You guys are just awesome. I have no idea who I'm talking about, but I feel like telling someone that they're awesome. All the awesome people I speak to on a daily basis, they know it! If you're reading this, let the world know you're awesome. I'm in a weird mood, and just woke up. Don't fuck with my good mood! Mood: Awesome Music: Breaking Benjamin
It's been too long, not sure if I can do this properly anymore. I've done a bit of changing, and for a while I was seriously considering deleting this profile. It seemed so useless, but now I remember why I have it. To spill my emotions shamelessly. I can't help but hide from the world. I'm showing who I am, but not what makes me tick. It's a safe choice, but then no one understands how I feel. I have no balance in my life. I want someone I can't have, and he may be one of two people that read this. Even if he chose me, how could it ever last? Worlds apart, and neither one of us willing to make such a drastic change. The worst part is, he doesn't know how I feel, and likely won't know it's him even while reading this. I'm afraid of commitment, but I wanted him, I wanted to commit to him. Now he's committed to another. I've lost almost all of my friends all over again, it's like shedding a skin. I'm better off without it. I'm making new ones as easily and quickly as I get rid of the old. I'm more out going than I've ever been, and it feels good. I go out of my way to make someone smile. Other people's happiness is important to me, even if they're strangers. All it takes is one smile to change someone's entire day, one smile to change their entire view of the world. I know this, I've been on the receiving end of a kind gesture, now I want to give everyone this view. I work 44 hours every week, and I've had a week off. Time to think, time to relax, and time to bond with new people. I may just quit my job too. I'm not looking for advice, just an outlet. This is my time to figure life out. Help along the way is appreciated, but I haven't fallen just yet, I'll catch myself. Mood: Clueless Music: Flyleaf
So I'm trying not to have an emotional melt down. I just want the world to leave me alone. When ever I'm at my lowest point people want to talk to me. Just die! Ugh! I feel like such a typical woman, I hate this shit. Fuck off. I can't believe that bastard would do such a thing; low life cheater! Throw it in my face why don't you. I hope she gives you herpes! I'm so fucking done with men. Just fuck off and die! Mood: Irritated as fuck Music: Big Bang Theory music
Moving to Florida tomorrow. Very stressed, and was actually thinking about deleting my vf all together. Talk if you think I shouldn't, remain silent if I should. Mood: Stressed Music: Evanescence & Flyleaf
Okay, so the past 2 weeks I've gotten overtime. This week I was scheduled 31 hours, but have already worked two double shifts... I've 23 hrs in the past two days... I'm tired! Because of this, I will be in overtime again this week... My birthday is coming up, and I would like to take a trip to Jacksonville, Fl; round trip, it's 1,000 miles, hooray. Guess who does not have the money to get... Unless I get my check early, which i probably won't... or early bday money, I won't be able to go on my trip I'm so confused about Rayne right now. What are we anymore? I'd like to just sleep for a few days straight, but that won't happen The only thing I like right now is that I'm losing a little bit of weight and my acne is clearing back up. I started my period this morning, and had to go to work... As soon as I get there, corporate is there and is making a fuss about every little thing, and it drives me crazy! I have to adapt to him being in my way and making stupid and/or helpful suggestions. I had to keep telling him and my GM to keep it down when I got a beep... Which is funny that I got to tell higher ups to shut up or go away just because I was in drive through :P Mood: TIRED Music: None
