég ekki bara gefast upp?
Ég hef ekki þol í þetta...
Ég get þetta bara ekki...

Music: Like Knives - City And Colour


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